Are we open to see the other, or do we stay in our own pain.....?

 We like to have a stable, comfortable, 'safe' life

and sometimes we stay in situations that feel 'comfortable enough'

but aren't.....

With the eclipse we are dealing with the Libra/Aries:

relationships, 'law'/ ourselves, action......

In the world we see Palestine/Israel

or....do we see Hamas/ Jews......

Chiron, the wounded healer is involved in this energy:

are we acting from old pain and forget to look......?

How is it in our own lives?

How is it in our relationships:

do we act from old pain,

or do we take action to solve this pain

so you can live a more balanced life....

The people in Palestine lived already in a 'big prison'

for many years....

Most of them 'have to ' accept it or.....have to move....

A few people are angry, 

so angry that they don't want to talk,

they don't want a solution,

they want war......

The people in Israel live in their 'promised land'

only not safe.....

they have to have shelters in their houses

....deep down they never feel 100% safe....

The government want to let them believe 

that they will keep them safe.....

even by being more 'dictatorial'......

A lot of people didn't want this,

only....we don't focus on it anymore

because of 'the war'.....

-I hope you realise I am a bit black and white ;-)-

Heal.....starting with yourself...

Starting with myself!

Guild/blame is blocking it,

forgiving is changing it.

Forgiving and taking action..... 

Starting with ourselves/myself

....and then there is more war.....

 This is a picture close to the Niagara Falls....

so calm and serene.....'peace'

and just a little bit further there is a lot of noise 'war'....

Can you still look at both sides,

or do you 'take' a side......

For me this war between Israel and Palestine

is a war of old pain,

old pain that is not seen, not healed.....

People on both sides die, are wounded,

people on both sides are afraid,

are losing loved ones.......

More and more there is research done about

the results of unhealed wounds:

burn outs, suicides, addiction etc......

A father who got disabled by an accident

and a son asked:

'why do bad things happen to good people'

When he gets older he commits suicide....only 21 years old.

No one expected this till they found his letter....

 He didn't want to show how he felt,

he was 'the man' in the house since he was 9

and he also made sure his brother, 

who was born premature,

was happy and could do all he wanted to do...... 

A girl of 21....in rehabilitation. 

Started drinking alcohol at a young age.

Parents divorced, and she was bullied

at school......

Starting on Thursday she drank 

the whole weekend.....not a few drinks but...

till she didn't remember anything anymore.

It made her feel embarrassed

but...she couldn't stop.....

She didn't want to live anymore,

till a friend told her about a clinic.....

There she realised she hadn't dealt 

with the pain of being bullied,

and the divorce of her parents.

Now she looked relaxed, 

looking forward to the future.....

Two young people,

one with a job on sea,

one with a friend who went through the same

and recognized her pain.

Pluto.....transformation, war......

You can say: what has this to do with war?!?

My answer: 

you can not shine if there are to many 'clouds' .....

The only one who can let the clouds go,

are you.......

like the sunlight let the fog disappear:

light is stronger....

With the Neptune/Mercury opposition,

we have the change to show our compassion.

Compassion for the war victims 

and also for the earthquake in Afghanistan...

Also Pluto.....

Will we also have a volcano outburst in Italy?!?

I got this as a mirror yesterday.....

-I saw a lot of snails the last months.....-

And this beautiful white butterfly..

There was also a robin.....

-it was to quick for me ;-)-

Could it be that we should be patient.....

that there will be a transformation,

that all will be well?

Do we really trust and believe

or do we, only.....

not 100% yet.....

Let's take it one step at a time,

and heal our wounds to help heal the world.....

or do you believe you power is not big enough.....

Let's decide to have compassion,

start loving ourselves.

Deal with the war inside of us....

instead of making more war with our outside world....

John Lennon - Imagine (Lyrics)🎶 - YouTube

The beauty of Libra.....it is not always a calm ride...part 3.

 I got this by mail for my birthday.

Seeds, 

harvest by someone 

who knows everything about flowers and plants.

Her garden looks like a wild garden,

not organised but....is organised.....

She collected seeds for me and advised me 

to sow them now and at springtime....

Pluto.....

these seeds will be beautiful flowers...

Saturn....

I have to plant them and be patient....

Neptune.....

I have no idea how they look like, 

I 'just' have to trust.....

These seeds are from flowers that bloomed this summer.

They died and.......live on.....

A reminder of life and.....

of going on after dying.....

Also a reminder that part of you can 'die' 

but  not all of you has to go.....

I got the seeds from my sister in law.

Jaap's brother had a stroke almost 2 years ago

and is partly paralysed.

Very challenging in the beginning,

because they just moved back to Holland

in a new house and expected a 'new life'.

They had two choices:

feel sorry for themselves

or....accepting the loss and looking at all the parts

that didn't 'die'....

They choose the last one.

After a year 'they' say 

that you can not see any improvement anymore....

He proved everyone wrong: he is still improving.....

He was in a choir and 

'it is not possible to perform when you are in a wheelchair'.....

Instead of being angry and disappointed,

he kept going and.....they made sure he could also perform....

They go on holiday, with the two of them

and with friends.

Not all the places they stay are what they say they are

so.....it is not always easy in a wheel chair.

They don't like it, only....

they make sure they can still enjoy their time

and.....

speak up, so they can make changes for others.

They are 70 and 73......

If they can deal with this,

I am sure we can deal what is happening in our own life.....

After Libra, we get Scorpio.....

Scorpio and Pluto are related:

are we prepared to go deep?

Are we still hiding our deepest emotions?

Do we 'beat ourselves up' or do we have compassion....

I know I have to deal with some deep emotions:

there is a whole under my crown......

I don't feel pain, but the dentist

saw it in a x ray

and expect it can be a problem in the coming years.

The crown looks good,

only under need it isn't....

I am glad x rays showed it

and the dentist took an x ray.......!

What is your dream?

Can you dream big or do you let Neptune tell you

that 'you are not worth it',

'that it never can happen',

that it is not realistic' ?

Choose to let the fog down

and imagine your biggest dream

and......trust that it will come.

Perhaps not in the way you imagined,

but in a way to is even better for you!

You only can do this

 if you transform old outdated emotions,

emotions that let you believe 

that you had to prove yourself.

That you had to do something to be loved,

or that you couldn't do something that others didn't like

because then 'they wouldn't love you'....

Remember: 

you ARE love,

you ARE enough,

you ARE powerful beyond measure....

Everything that happened in your life

made you the strong person you are now.

Be grateful and forgive.....

first of all yourself.

Also remember that you HAVE to take responsibility,

you NEED to be patient,

there ARE consequences.....

Saturn is needed to deal with Neptune and Pluto.

It is with the beautiful garden 

that looks wild.....

but the one who made it Knew what to do....

If you look at athletes, musicians, successful entrepreneurs:

it looks so easy only.....

they worked hard, had to deal with challenges

and.....kept on going till their dream came true.....

The beauty of Libra.....it is not always a calm ride....part 2

 

Pluto will go direct on the 11th, 

after being Retrograde 

from the beginning of May.

Pluto the planet of death, rebirth, transformation, 

power and your subconscious

asks us to bring to the light what was still in the shadow....

What went on in your life since May?

Where did you have to dive deep into transformation?

Where did you have to look at your shadow?

Did you choose to look at it or....

did you choose to blame or feel as a victim.....

Pluto is not change....

Pluto is transformation....

you don't have a choice....

you HAVE to let go and accept transformation

were it is needed......

You can fight it 

only....

you won't win it in a way you 'want' it,

you will 'win' it in the way that is best for you...

Trust that it is needed to bring light

trust that you have the power within to deal with everything....

I saw this spiderweb outside....

it looks amazing!

I also realise that people can feel stuck,

'caught in a spiderweb',

no way out......

A web they/we/I build by ourselves,

our patterns and habits to make sure we feel 'safe'

Only.....are we born to 'be safe'

or are we born to thrive, to enjoy, to share, to shine?

After the 11th, when Pluto moves forward,

we can expect the results of our journey the last months.

Make sure you are patient with yourself,

have compassion

and enjoy the abundance of nature:

harvest season...

Look at were you were 'stuck'

and choose to change one little thing:

in one year you will see a huge difference!

It can be physical, emotional, relational, 

your place in society or financial.

Pluto changes can be:

-an illness that can be life threatening

 and you change your routine.

-a birth

-a new job

-someone speaking up and a new movement is starting.

-cleaning out cupboards.....

-deciding on getting a pet....

-court cases.....

Remember Neptunes energy is also there this month,

so

-trust your feelings,

-ask if something is not clear,

-make music, listen to music

-use your creativity

-if there is 'fog'....wait till it is over...

-if there is 'fog'....shine light on it....Your light....

The beauty of Libra.....it is not always a calm ride....part 1

 We are in the energy of Libra.

The time of balance,

of beauty 

-look at nature-

of realising that other peoples response

says something about them....

not about you....

However: if you feel offended by it,

it tells you there is a wound inside of you,

that asked to be healed.....

We choose to go on holiday,

to visit family/friends

and enjoy nature.

By choosing this,

we also choose to not be close 

to the people we love in Holland.

'Do they need us?!?'

Could it be that sometimes you have to follow your intuition,

follow 'the white wolf' and ignore the 'black' one,

so the 'white' can even be stronger.....

Canada was a beautiful mirror for me:

- I can be me, feel and let go.

- I can be me AND Know I am being guided:

  sometimes you have to let go.

- I realise and feel more and more that I can be there for people

  AND...I can not solve it for them.....

  as I mentioned before in my blogs:

  'everyone came to this world with his of hers own backpack

   with challenges and only You can solve your own. If you take

   something from someone else you prevent the other to grow

   and you are 'stuck' with something you can not solve....

   even though you would like to help the other....'

- I also felt that you don't need to see your loved ones

  all the time to be close, 

  that family is a feeling. 

We had a great time,

re-visit old people,

met new ones.

We had some challenges 

AND

we could still enjoy the things we like to do.

We can AND accept the challenges

AND see the rainbow....

This month is a month were you should choose to shine,

not forcing yourself, not defending yourself:

just shine.....

Stand up, speak up if you feel there is manipulation,

also ask yourself: 'am I manipulating as well?!?'

What is manipulation?

Not saying what you want straight out,

but in a way you want other to do what you want them to do....

in a 'sneaky' way.

You see it sometimes in divorces: 

letting wrong things go on

because someone is afraid for the consequences 

if they are saying what they really want to say.

Children who are afraid to say what they want

because they feel one of the parents wouldn't like it....

You see it in family's: 

children who are afraid to choose for them selves 

- even when they are adults-

because they feel parents expect something from them....

You see it in relationships:

Spouses don't do what they like to do

because they don't want to disappoint the other.

All of these examples go back to ourselves/myself.

Can I be authentic, myself,

or are there still some old habits, a wounded inner child

that needs healing, comforting,

needs compassion and patience....

Most of it is not conscious,

it is subconscious.....

remember this if you are someone who can easily blame his of herself ;-)

How patient are you with yourself?

Do you still believe you are not doing enough?

KNOW: You are exactly were you have to be at this moment......

Accept it.....

If you are not so happy with it:

choose to look inside and start healing,

take time to rest, spoil yourself

and you will be there were you Like to be

sooner than you will expect....

Stop proving yourself,

stop comparing yourself,

be nice with yourself, 

love yourself and....

Choose to become who you are mend to be:

a happy, abundant, peaceful, loving person.

This month has also a Neptune/Mercury opposition:

expect to feel more,

expect misunderstandings

and -if you are very sensitive-

expect to take emotions from others......

If you do: give them back

AND

look inside:

how come you attracted this?!?

For me it is insecurity......

I feel it and can let it go,

only......

I still pick it up sometimes.....

So I choose to take my time to look at it,

have patience with myself

and....Know that it will go, when the time is right....