Thursday 21 November 2019


In 1516 Thomas More wrote 'Utopia'.
It was the last time we had Saturn/Pluto in Capricorn,
the next time is Jan. 2020.
He wrote 2 books: the first about the corruption and
mis-use of power in society.
the second about an idealistic Island,
where everyone respect everyone….

Are we ready to create a world like this?!?
Let's start to create it in our selves….
starting with a healthy body,
and a peaceful mind..
Are we ready to choose….

In 1982 we also had the connection with Saturn and Pluto,
it was only in an other sign, Libra.
This sign has to do with relationships.
If you look back
you can see
that a lot has changed in relationships since then.

Before that,
marriage to someone of the other sex and
staying married for ever was the norm.
It was not an easy time for a lot of people.
People had to let go of old patterns,
had to learn that there is also an 'I' in a relation,
and to respect other with an other choice.
I went to Oman in 1982
and 'had to' write a letter to my aunts and uncles
to come to me if they had problems with my choices,
and shouldn't bother my parents with it.....

All the people who are born in this time,
have there 'Astrological Midlife crises' at the moment.
Can you be YOU in a relationship
AND can you be Together as well....

A lot has changed:
There is mediation now, if needed,
when people go through a divorce.
More people realize
that children remember...
if not conscious, then subconscious.
Some people decide to have operations,
to change the sex,
because they feel they have 'the wrong body'...
So many changes...

In 1914 and in 1947
we had Saturn and Pluto together as well.
After the first world war it was tough for the people in Germany,
and Hitler could stand up:
He wanted to create a new world.
How hurt must he be,
to mis-use power in that way...

After the war it was a time to find out
who we where as individual:
people worked hard,
and there was a big change in the world.
There where leaders and....
there where dictators.....
Powerful people and....
insecure people who 'needed' to mis - use power..

Is the energy in you….
YOUR energy or.....
do you still have energy
from your (grand)parents,
your society in you,
that is old?

Do you need illness,
tough situations,
power struggle,
do you choose
to give your energy
to 'Utopia'.....
YOUR Utopia...
Do you have an image of it,
can you FEEL how it is
to live like that….

I have both...
I have an image, can feel it
sometimes I am in 'old energy' and
I have to make a conscious decision to let go:
choose love above fear,
choose Be instead of Do,
choose happy instead of sad.

Take time to imagine,
take time to make YOUR Utopia!

This is my old time favorite song:
'If I could do magic…..'

Monday 11 November 2019

The wall fell 30 years ago....

The fall of the Berlin wall,
30 years ago….
People wanted the wall to fall,
the change started by people….
not governments..

Years ago I spoke to a woman
who lived 'behind the wall',
and she said:
'Our son asked us, why we didn't do something before.
I couldn't give him a straight answer,
but when I thought about it....:
'We didn't even think about it!,
it was not in our system……!'

That is what systems/governments can do....
we 'forget' about us and..
the only way out is consciousness and
taking responsibility.

Now there is change in other country's,
it also starts with people….
If there is a majority,
there will be changes as well,
other 'walls will fall'....

I listened to this music when thinking/meditating
about walls….
Is it time to let all walls fall?!?

After a while I realised that the
answer is 'No'....
and I was a bit shocked in the beginning
and then:
We only can let walls fall,
if we have strong 'walls'/boundaries ourselves,
if we choose to let go,
deal with emotions
and take our responsibility back.

I realised that a lot of us have not strong boundaries,
we have a lot of negative self talk,
we look at society and think 'we don't measure up'.
I saw someone mention
all the things she didn't do on facebook,
as if  she had 'to proof'
that she is not as good as people think she is
-by the way: she is amazing!!-

What I read were things,
she thinks,
 society wants from her....
'I don't iron the clothes.....'
so what:
you CHOOSE to do something
that is better for YOU and.....
if someone else likes to iron their clothes:
that is THEIR choise…..
you can only make them
if you realise that there ARE choices..

She had a long list and
I am sure I can make a long list as well....
probably a lot of you can do that to....
Society programs us….
we can change these programs....
if we choose to
take our time....

Most likely if someone would
ask you, your strong points,
you have a short list...
most likely a list
that takes you a long time to make....

'Shine on....'

Being authentic is a path,
we have so many programs and patterns in our system,
that we started to believe things about us,
that are not true,
that are not ok for us,
but where ok for our parents
and there society.
Not all of them are bad,
we only have to realise
we have a choice now,
 a choice to choose what is good for us.

Some walls need to go,
but can only come down
if we think for our selves,
and find out what is good for us.
This sounds so easy,
but isn't always.

I still find it very challenging
to take time for ME.
I Know it is good,
and....part of me
-old programs-
let me think that it takes
away time I should use for others...
How is that for you?

If we do what is good for us,
it will also be good for the people around us.
It could be tough in the beginning,
because there is a change
and 'we people' like stability ;-)

It is as teenagers/students
who start living by themselves,
after getting a job.
They have to run a household,
clean a house,
deal with money,
deal with roommates/partners,
cook a meal and.....
realising that it is different then they thought it was.

Perhaps that is what is going on in society right now:
there is a change,
and we have to find our way...
a new way,
respect each other,
knowing we all are letting go walls,
setting boundaries
and are on a path to ourselves,
and to a world of peace and happiness.

Be patience with yourself and each other.
Walls will fall
and we start dealing with a new world,
with more space more freedom,
more responsibility.

-Did you know that the person who
developed a cure against leukemia
get's it out after years of lobbying?
They didn't want to use it because there would
not be enough took him years,
but he found a way …-

Tuesday 5 November 2019

The sun sister and....Lebanon

I can imagine that some of you read the headline and think
?!? what do they have in common?!?

They show us both how energy works,
and that we can have a great life,
if we take the courage
to deal with old emotions/patterns.
It also shows us that we will get new changes
to deal with it, if we can not 'get it' in one go....

We don't hear a lot about Algeria or Lebanon,
but they are both country's in the Middle East
who want change,
change that started with the 'Arab Spring'.

I looked at the Astrological chart of Lebanon,
and you see that 2020 is a very important year….
as was 1960 and 1990.....
Did the country learn from 1960 and 1990,
can they choose different now?
I don't know, history will tell,
what I know is,
that if there is old anger,
and people don't deal with that,
it will be very challenging...

Lashing out....
All are ways not to deal with
grief, sadness, hurt.
It is as if it easier to
hurt back,
then to forgive
and start a better future...
It isn't….

People who shout,
use guns,
hurt people,
are hurt people,
afraid to deal with there emotions….

For a long time,
my way of dealing with
'angry, powerful'
walking away,
doubting myself,
getting earaches a sour throat
and even cancer.

In a way it was good as well:
I looked inside,
became stronger
and realised that
'those angry people'
were hurt people as well,
just dealt with it in an other way...

It took me a while to speak out,
to trust myself enough.
When I did,
not all people liked that,
of course not...
Now they had to deal with there emotions
or let go of me.
That also meant I had to let go of them….
-Paul Ferrini, Return to the garden, helped me a lot-

I decided to help people find their power,
by recognizing there patterns
and dealing with there emotions.

Around me I see 'angry' people,
and even though part of me
understand the anger,
an other part 'knows' it is a sign for me as well.
Could there be anger inside of me?
With Mercury retrograde in Scorpio,
everyone of us will get confrontations.
The world will get confrontations.

I had confrontations with Jaap,
all had to do with the past,
the way we 'did' things.
As he said:
'You always agreed and
perhaps that was not good'
I think it was good then,
it worked for us, now it is good
to make changes and...we did!
The renovation of the house
helped us seeing patterns
and changing patterns.

Lebanon, a country, change....
I hope there is patience,
I hope everyone will look inside
and deal with there own emotion..
And.....they only need a majority,
the rest will follow.

The sun sister.
We are all born to shine,
be the Sun in your own life,
Love yourself,
so you have more then enough energy
to give to the people around you.
Like with addictions:
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you are enough,
you are powerful,
you are important!

If you are angry, hurt and/or sad,
ask for help,
you don't have to go trough it by yourself.
Be open, be patient
and forgive….
Be open to attract abundance..

a reminder....

'You are holding a cup of coffee when someone comes along
and bumps into you or shakes your arm,
making you spill your coffee everywhere.

Why did you spill the coffee?
"Because someone bumped into me!!!"

Wrong answer.
You spilled the coffee because there was coffee in your cup.
Had there been tea in the cup, you would have spilled tea.
*Whatever is inside the cup is what will spill out.*
Therefore, when life comes along and shakes you
(which WILL happen),
whatever is inside you will come out.
It's easy to fake it, until you get rattled.
*So we have to ask ourselves... “what's in my cup?"*
When life gets tough, what spills over?
Joy, gratefulness, peace and humility?
Anger, bitterness, harsh words and reactions?

Life provides the cup,
YOU choose how to fill it.

Today let's work towards filling our cups with
gratitude, forgiveness, joy, words of affirmation;
and kindness, gentleness and love for others.
(Shared from a friend whose cup is full of goodness and inspiration.)'