Friday 19 January 2024

'Life is just a simple game'...

 If you act from your heart you are fearless,

if you are fearful then a mirror is active...

I realise that in my life I was sometimes fearless

because I didn't know all the details,

and 'just' acted from my heart 'soul spoke up'.

When I look back 

-with knowing the details I didn't know then-

I am sometimes shocked and amazed how courageous I was then...

I could be courageous because I didn't realise the consequence. 

If I had known them, most likely I had reacted from fear....

Then I didn't know and my intuition

was speaking, I took responsibility

for what I felt deep down, from my heart and....

the consequence were amazing:

not jail, but changing a pattern...

How afraid are we?

It looks like I am courageous to the outside world,

only....if I look closer,

to my role in the family I was born in,

I realise that I forgot to be courageous

for myself.

I used my energy to be 'good',

'not to make waves'.

-I also realise now,

that I Needed to have this experience...

I learned a lot from it and it made me

the person I am now!

Now I can see grateful-

I needed to make the change from taking care of others,

be a 'good girl' to remember who I was,

the person inside me....hopscotch....

I changed when I looked inside,

raised my consciousness and....

realised that I was not alone...

I didn't have to deal with all the issues by myself.

In my family, my brothers and sister helped me,

to see and feel 'we are in this together'

'We have each others back'.

A long time ago someone draw a picture of me:

I was a bird in a cage.....

couldn't get out....

Then I didn't understand but kept the picture for a long time.

Now I saw a similar picture

and realise how true it was.....

It looked as if I was free from the outside,

only I, myself, was afraid to be free...

Afraid of the consequences......

I could do it in the middle East,

a part of the world

that mirrors a lot of our fears....

How come I could do it there 

and found it so challenging to do it in Holland,

in my own family......

I experienced a lot before I went to the middle east.....
I learned from my mistakes
AND.....I didn't know all.....
I reacted from emotion then,
not from peace yet.......

So emotion can bring you a lot 
if it is from your soul, your heart
even if it is from your soul 
and the results are great:
realise there is a layer deeper to explore....
or I wouldn't have been so emotional.

Then I didn't listen to the other person,
I used My power.....hopscotch.....
A big step and important then...

Now it is not about us alone,
it is about we as a community,
realising we are all One.....
Pluto moved then through Scorpio....

This weekend Pluto moves into Aquarius

connected with the Sun:

Are you free?

Can you AND be you AND be part of a community.

Where in your life are you 'stuck' and 

don't realise you are still in a 'cage'?

Look around:

 what is your environment showing you.

What are the people around you showing you.

What do your emotions showing you

and.....what is your body?

Since a few days I got itchy skin jaw is 'speaking up'

Mars: setting boundaries and taking action, and also anger....

It shows me that my soul is 'helping me' to change ......

I made already some changes only....most likely not enough ...yet...

Remember: Pluto will stay in Aquarius till 2044.....

take your time and....take a first step...

I love this song, 

written in 1968.....

Lyrics that are still very accurate...

Could it be that we need more time

than we realise to be 'free'?

Could it be that the Cosmos 

has much more patience with us,

than we have with ourselves?

Let's remember:

 'Life is just a simple game'.....

not always easy....just simple.....

As time goes by, you will see
That we're going to be free
You and me, we'll touch the sky
Can you see in your mind's eye
That we are one
We're all the same
And life is just a simple game
There, by your side, I will be
When this crazy world is free
Free from doubt
When it finds out
Exactly what we're meant to be
That we are one
We're all the same
And life is just a simple game
Thoughts of another day
Flashing through my head
Thinking how life could be
All of the things that our great men have said
Be what we want to be
What we deserve to be
What we are meant to be
As time goes by, you will see
That we're going to be free
You and me, we'll touch the sky
Can you see in your mind's eye
That we are one
We're all the same
And life is just a simple game
(We're gonna be free)

Thursday 11 January 2024

I am.....part 2


When a child is born,
it is pure love....
It's parents and caretakers
are the persons to make sure
that it is safe and protected
and loved.

When a child is two, 
Mars, the planet of action, of energy
is activated.
Some call it 'the terrible two's '
and....perhaps that shows us something....

is the word for the second chakra.
Are you allowed to be creative,
to show your emotion
Did you have to 'behave'.....
-behaving meaning: doing what your parents/caretakers
 thought was good behaviour-

If you felt powerless you had to protect yourself.
Protect yourself to survive....
As I mentioned in earlier blogs:
'couldn't take a suitcase and move out....
you had 'to behave' to survive.....'
Is this not something we all had to deal with?
Not all in the same way, 
but never the less...

Anger/rage is a way to protect your heart....
It 'saves' you AND.....
it creates a wound......
Your hurt inner child is born...
Deep down you Know,
you can not live without love....
'the best way to survive is hide emotions'.....

You see in the world around us

that there are still wounds that asks to be healed...

People who feel powerless,

are reacting from pain

choose anger and rage to protect themselves

instead of communication and listening.

They first have to realise this.

We/I have to realise this first.

It is important

to deal with this,

if you choose to have changes in your life....

It is learning to feel the feeling

without becoming the emotion.

'Magical' is the word for the third chakra....

You will create something Magical from the 1st and  2th chakra.

Your 'power' will 'create'

what your energy/frequency is.......

Is it from grounding/safety and trust,

or from feeling powerless and anger/rage.....

What do you see around you.

What is the world mirroring you.

Are you free to speak up,

are you looking through illusions, lies

or do you 'need' to speak up

from old wounds...

Do you feel compassion or anger....

Be gentle with yourself,

FEEL guild and shame.....don't walk over it

realise it is an old emotion that is blocking you.

ACCEPT needed it to survive


LET IT is time to feel 

without becoming the emotion.

It is time to create the life you choose.

Experience magic

and live a magical life

were you feel free AND connected....

Just remember:
You are not a powerless '2 year old' anymore....

You ARE love

You are powerful beyond measure

and born to live a life of abundance.

YOU are in charge of your own life.

Wednesday 10 January 2024

I am......part 1

 We are all this.......

Sometimes deep inside, 

not always realising 


some hidden more than others.

Every color stands for a chakra.

If you feel one of these words are not 'for you',

most likely that chakra is blocked and 

'asks' you to be healed and opened right now.....

As you see,  'powerful' 

is the word of the first chakra:

how grounded are you?

How are your roots?

Are they firm in the earth,

like a tree with strong roots

or will a storm, or a 'little bit of wind'

blow you away....

The first chakra is very very important:

it is the base for the others.

Your body gives you signs if something is not stable there.

Do you have to work harder/more or.....less....

Were in your life should you make changes.....

How are your family roots, 

did you feel protected?

Can you 'just' rest or 

are you always in a state of 'doing'.. 

If we believe we have to 'wake up' others,

it shows us a mirror: 

most likely we have issues,

old pain, 

we don't like to deal with....yet.....

'Just' be honest.....

and that is not always easy....

I got a mirror a few days ago.

As I wrote in my last blog, I was emotional tested

when I had to cancel a family function.

It was MY emotion, MY old pain


when I dealt with it, it was ok...... 

I was relieved

as if I needed proof that:

 'I am still ok if I choose for myself'..

Yesterday I got another mirror/ test ;-)

I got an app from my aunt

-so not from my nr 2 family -brothers and sisters-

but from my nr 3.....-

She asked me for something 

and immediately all kind of emotions came up.

I reacted straight away and 

tried to do what she wanted me to do.

I wrote the answer and all of a sudden I waited and....

didn't send it: did I really wanted to do it?

I planned that time for me.....

how important am I for myself....

I waited and send a different reply:

I would let her know asap.

Straight away I got a reply and....

realised that she already planned the day....

It didn't feel good AND....what should I do......

I gave it time, made diner, looked inside

and looked at my calendar..

I made the choice to choose for me

and it was as if a weight fell from my shoulders....

Family karma, old patterns......

Family is a society as well....a small one...

Pluto will move in Aquarius again on Jan. 20,

it will move back to Capricorn from Sept. till Nov.

and after that it will stay in Aquarius the coming 20 years...

Do you remember the years when Pluto went into Capricorn?

It was 2008.....

Do you remember what was going on then?

Then it was 'the banking crises'

now it will be more the crises of 'belonging':

is everyone treated equally,

is everyone taking their responsibility.

Are we speaking up if someone is treated badly,

do we realise when we do this ourselves?

Do we trust 'voting' or 

only if the result was the same as our choice and 

not if it was a different one.....

Can we find a middle way,

because we dealt with our emotions

or do we react from fear and 

do we feel resentment and bitterness.....

Are we still afraid to deal with our pain inside


do we not realising that our inner child is speaking up.

Are we free from trauma or do we need 'some help'.....

The second chakra's word is 'creative'....

Do you realise that you ARE a creation?

A creation of love?

What if we didn't

- or still don't -

feel safe and secure.

What happens if our roots are not strong enough:

how do we 'create' our world...

Is it from Love or....another emotion.....

Tuesday 2 January 2024

2024: choose to make it your best year ever!

 I hope you all started 2024 in a good way.

Jupiter went direct again and also Mercury,

so making a life cycle plan will be a good plan!

How was Christmas? 

Could you be yourself AND part of a group?

Did quilt and shame come up,

or could you 'just' be responsible?


We had our house full and it was an organised chaos ;-)

It was so nice to be together and to realise

that everyone is unique 

and a plan can always be changed.

We had a plan to see other family at our place,

so we could see each other and 'catch up.'

Everyone was looking forward to it and than....

a few got sick.....what to do.....

It is interesting to see how old guilt and shame come up:

'it is so nice and we are organising it, so how can I cancel it'


'what if others get sick and it will be to much for those

who are not sick, but also not well...'

We canceled it was ok for everyone.

I realise more and more that we are connected,

and we are all moving, growing, healing.

Creating new family's who are nr 1,

and our 'old' family is still important,

only comes on nr 2....or 3....and that is ok.

It is as it should be.

We as society are moving on as well.

This year Pluto will be in Capricorn for the last year,

and will move into Aquarius for the next 20 year.

The queen of Denmark will leave and her son will be king,

Donald Trump will not be on all the electoral lists.

How are the organisations 

dealing with healthcare, senior citizens,

people who need extra care? 

Are they looking at the people

or is it about structure, management, rules and protocols?

How do they deal with money? 

Is it from power or from love.....

All this are signs of Pluto in Capricorn.

I expect we will see some challenges her,

because I think and believe 

there are still some 'old' patterns going on....

Most likely also in our own lives.....

'inside scars need longer to heal'......

Pluto in Aquarius will challenge technology:

are all new technology's good for all people.....

Social media made sure we can connect 

with all people around the world,

it gives us freedom.....

Only.......without rules,

we see 'deep fake movies'....

AI being used in a way that is not helping us,

not helping students to think for themselves.....

We see young people 

believing they have to look

in a certain way, 

to have a certain live style

if they want to 'belong'.....


'not feeling ok' is not ok anymore.....

We, as people NEED to feel 'not ok' sometimes:

it helps us to grow, to move on.

If not, 

we would stay in our comfort zone

and 'do nothing'......

I am curious what kind of development we will get the coming years.

I expect new inventions, innovations

that help us to be nicer to nature,

to help our body's to stay healthier

and to realise we are all the same, connected....

even if we look different.

I also believe that we will realise that we need each other

and we don't have to be envious or jealous. 

We have an unique quality and someone else has another

unique quality: together we can be 1+1=3....

Of course we have to realise that we make choices.

Do we deal with our emotions or are we projecting.

Are we dealing with our family karma, society karma

or do we stay angry.....

Do we choose to take responsibility 

and choose love instead of fear?

It is our choice and....

we don't have to do it all by ourselves...

Chiron, the wounded healer

is connecting with the Moon nodes till spring:

healing energy......

where do you take action, the first step?

Can you feel the difference between emotion and intuition?

Love, power and money is the same energy:

Jupiter will be in Taurus till May. 

Taurus the sign of safety, security, quality, nature

Uranus will  connect with Jupiter from March till May.

Will there be a change, a sudden change

or do we choose for ourselves.

Do we need to make a change in our work/health/group of people

and.....are we going to do it?

When I look at my life cycle plan,

I realise I see  a lot of this energy:

Relaxing, integrity, passion and

'The meaning of life is practicing how you should live'

I wish you all a wonderful 2024:

Do something silly

Think something nice

Say something sweet 

So everyday in 2024 

will give you

 something positive.