Patience....

 Today Saturn moved into Aries......

Saturn asks us to be patient....

to be determined,

it will 'test' us, if we are ready for our next step.

If we are not: we will get another opportunity.

In it's shadow it can overreact.....

wants it 'my way'......

And......you will find out, you can not forget steps,

like you have to study if you want to pass your exam.....

Last year I got seeds for flowers

and after a while

 lot's of green plants showed up in our garden.

No flowers.....

 so I almost wanted to get rid of them:

to much without flowers wasn't what I imagined I would get!

When Kirsten -the person who gave me the seeds-

saw them she said:

'These are 2 years.....they bloom after 2 years.'

We kept them and now: we have lot's of coloured flowers:

beautiful!

If I hadn't asked, 

I would have taken the green leaves out

and I would have missed the beautiful flowers today.....

How determent are you?

Can you wait for something you really want

or do you want it NOW, when YOU planned it.....

instead of waiting till it is the right time....

Most of the time it has to do with control and lack of trust.....

Something that has to do with old patterns.

Now Saturn moved from Pisces to Aries

you can be confronted with 'old victim' energy:

what didn't you do the last 2 years because deep down 

you felt like a victim.......

What are the changes 

you are going to make the coming time?

We all get so many signs from the Cosmos to help us,

only.....do we see them, do we react to them

or......

do we hope we don't have to act on them because:

'it is someone else's fault'

In Holland there was a big demonstration,

peaceful: 'the red line'......

A message to the government:

'We choose you to represent us, 

only you crossed the red line:

do something about the genocide in Gaza!'

If you read my blogs the last year, 

you read that I got a lot of signs and.....

I thought I listened to them and took action,

only.......

I needed a physical sign as well......

It is as if I needed this to help me grow,

help me to really take the necessary steps

that my soul Knows I need to take.

Between the removing of the melanoma

and the next operation, there are 3 weeks.

 I already got lot's of opportunity's 

to heal old patterns......

I realise how often I act on the feeling of someone else,

not realising that it is not MY feeling, 

but the other persons feeling....

I feel the hurt, the anger, the pain from the other

AND.......

don't want to let them feel worse

and instead of responding, I react inwardly........

as if the old pain of the other is 'my fault'......

Looking into it,

I came to the base of this feeling:

I was only 5.......

A picture came in mind and I will share it,

if I can sort out how to do this ;-)

Me, my brothers and sisters.

My sister who didn't want to do what was asked,

and....adults didn't like it.....

and I still hear the reaction

'then you will not be included' while my dad/uncle?!? was laughing...

I also had to hold my baby brother:

you can see, we both didn't like it......

My sister did something great: she wanted it her way,

she was just 2......

I.....I felt that even thought there was laughing,

it was not tolerated and not ok, 

that she didn't do what 'the adults' expected from her/ from us.....

It is still challenging for me to say what I like

with the people I love if......they have a different opinion....

There is/was a part that feels that I have to have a good reason

to do a different thing then what 'they' want me to do......

I don't want to 'hurt' them, 

I want to make sure they are happy,

even though it is not what I want......

I also realise that I am so much better in doing this,

then I did 39 years ago!

It seems that my soul believes I need to do it a bit more

AND....I am doing that.

Lot's of people go through challenging times.

These challenging times are healing times......

'We are all One'.....

The best thing we can do to make a better world,

-a world of respect for each other,

be there for each other

and start a world of peace-

is making sure WE are being the best version of our selves.

A person who Knows that love is always the answer,

that emotions are helping us to heal,

to remember us we are on a path,

a path of love and light.

So: 

-speak up with respect and love

-forgive yourself for not knowing then, what you know now.

-have compassion and respect.

-be patient with yourself AND.....you are not alone...