Choose to be unstoppable!

 

If you feel you want to, 

or you act in a way you want to....

-by judging others,

 give advise when others don't ask you,

 feel insecure when you give and you don't 

 get anything back-

you KNOW that instead of looking outside,

you need to look inside.....'again'....

It is so easy to caught up by emotions,

to react on the news or/and social media.

So much is going on and for me it shows 

that we 'still have to do 'some' work inside'.....

People talk about war,

about 'taking back the night'

-a theme in Holland after a young woman of 17

 was killed at night and after femicide victims

 the last month-.

You also see that 'old leaders'

want to be in control......

not listening at the people they should lead,

but the need to 'show their -unhealed-power'...

Showing it through manipulating.....

Only......

'people' are not that afraid anymore,

they show their power by:

-peaceful demonstrations,

-by not accepting being fired because they Know

it is not right.......

-they dealt with their fear and let it go,

replacing it by love....

So there is a change,

a positive one AND

the media likes to 'help' us

to feed the fears.......

It is our choice: do we deal with our fears

and let love in,

or do we feed the fears with more 'negative information'.....

On September 7th there will be a Lunar eclipse, a blood moon.

It will be the same as in 1998 and 2006.

-what happened between 1997 and 1998

 and what between 2006 and 2008-

Look back, take the time and feel where you

need to get closure and need a new beginning.

Where do you need to let go and trust

and where in you life do you need to heal

and do the things that are needed

to live the life you choose to.

Eclipses are about relationships.......

How do you communicate with yourself?

What will happen if you let go of the criticism

and accept that you always did your best.

If you realise you know better know and want to make changes:

make these changes.....let go and forgive.

Remember: if you are very critical towards others,

most likely you are even more critical

 towards yourself ....

See the other person as you.......

he/she is also doing the best he/she can do,

till he/she knows better.....

Choose to be unstoppable!

Were do you need to take action?

 

Mars, the planet of energy and action

went into Libra and 

on the 11th Mercury will go direct again.

What does this mean?

YOU decide how you are going to use this......

Mars can, when immature,

show as anger, infection, 'war'...

How do you communicate with yourself?

In an angry/unhealed/unbalanced way: 

-I never get it right

-Why is everyone so angry at me

-When is she/he/society doing something, this is not right!

Or

In a way of action, diplomatic, 

finding a way that works:

-I know now more then I did then, I forgive myself and others

 and....move on, step by step.

-Can we talk about something that I find disturbing?

-Speak up for what is not right in a balanced and determined way.

What did you find out the last weeks/months 

with all those retrograde planets?

-in relationships, physical, work/society, mental-

Did you deal with them or.....

did you get mirrors you didn't like?

And....how did/do you deal with these mirrors?

I got a lot of mirrors and by going inside

a lot changed....

From the stress feeling in my body,

I feel more relaxed.

I Know and accept that if I want this 'World of Peace'

the 'only' thing I can do is

'Be the change I want to change in this world'.

Raise your inner child:

be understanding, loving and patient

with yourself.

KNow that unhealed emotions and not feeling safe

shows in anger, withdrawn and insecurity.

Remember: 

you always did the best 

to feel loved and be safe,

only it was in a child way, 

now you are mature....

NOW you can choose

to do it in a more mature way :

be nice and loving towards yourself....

You already see a change in the world.

More people speak up for what they feel

is not right is not human.

What will happen the coming months with 'the wars'

Can we use Mars in Libra to find diplomatic ways to deal with them?

I hope so......

I hope both sights will listen to each other,

see each others wounds

AND....remember that we are 'All one'

 

A young woman of 34 years old died

and it caught my eye.

I read her story: she died just after she had her second child.

I kept reading......

they found a melanoma on her back

when she was pregnant of her second child.

She delivered with 36 weeks so she could start with her treatment.

It was to late.....

Just then I realised that I was on time.....

I also realise that I read it as if it has no relation with me:

Did I deal with all my emotions

or.....am I still 'hiding' some.....

Time will tell.....

How was it for you?

Are there still emotions hidden?

Do you need to take action for your self 

and were do you need to do this?

 -relationship, health, work/society, mental-

From the 11th the energy will help you to speak up,

to take the action that is needed for you

to show who YOU are.......

to remember YOUR power, 

YOUR determination

to live the life you choose to live.

ENJOY!

'This currant situation has gone on far to long'

 

The last weeks I had lot's of people who had misunderstandings and

challenging with communications.

It felt as if Mercury was already retrograde but wasn't......

Could it be that it is so strong because it is in Leo?

Could it be that in this new era we are moving into,

we are mirrored were we still have wounds and....

most of these wounds have to do with:

'Just BE', 'Shine', 'You are enough just the way your are'....?

Could it be that it has to do with very old wounds....

wounds from our childhood......

a childhood were parents 'were the boss' and 

we had 'to obey'.....?

Just Yesterday - the Moons nodes were connected with Mars-

the King of Belgian spoke out.

He did something I believe government should have done

long ago:

'Europe must show stronger leadership'

'the currant situation has gone on far to long'

and 'the Gaza killings are a disgrace of humanity'

How is it with your leadership?

Do you speak out or does it look you speak out,

only to hide inner emotions.......?

Can you -instead of judging yourself- 

choose to change....

Choose to feel your insecurity?

How do you show insecurity to the outside world?

Do you hide or do you over compensate

and......

-how does this show in your relationships,

-how you are in society/work -do you do what people

want you to do or is integrity more important- 

-how you deal with money -buying stuff you don't need,

or giving to others and not to yourself...-

or 

-does your body show it - your heart or back

or the sign of you Sun sign-

In the past I had clients who found 'a new course',

'this course was the only one you needed'

and then 'you are enlightened'...

I always hoped that they were right and.....

I don't believe in a shortcut.......

I believe in the good of the cosmos,

I believe in energy.....

-I still don't know one person who was enlightened by one course....-

It  would be nice to have this magic touch,

that everything would be ok for every one.....

Only....deep down I Know

 that we are all on our individual way

to love and peace.

We can and do help each other to mirror.

so we can choose to heal...

-For Dutch people: 'Van Magie naar Meesterschap' door Monique Hammink

is a good and realistic book for healing'

I say choose, because you can also choose not to do this

and project your issues onto others....

The Cosmos is patient....

it will give you as many lessons/changes

to heal.....

just making the first step is the most important one:

the decision to start....

The King of Belgium took a first step, a huge one!

What will society do?

What will governments do?

What will we/I do.....

Were in your life are you not speaking up,

are you allow yourself and others to make yourself small....

Can you forgive yourself for not knowing then,

what you know now?

I always like the symbol of the rose: a beautiful flower 

loved by many 

only......there are also lot of thorns on the rose.

Could it show us that if we want to Shine, to 'Just Be'

we have to take the thorns as well?

That we see them as challenges and the flower as the result?

I hope you all will take this coming time 

to be more the person you are already inside.

That you see you 'failures' as stepping stones,

stepping stones to be 'the Rose' .....and you 

can 'just Be' and 'Shine',

have fun and.....'just' enjoy life.

Like the Sun and the Rose,

we 'only' have to show up,

and live our unique life.

Let's remember we are all One,

the people in Gaza, in Ukraine, in Russia,

Israel, Europe and America.......

This new Era,

one of love and peace

has to start somewhere....

let it start with us.....

Uranus from Taurus to Gemini

 

Last year Pluto made his move to Aquarius,

the start of a huge shift that will last till 2044.

Neptune moved into Aries and will stay there next year.

Uranus changed signs July 7th 

and will stay there next year as well.

-Neptune and Uranus will come back to 'the old sign'

at the end of the year: we get the change to deal with

'some stuff' we didn't deal with yet...-

Uranus moved into Taurus in 2018.

Where in your life were you to 'stuck'....

where in your life did you need liberation.

Taurus is about money, nature, safety, self love

and also about holding on to patterns and habits you thought were safe....

If this last one was the case,

their could be 'sudden changes'/ shocks.

Uranus is the planet of inventions, intelligence

and society, groups of people.

What happened in your life since then?

In the world we were 'shocked' by Covid.

It brought up fear and the lack of trust.

How safe and secure are we?!?

There were new inventions,

we got the time to be with ourselves....

How safe and secure were we really?

Did we trust or did we want control....

People started renovations in their houses,

'renovations' in their relationships:

how 'safe and secure' did we feel with each other?!?

Did we/do we still feel we need to proof something?

Do we respect each other: 

do we live from love or......from fear....

For me that period started with moving back to our birth country:

How safe and secure would it feel? 

Could we still be ourselves AND part of the people around us?

The same time my brother decided to leave this world....

he didn't feel safe and secure in this world......

In this period we became grandparents

and.....I loved to help when it was needed.

I also realised that I could AND help AND take time for me.

These children will help us change the world:

to be unique and feel safe and secure,

they will see nature in a new way

and 'need' to feel unconditional love....

-how is it for all those kids born in places were there is war.......

I wonder what they will 'do' when they are teenagers...-

At the end of this period, I got a melanoma again,

and realised that taking time for me,

meant: taking time that was left after I did

all kinds of things for other, 

an old pattern.....

How much did/do I really love myself,

or is their a part that believes I have to 'proof' myself?

So enjoying live, focus on love AND

being there for others can go hand in hand.

Instead of guilt 

focus on being grateful.

Grateful that life get us signs,

to help us to stay on the path our souls choose to 

when we decided to come to this earth.

Taurus is also the sign of self-love:

how did you change in this period?

Could you let go of old pattern and starting to love yourself unconditionally?

Did you choose to let go of old patterns, of control and 

could you start to 'just' trust.....?

How is it about 'money', 'stuff'......

does it define you or is it just something you enjoy....

Can you just 

'Be the change you want to see in this world'?

So now Uranus moved into Gemini. 

It will stay there till 2033

Gemini the sign of communication, social media, 

school system/younger kids, smart, quick witted,

collecting lot's of data, fun.

It is a restless sign, so with Uranus there, 

make sure you ground, breath

and.....feel......

We can expect changes in communication, traveling, new thinking,

It could be that there will be changes in the schooling system:

wouldn't that be great?

Will we get a new era of awareness, of communication

and consciousness or will there be a lot of unrest, 'explosions'....

Uranus is the higher octave of communication, Gemini the lower one.....

-not meaning less important! -

Data, networking, electricity.....

You already saw the start of this energy

in changing rules for social media.

Do we need everything we use or is it boredom.....

Can we choose what we want or 

don't we feel safe and secure enough to choose.

With Uranus going back into Taurus the end of the year

we can change what we 'forgot' to change.

With Uranus in Taurus we were 'helped'

to respect and love or selves and nature.

We were helped to slow down and enjoy.

With Uranus in Gemini we are 'helped'

to find a new way of communicating,

to honour your inner child.

To set boundaries when needed.

To talk in a loving, new way,

to respect everyone as the unique person he or she is.

Pluto in Aquarius will help....

Mercury retrograde will help as well:

we are in it's shadow now and on the 18th it will go retrograde,

till August 11.

On July 13 Saturn will go retrograde as well:

where do you need to take responsibility,

where do you need to take steps and....be patient.

What happened last half year?

Did you do what was needed or.....did you 

'go to fast'......

Now it is time to take responsibility for that.

I feel for me 

that it could be that I went on to quick

after they discovered and removed my Melanoma.

Most likely there are some emotions I didn't deal 100% yet.....

I trust that I can deal with them when the time is right.

So: be nice to yourself, be patient and Know:

you are must more powerful and courageous than you realise now!

'From Magic to Mastery'

 

Wednesday June 25th was a new moon.

A new moon, a new start.

This time in Cancer. It is connected with Jupiter,

so it is a 'healing' moon.

Cancer, 

the sign of emotions, feelings, nurturing,

emotional intelligence, being protective and also of

being body and to sensitive.

This sign needs the opposite sign for balance:

Capricorn.

This sign helps to be responsible, to take time and

'knowing' when emotions of others are blocking 

your path in life.

Can you let go of the behaviour and patterns 

that you thought were important for you as a child?

Do you recognize them,

accept them and......

before you let go,

 remember the good things they taught you.....

This new Moon Mercury is connected with Chiron,

our wound.....

Do we go through our fears or are we to afraid........

Yesterday I was at a book presentation of Monique Hammink

'From Magic to Mastery'

It is a book that is good for all.....

By this I mean: Fire, Earth, Air and water people.....

To develop skills to live the life you choose to,

you need to be touched,

it needs to take you 'out of your chair',

it needs to make you 'do'........

It is also a book that fits in this time:

we are in this world together and.....we need each other

Only: 

do we trust or don't we......

The coming weeks we will be in the shadow period of Mercury

and we are already in the one of Neptune.

Mercury in Leo: it is personal, Your power and....also Your ego....

How do you communicate with yourself,

do you Know and feel you 'only have to Shine', 

do you believe and feel your power or...

do you believe you have to 'proof' yourself.....

How insecure are you in certain parts of your life

and.....what do you do:

choose to deal with it and trust,

or want to be in control......afraid to deal with it....

It could be that you 'hide' those uncertain parts in your life.

You only focus on what you know, 

other people like and admire about you.

It could be that you are 'afraid' that if you deal with these other parts

people wouldn't 'love' you anymore......

Could it be that these parts need to come to the surface

so we can heal?

Could it be that the illnesses, depression, misuse of power

have to do with these unhealed parts of us all?

Something to think about the coming time....

July 17 Mercury will go retrograde

so you will re-visit, re-examine,

 the situations between June 29 and July 17.

It could be interesting where you will feel challenged in this period....

remember you get second and third changes in July ;-)

Neptune will go retrograde on the 4th of July,

till the second week of August.

Inner trust, grounding or 

feeling a victim, having dreams

that 'don't come true'.......

It is to bad there is not an English translation -yet -

For the Dutch speaking people this could be a book for the coming time.

For leaders, for want to be leaders 

-and everyone is a leader in his/her own way!-

this could be the book were you find the tool you were missing....

Leo is also the sign of joy, play, creativity:

ENJOY, have fun, BE you!

In one of my blogs I wrote about a singing duo.

He is 31 and has long cancer, not curable

and she is pregnant from their first child.

They stopped all there performances.

Two weeks ago they decided to perform again:

'that is what makes us happy!'

'I feel fine now and we choose to live everyday,

and making music is what we love!'

Choose to live everyday till the fullest.

Life is meant to be lived....

From Magic to Mastery....

Sa ta na ma.....

For Christian people, 

the period between Easter and Ascension day

is a period of transformation, rebirth.

Today it is Pentecost: 

The spirit came to the Apostles of Jesus

and even though they spoke in different languages

they could understand each other.

How is it with us?

Do we understand each other or are there

old patterns, believes that still blocks this.....

This month Jupiter, 

the planet of growth and healing

went into Cancer.

Cancer the sign of family,

love, protections, nurturing

and emotional safety.

Are you open to feel or do you -deep down- believe

that you need 'walls' to protect you.....

Did you feel protected and nurtured as a child?

If not: do you protect and nurture yourself now?

What did you do 12 years ago?

We are in the same healing energy and....

you can go for the next step, a deeper level.

Trump/Musk: how safe were they to each other....

or....

was it only to 'get something' from the other....

In Holland there is the fall of the government:

it is tough to work together if there is a wounded leader....

Can the other party's deal with the issues

to bring 'emotional safety' to the country or.....

was this leader just a mirror for other wounded leaders.....

We will see how it goes....

Israel/Palestine: are we standing up are did we choose

governments who 'don't care'.....and...

what does this say about us.....

How is it in your family?

Do you have an emotional safe base or.....

is there still a part that needs healing,

needs nurturing, protection.

Some questions to ask yourself:

- Can you say what you feel even though you know

the other has a different opinion?

-Are you open to listen to the other with respect

or ....do you need to be 'right'?

- Can you let the other live their own life,

and go your own way with peace in your hart

or is there still resentment.....

-Can you let your children choose a different path

then you took, Knowing you did the best you could do?

-Can you respect your parents and also see that they couldn't 

give you always what you needed AND...

now you choose to give it to yourself

-Do you work with people who have the same goal

and do what is needed or are you angry and disappointed?

-Do you speak up with respect of others

or...do you post anonymous on social media.....

On June 11 there is the full moon:

Share your wisdom, from a stable base.

If it is not so stable it can be tough days:

people WANT to be right......

forgetting there is also a middle way,

forgetting we can communicate with each other.

It also can be a time to stand together to make a point:

-Walking/biking together to raise money for cancer research.

-Red line demonstrations

How come we didn't learn from history....

do we need to repeat the dark pages of history?!?

Your body most likely will give you signs as well:

Be critical what you eat, read and watch...

Not all is good for you,

think and check for yourself,

investigate, raise your wisdom.

Sa ta na ma:

birth, life, dead, rebirth.

It is a mantra for emotional balance,

breaking negative patterns

and raising consciousness.

It is a great meditation tool:

when saying these words, 

you touch your fingers with your thumb.

My Melanoma was 'spotted' on Easter,

the day before Ascension I had my operation

and the day after Pentecost I will get the last results.

Sa ta na ma:  

the circle of life......

Time to break old patterns.....

Sedna and the new Moon

 Sedna.

In 2003, Sedna was discovered, a dwarf planet.

Most of the time when a planet is discovered,

it says something about the energy we are in/or will be in 

in the near future.

-Pluto was discovered in 1930. The planet of transformation

and war......-

Sedna stands for sacrifices and hardships.

The believe that you are sinful.

It asks you to look at yourself and live YOUR life.

It asks you to learn from your challenges and gain wisdom.

It asks you to live YOUR life and let go of the thought 

that you have to live the life others think you should live.....

The new Moon on May 27, 

is connected with Sedna, Chiron and Uranus: 

a new start while confronted with your wound.

-mental and physical-

We are in a period of healing,

of communicating in a different way.

First with yourself 

and second with the people around you.

You first need to see and accept your wound

before you can transform. 

How do you think, 

how do you communicate with yourself?

Do you hear 'other peoples words'/ authority figures

when you want to do things for your self?

AND

 -if you do-

do you still follow their words OR

do you choose what YOU want to do......

Are you open/give yourself permission

 to free yourself from

old patterns/ old thoughts and

do you allow your self to live YOUR life?

I saw a great movie:

'the life list'.

While watching this, I realised

that I lived my life with an energy

of 'being sinful'/not being good enough.

Not as much as I had,

but still......there were parts that I couldn't let go.....

'Making things right' for others.....

I realise more and more that the only way to do this,

it to 'make things right for yourself.......

Sedna was in Aries from 1865 till 1966,

in Taurus till 2024 en now it is just in Gemini.

So this planet changed together with Uranus,

Neptune and Pluto.....

It is as if we all -energetically- choose to change,

only......

our consciousness didn't grow as fast

 as needed for this change

so we need 'help'.....

We get this 'help' world wide,

and in our personal lives.

The challenge: 

we don't always like this 'help'.....

we like to control instead of trust,

we believe we know better

-even if our circumstances show something different..-

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An older film, but very good to watch again.....

And as I mentioned more often in my blogs:

you can make a difference in the world

by dealing with your own challenges,

Remember: We are all One!

I had my second operation.

While operating, I had a good talk with the surgeon

and his assistants.

About working together and about people who believe in or/or

instead of and/and.

About science, about social media and the fear of people.

It fits in the energy we are in now......

Do you choose to think for yourself and find information 

to grow and learn

or do you follow social media/tik tok so you don't have

to think for yourself....... 

This time I talked freely

and there was understanding and balance.

I realise that 'the sign I got' helped me to grow and heal.

Now I could say what I felt, 

instead of reacting on what I felt by them.

I could set boundaries

in a natural way.

No emotions, only gratefulness.....

that is how intuitions feels like....

What signs did you needed/did you get?

Did you choose to look at them and deal with them

or.....did you need even more signs........

What ever it is, Know that they are 'only' there

to 'help'......

it doesn't mean that you must like them.....no...

it only means you can take responsibility for them

are heal and grow.....

-In Holland there is a young musical couple,

very successful, 18 years together. 

Yesterday they let the world know that

he -32 years old- has lung cancer and he can not be healed anymore.

They also shared that she is pregnant, their child will be born the end of the year.

They cancelled all there performances.

And then you don't want to talk about 'signs'......

you feel with them and wonder......'why'?

and also Know that accepting is not as easy as it sounds.....- 

Patience....

 Today Saturn moved into Aries......

Saturn asks us to be patient....

to be determined,

it will 'test' us, if we are ready for our next step.

If we are not: we will get another opportunity.

In it's shadow it can overreact.....

wants it 'my way'......

And......you will find out, you can not forget steps,

like you have to study if you want to pass your exam.....

Last year I got seeds for flowers

and after a while

 lot's of green plants showed up in our garden.

No flowers.....

 so I almost wanted to get rid of them:

to much without flowers wasn't what I imagined I would get!

When Kirsten -the person who gave me the seeds-

saw them she said:

'These are 2 years.....they bloom after 2 years.'

We kept them and now: we have lot's of coloured flowers:

beautiful!

If I hadn't asked, 

I would have taken the green leaves out

and I would have missed the beautiful flowers today.....

How determent are you?

Can you wait for something you really want

or do you want it NOW, when YOU planned it.....

instead of waiting till it is the right time....

Most of the time it has to do with control and lack of trust.....

Something that has to do with old patterns.

Now Saturn moved from Pisces to Aries

you can be confronted with 'old victim' energy:

what didn't you do the last 2 years because deep down 

you felt like a victim.......

What are the changes 

you are going to make the coming time?

We all get so many signs from the Cosmos to help us,

only.....do we see them, do we react to them

or......

do we hope we don't have to act on them because:

'it is someone else's fault'

In Holland there was a big demonstration,

peaceful: 'the red line'......

A message to the government:

'We choose you to represent us, 

only you crossed the red line:

do something about the genocide in Gaza!'

If you read my blogs the last year, 

you read that I got a lot of signs and.....

I thought I listened to them and took action,

only.......

I needed a physical sign as well......

It is as if I needed this to help me grow,

help me to really take the necessary steps

that my soul Knows I need to take.

Between the removing of the melanoma

and the next operation, there are 3 weeks.

 I already got lot's of opportunity's 

to heal old patterns......

I realise how often I act on the feeling of someone else,

not realising that it is not MY feeling, 

but the other persons feeling....

I feel the hurt, the anger, the pain from the other

AND.......

don't want to let them feel worse

and instead of responding, I react inwardly........

as if the old pain of the other is 'my fault'......

Looking into it,

I came to the base of this feeling:

I was only 5.......

A picture came in mind and I will share it,

if I can sort out how to do this ;-)

Me, my brothers and sisters.

My sister who didn't want to do what was asked,

and....adults didn't like it.....

and I still hear the reaction

'then you will not be included' while my dad/uncle?!? was laughing...

I also had to hold my baby brother:

you can see, we both didn't like it......

My sister did something great: she wanted it her way,

she was just 2......

I.....I felt that even thought there was laughing,

it was not tolerated and not ok, 

that she didn't do what 'the adults' expected from her/ from us.....

It is still challenging for me to say what I like

with the people I love if......they have a different opinion....

There is/was a part that feels that I have to have a good reason

to do a different thing then what 'they' want me to do......

I don't want to 'hurt' them, 

I want to make sure they are happy,

even though it is not what I want......

I also realise that I am so much better in doing this,

then I did 39 years ago!

It seems that my soul believes I need to do it a bit more

AND....I am doing that.

Lot's of people go through challenging times.

These challenging times are healing times......

'We are all One'.....

The best thing we can do to make a better world,

-a world of respect for each other,

be there for each other

and start a world of peace-

is making sure WE are being the best version of our selves.

A person who Knows that love is always the answer,

that emotions are helping us to heal,

to remember us we are on a path,

a path of love and light.

So: 

-speak up with respect and love

-forgive yourself for not knowing then, what you know now.

-have compassion and respect.

-be patient with yourself AND.....you are not alone...

 

An 'ugly Duck'

 May started with a quick energy forward and also

-starting may 4th when Pluto went retrograde, till Oct. 13-

a time for inner transformation.

Where do you have old energy's that you need to let go.

You get time to re-check, re-visit till October 13th.

It is the first time Pluto in Aquarius went retrograde,

so the theme is: 

belonging to a group/society AND being your own unique self.

Can you give unconditionally or.....do you give because you feel

if you don't they 'don't love you' anymore....

I knew, Astrology wise, that I would be 'tested'.

Not to punish me or to judge me,

'only' to make sure I am on the right path,

the path my soul choose.

So, I looked at the signs

and.....thought I 'listened' to them....

Only people around me believed differently.....

Did I do to much?!? I like what I do!!

And then....even an 'old book' got my attention

Take time for yourself and enjoy life.

So I went at Easter to the sauna with our daughter Loes. 

There she saw a mole: 'Mom, you didn't have this one the last time when we went'

I was not that worried but.....I let her take a picture,

that I send to the doctor.

As most of you know,

I had a Melanoma in 1986, the year Loes was born.

It was a challenging time.

When I spoke to the dermatologist later on he said:

'I was not sure if you would make it'....

Now Astrology wise, I have the same transit:

did I learn what I needed to learn or.....

did I need another wake up call and......

how 'loud' needed this to be......

The evening of the day I send the picture to the doctor,

I got already an answer back and.....

2 days later they took the mole out.

I got the same reaction as 39 years ago.....

they were very worried.

It was an 'ugly Duck'....a melanoma....

All old patterns came up and also:

'Then I had a very powerful will  to live: my kids,

do I also have a powerful will to live ....for myself?!?

The same day they took the melanoma out,

the kids and grandkids came to visit.....

It was already planned

and....it was great!

We did all kind of fun things and had a great time.

They left after 10 days and then.....I started work again.

I realised I love life,

I have so many things I can give

AND 

I also have so many things I enjoy.

I realised that I lived 39 years after the last Melanoma

and.......

I am not the person anymore who I was then.

I realised I was healing a part that was not healed from the past

and......

I trust that what ever would happen, I could deal with it.

Wasn't the 'ugly Duck' not a beautiful Swan inside;-)?

I made changes straight away,

after I came home from the removing of the melanoma.

I realist  that sometimes I didn't take my life serious enough

and let people go over my boundaries.

I am grateful for those people: they helped me to show were I needed to make changes.

Some didn't like it and.....that was/is ok.......

I realise that that is not on me, they don't have to like me:

I have to make sure that I like myself!

And then.....I got the results:

It is a Melanoma only in a very early stage....

I need another operation to take some more skin,

only.....that is it.......

something to celebrate :-)

This full Moon of May 12 is about letting go or holding on to......

Can you let go of control and trust?

Can you choose to stay calm in the storm

and Know.......

that the Cosmos 'only' wants to help you......

I most likely needed this sign,

it gave me motivation to change a bit more.

I still like to be there for others

AND....

I make sure I am there for myself first.....

Set injustice right....one step at a time....

 Energetically we are in a challenging week,

with the peak on April 13th with a full Moon.

This Moon is connected with Chiron -our wound and healing-

and with Eris -wants to set injustice right-

'unpleased truths come to light'......

Gaza....health workers.....

What is the response of the world?!?

I am glad doctors without borders started a petition......

I hope and wish they receive millions of signs,

so 'leaders' Know they HAVE to do something.....

Trump.....Americans.....

Are his rules helpful for the people

or......can he go on golfing 

and can Americans not pay their groceries anymore....

-The last time Chiron and Eris connected in this way was in  1971/1972:

Watergate.....Vietnam war involvement.....DDT was banned.....-

Can you be patient,

can you choose to trust,

Can you look at every little progress 

and celebrate this.

Can you remember how you learned to walk,

to ride a bike, to drive a car.

Can you remember that it took time from knowing your letters,

till you could read a book,

or knowing your numbers and do math.

Can you also remember that

'the teacher is always right'

'listen to the priest, he knows better'

'don't trust 'them' they are different'

'listen to the media they are right'

What do we still believe that isn't right?

Can we let go and.....think for ourselves?

Most important:

you have to recognize old patterns

before you can let them go....

Did you learn from the past,

do you recognize were you act/acted like a victim

AND 

can you now choose to move forward:

heal and grow.

-By the way: this Chiron/Eris aspect will stay spring next year,

so you/we get the time to deal with our wound,

and set injustice right!-

 

Life should be enjoyed, lived.

Music/singing is balancing your brains,

it makes you smarter and more loving.

So: keep on singing, listen to music,

dance and be happy.

It is the best way to be -

and keep strong.

https://youtu.be/HRE624795zU?si=LlFGe97nY1xiiMui

Your inner child....

 

How is this for children?

Can they be authentic, be who they are?

Parents/adults are there 

to help them cope with the world around them.

At a certain point,

they know they need adults......

Can they stay confident, be themselves

or 

do they have to find coping mechanisms

to survive....hiding their confidence on the way......

Mercurius is going direct on April 7th

and on April 12 Venus will go direct as well.

After months

of this retrograde energy 

we are in an energy of going forward.

On April 17 Mars will go into Leo,

so: what do YOU choose?

Did you let go of old idea's old patterns?

Did you make space for new?

It is spring: 

do you need some spring cleaning in your house?

Could you choose YOUR time or.....

did your cellphone choose yours?

It is good  to look at your energy.

There are states of energy:

-did you impress.....yourself or others

-did you express or suppress..... were you afraid of conflict

-djd you feel oppressed: afraid that someone opposes your effort

-did you feel repressed: feeling you couldn't do what you wanted to do.

Or.....did you feel depressed:

sad for to long......

feeling you are not in charge.....

We were visiting our grandchildren.

I was playing and singing when they were in the hammock.

'Again'......

'Again'......

'Again'......and this went on and on and I kept singing......

Later I read a book for them, and there it was the same:

'Again'......

'Again'.......

'Again'.....

'Again'.......

and this went on and on 

and at one time,

she took over.

Making up stories using only one page,

while I was reading another book to her brother.

The last evening we were there,

they were in the bath.

She started singing and....she knew the song by heart.

Later on she was singing in the bed 

and when I started to sing with her,

she said: 'No, I like to do it alone'......

For me 

this is what working with your own inner child looks like:

Repeating, repeating, repeating.....

Your inner child 

had to deal with lot's of challenging situations

-parents, society, school, friends, moves- 

and had to 'survive'.

How confident is that part in you?

Does it still knows that he/she is unique,

or....is it still in hiding?

It needs YOU, the adult,

to remember this again.....

again and again.....

This takes time.....

As much time as needed.

So repeat, read, sing,

do whatever is needed.

Every time you judge yourself,

you doubt yourself,

feel you are less then someone else:

repeat.....

again, again and again....

No one should dim your light anymore,

You are born to shine!

You are needed in this world

You are unique, powerful and love.

Could it be that we 'believe' it is a difficult exam,

because we forgot we only have to do our own?

Could it be that if we remember we have all that is needed

inside of us and......

also know we attracted the right people around us to help us,

we can start enjoying?

Could it be that we should start with our children?

Could it be that we have to stand up for children,

stand up for situations that shouldn't be for children....

And......if we can not change the situation

realise we can help them go through it.

KNowing that if we do that,

we also help healing our inner child.

If you look around,

listen to the media,

you can start feeling overwhelmed.

What is going on?!?

Why are people acting like they do?!?

You can go into a feeling of fear and freeze

or....

you can remember we are in a process of inner healing,

personal healing.

Choose to look around and make changes there.

Clean one cupboard a day/a week.

Put your phone away for half/one hour a day.

Start walking, even if it is around the house.

Choose to change words: instead of I can not do it, 'it is challenging'

Sit in the sun and ask the sun to help you to let go.

Talk to a loved one, or.....someone in the street.

Connect....what do you/I love to do?

Play, read, sing

and

Repeat, repeat and repeat.....

Take your time,

be patient

and enjoy the ride.