Monday 25 October 2021

Just Be.....part 2

When I look at children, 

I see that often they have to do

what 'we/adults think is best'.....

I can imagine they feel like 

life is kicking them around sometimes....

Hopefully they have parents

who will let them feel that it is 

'just part of life' and it will make them stronger.

It doesn't mean they are less loved....

Our parents/grandparents lived in a different time,

had different pasts and their main goal

was 'to survive'......

Often they couldn't live the life they wanted,

they 'just' had to live the life 

that made sure

they could feed themselves and their family.

What they really loved,

 they did,

if there was time.... 

time that was left after doing 

what was needed...

Now we have more choices, it getting easier?

More children have to deal with divorce,

there is pressure of social media....

All signs of a bigger world,

and choices we can make now.

How do we make these choices?

Did your parents see their own worth?

How were they treated by the people around them?

Did they feel they had to proof themselves

in order to be loved?

Did you inherit some of this believes,

is it still in your cell memory?

Old patterns die hard.....

you have to be conscious of them

to let them go....

I re-read the book

'Illness, inconvenient but healthy'....

A book that fits in our time:

we want to be 'healthy' quick.

We see 'illness' as something that is 'not good',

something to avoid.....

We see ourselves and our body

as two different things.

I agree with the writer of this book

that illness is 'just' a sign.....

Illness helps us to bring balance,

where you were of balance...

It seems that we have two choices to heal:

'conventional medicine'

and 'alternative medicine'.

Both want to heal the body,

the difference between the two 

is that the one is most of the time

more friendly for the body than the other.

Both of them 'want' to heal as quickly as possible.

Sometimes I have the feeling that 'alternative medicine'

is now used just as how 'conventional medicine' is used....

It seems that both forgot 

that a person is something more

than just a body.....

We can use both to help heal the body


we should involve our mind as well....

Do we take the time to heal......

or don't we have the time for it.....

An MD said ones:

'With the doctor it takes 3 weeks and without the doctor

it takes 21 day's to heal

When my mom became ill her sister said:

'how is it possible, she has such a healthy diet

and always goes to church'.....

How do we know we are suffering?

For me 'the cosmos' Knows 

and is helping our soul get it clear.

It does it 

by sending people and their emotions on our path

and by showing us 'pain and aches' in our body.


can we look at it without guilt

and see it as it is, accept it

or do we stay in the old feeling

and do we want it 'to go away'

without taking responsibility....

My coughing is much better AND is still  there.

It is getting better and sometimes I don't have it at all

and starts again.....

The last weeks I realise that there was/is still old pain,

sadness and.....


Anger of not setting boundaries,

anger of not being able to solve other peoples challenges,

anger that I have let other people energy in,

while I  'Knew' I shouldn't......

anger that not all people live in peace and harmony

and 'I have to/should do more'....

I realise I have an issue with 'anger'.....

Part of me is judging this emotion....

'you shouldn't be angry'

It is as if part of me 

the emotion anger 

confuses with violence....

Anger is an emotion to help set boundaries,

to let the other(s) know 

that you feel something is not right for you

and you want to be heard.

What if you feel you are not being heard,

people don't take you serious,

you feel they reject you if you speak up...

You have a choice

to run away from that feeling,

or being 'violent'.....

As an adult 

you have one more choice:

move away.....

because you Know you are being loved....

My old pain goes away by bits and pieces,

the coughing is getting less....

It has to do with pain and loss 

and confusing it with love/not being loved.

Every time I let go, something changes

AND I am being 'tested' by life:

'can I set boundaries now,

do I feel ok, that some people are not ok?'

I believe we all are leaders,

we all want to bring people together.....


we have to make sure we are whole again ourselves first.

Recognize the separation in ourselves

before we can lead ourselves.....

If we feel whole again,

we want to bring people together,

we trust and Know that

we 'only have to lead by example'

We 'just have to Be...'

We are still in the shadow of the retrograde planets:

can you take steps to be a leader again?

Do you take time to be whole again?

Do you think for yourself,

do you check?

Uranus and Neptune are still retrograde till the end of the year

and we have the Sun in Scorpio!

No electricity,

prices of fuel are rising,

more covid contaminations:

do you feel fear or do you trust.....

Can you accept that what is going on now,

is here to 'help' us......

Probably the only way for us 'to wake up'

and to prepare us for 'a different world'....

Most likely the only way 

to look at our own unhealthy believes.

Believes that are preventing us

from who we are and what we are:

Powerful beyond measure,

and unconditional love.

Let's remember

and see our 'signs' as 'help'

-even though we would have liked it another way-

Let's slow down,

take our time

and enjoy.....

Enjoy people, 

enjoy nature,

enjoy time.

'Illness, inconvenient but healthy'


Wednesday 20 October 2021

Just Be..


looking outside,

looking at the future.

Feeling safe,

feeling safe to investigate,

to wonder.....

to be curious. 

She can do this

because she feels she is protected

so she can grow

to be herself,

live Her life.

One year ago we didn't know you,

and now 

we can not imagine a world without you.

If I look back 

I see a lot of similarities with the energy we live in:

a time of change,

a 'chaordic' time.

-chaoridic: a chaos before a new order-

The parents of Zoe had no idea there would be a 'crises'.

They had to let go of expectations of people visiting,

and visiting people.....

They had to make a safe place together,

for themselves and for Zoe

without a lot of physical support...

Challenging and also experiencing

that they could do more 

than they thought they could!

Like all of us they had challenges.

They had to let go of control.....

and make sure they lived Their life


make sure they protected the little life 

that they invited in their life's as well.

Can you relate?

Where did you have to let go of control,

didn't life go in the way you 'wanted' it to be?

Could you let go of control

and accept?

She was born at the day more restrictions 

went into place....

Time to go inside,

time to 'rest',

time to let go and let new energy in.

Time to experience 

that you are more powerful than you expected.

Also time to accept and....

instead of focus on what you couldn't do,

focus on what you COULD do.....

How did it go in your life?

Did you focus on what you could do

and found new way's

or did you stay in the past....

couldn't let go of control....?

Zoe 'just' focused on eating, 

being hugged by mom and dad 

and made sure the same mom and dad

got less sleep than they wanted to....


that was ok.....

They choose to let go of control and found a way

to live their own life 


make a safe environment for Zoe.

After a few months she even had her first airplane experience,

something new and......she 'just' experienced it and was ok.

Could you do the same?

Could you trust the people around you,

the 'government' and trust they do what is best for you

so you could move on or....

couldn't you trust them........

and by that you felt you were 'stuck'......

How safe do you feel now?

Do you Know you are protected

and can move forward?

Do you feel 

that you are much more powerful than you thought?

Then she started crawling, her world became bigger


her environment needed to be made 'safe' for her.....

She couldn't see the consequences of her actions... yet


she didn't have to.....

She tried opening drawers,

standing up on unstable objects,

climbing stairs and

eating stuff that shouldn't be eaten.

If something was not ok, 

her parents made sure she was protected

and set boundaries.

Now her life is even bigger,

and more loving adults are around

to guide her in her life.

They also have to set boundaries sometimes,

to make sure she is safe.

Do you feel you are protected?

Do you feel you are allowed to make 'a mistake'

just because it is a way of learning,

a way of life?

Her world became bigger when she went

to her 'day mom'.

She is happy with her new friends, animals

and mom is happy to go back to 'normal' life.

Zoe had to get used to it at the beginning:

a bigger world and new people in her life.

Her parents gave her time...

Her parents had to get used to it as well:

time to find out how to be all they are 


combine it with being a parent as well....


We have to get used to a bigger world as well,

and also a 'new'/different world,

we get time.....

Are we ready to deal with bigger responsibility's

are we ready for a 'bigger world'/ new world,

to be part of a bigger community


do we need more time.

Are we feeling safe enough to take the next step

or not.....

Is it because of the world,

or is it because of unsolved issues inside of us....

Don't we want to let go of control,

and has it to go as we imagined 

or are we open for what is:


and Knowing we are protected....

Zoe is taking her first steps and....falls.....

and laughs.....

She Knows it is ok what she does,

no pressures, just Be.

Be and grow in her own time....

A mirror for us.

I hope and wish you allow yourself to Be,

you allow people around you to Be

and.....celebrate life.

Let control go and be open for what is amazed...


Zoe's name means 'life'.....

I am grateful that she came into our lives

and I am sure she will build her own life

in the way she loves to and is meant to be.

I am also grateful for all the other children in my life

and I 'just' checked the meaning of their names....

Do you know what the meaning is of your name?

Yasmin: strong need for freedom, physical, mental and spiritual, 

               desire to inspire and lead

Lucas: bringer of light.

Aimee: beloved

Mads: gift of God

Jeld: Unpredictable, Adorable, confident.

Lot: hidden, covered, wrapped up

Noor: divine light....

All these and all other children are our mirror,

and a reminder:

they will build the 'new world',

are we helping them to make it 

as smooth as possible?

Bless the children....

they show us the future...

Bless us...

we can make sure that their road in life

can be more easy and more smooth

if we choose to let them live their own life

because we dealt with ours....

Happy birthday Zoe!

Friday 15 October 2021

Do we want a new world and......are we prepared to take responsibility for this?

Social Media was down.....

Norway had a bow and arrow attack and lot's of people died....

Lebanon had a shooting....

In Holland they found people lying in there house

in different city's....dead for weeks.....

Mercury retrograde is in the sign of Libra,

Saturn in the sign of Aquarius......

both planets will go direct very soon....

How do we communicate with each other?

Is social media our main source 

or do we talk face to face......

Do we take the time to connect,

are we prepared to look at each other

knowing we all are going through 'tough' experiences

or is our pain blocking us.....

and are we afraid to deal with our pain...

Can you express your feelings, 

set your boundaries

or are you afraid someone will be hurt.....


because there is still a part in you that is vulnerable...

It could also be, 

that it looks like you aren't afraid,

because you are reacting in a forceful way

and people don't realise that this is hiding hurt as well.....

The numbers of Covid contaminations are going up again

and I wonder how much pain and hurt we still have in society...

Old hurt and pain that wants and needs to go away,

if we choose to step into the 'new world'...

If I hear and read what is going on all over the world,

I wonder what we need more to heal this......

Do we respect each other,

-as the sign of Aquarius wants to remember us-

do we Know we are a society

and in it together?

Do we know and remember that freedom

can only be freedom if there are rules.

Governments, organisations are made to help...

to make sure we all feel free,

rules to help us, like traffic rules.... 

We as society changed and need some new rules

and let go of outdated ones,


are we ready......

ready to take our responsibility?

Ready to deal with the hurt and pain

that is still in us, in our society, in our world?

We can not change as society,

if we are not prepared to look in ourselves

and take responsibility....

How is in your family -a small society-

are you taking your responsibility?

Do you speak up and Know 

that even though they don't agree,

they still love you

or is there manipulation.

Manipulation you also see in the world -big society-

 'If you do this, don't belong'...

Power over instead of Power/Just Be

-a good movie about this theme is 'Just mercy'

JUST MERCY Official Trailer - YouTube  -

Your body is communicating to you as well:

if you 'thought' you did very well,


your soul wants you to remind there are some

unsolved issues,

it will let you know....

What is your body telling you?

Are you tired?

Do you have an infection?

Do you have hives or a bad cough?

Do you have skin challenges?

Listen to your body: 

it wants to 'help' you to bring you in balance again....

Sometimes the consequences of taking good care off you

is to walk away,

walk away from people you love.

Make sure you do it from an energy of peace....

and bless the people who are not in your life anymore.

Know that, when the time is right,

they will come back into your life 

and if not, you wish them all the best.

This is not easy.....especially if it is one of  your parents, 

your children,

your siblings or good friends....

I hope you find this peace:

if you feel it,

you helped the world to go to the next level......


we are all One..

Wednesday 6 October 2021

Moving or running......last part.

This month started with still a lot of planets retrograde,

but after the New Moon on the 6th, 

Pluto will go direct on the 7th:

did you deal with your fears and are you ready to use your power?

Did you transform inside and can you show it to the outside world,

by making changes in your life?

Just a few days later on Oct. the 11th, 

Saturn will go direct:

can you show discipline and responsibility 

or are you afraid

that you will not be accepted it you are YOU....

Do you still believe 

you have to conform to 'your group' 


or else....'your out'..

On Oct. 18 Jupiter will go direct and on the 19th Mercury.

As society we can move forward, grow and heal,

if we did the inner work when these planets went retrograde.

-My mind goes to the Dutch government:

they need to form a new cabinet after the elections....

it takes a loooooong time....

let's hope we will see results this month

after all the negotiations.....

That there are no misunderstanding anymore,

people are listening to each other and make big changes...-

Vaccinated and non-vaccinated people are opposite each other,

and sometime it looks like they don't 'see' each other anymore...

forgot that we are all humans, all One....

People use words as 'war' and 'like the Jews'

and.....don't investigate what they talk about.

In a way it is good: old hurt and pain come up,

people who lived through the war, 

Jews who are still alive

are shocked and make us re-visit those times...

We all realise that talking about something

is different than living through it.....

The new Moon on the 6th can help make a new start....

In the Astrology chart of October,

Uranus has no aspects.

If this is the case with a planet,

it show extremes.

Uranus wants us to be authentic, ourselves 

and if there are no aspects,

you see these extremes in the energy:

rebellion, demonstrations,


people who are afraid to speak up.

When a planet has no aspects,

the energy 'asks' us to heal a wound,

a 'family' wound....

It wants us to be who we are meant to be....

AND....still be part of a group

A Christian tv channel showed a movie/do cu

about two man who were beaten,

in a Christian community.

One of the them is married and gay....

He feels he can not be who is and....

'doesn't want it,

because it is not ok'


'I love my wife and child!'

He can not be what 'they' want them to be,

because that doesn't make him happy.... 

Does he allow him self to be who he is....

or does he feel he has to be what people want him to be....

Confrontational, emotional and very special:

'You should be who you want to be'

We went to Mallorca at the end of last month.

I was still coughing and even couldn't sleep one night....

When we went through the mountains 

it was tough for me physically but I could still enjoy the view.

We also went in the caves: small, slippery, lot's of water,

not so much light but......nice and interesting....

I realise I only can go up and enjoy the view if

I am also prepared to go inside, to go deep.....

even if it is 'slippery and wet'.....

I choose to move instead of running.

Most likely there will be times in the future

that I feel I am in an old pattern

and am 'running',

but I trust I will recognise it and change....

My coughing is almost over,

and when talking about it,

I heard lot's of people with the same....

Could it be that more people have 'suppressed anger'...

more people with old issues of 'speaking up'.....

When Pluto will go direct we most likely will see a change,

people will speak up from power instead of 'power over'...

Let's choose to respect each other,

-first ourselves-

and realise we are all One......

Also let's remember with Mercury retrograde:

we feel a lot, but our interpretation could not always be right....


ask to listen instead of responding,

ask before judging

Know your inner wounds are part of the communication as well.....