Tuesday 17 September 2024

A flower and a little field mouse.


 Sometimes you get a very special image on your path....

I walked past this bush....all but one flower was standing out.....

Standing out AND part of the bush.......


The energy we are in now and next year,

is letting go of the old and start something new.....

Like this flower: it needed the soil from the old plant to bloom...

Let's remember that our past can be fertile soil if you let it be,

or.....

you can put to much water on, and stay a victim....


I started this blog last week and....

I saw a same plant with also one purple one sticking out.....

What are the chances....

Everyone of us is a unique part of Cosmic energy.
How good do we know our own part?

I am close to my Solar return
and for me it is the time to look back.
With the second bush with one fresh flower
and finding a little mouse 
in the swimming pool were I was swimming,
it was time to find out what it meant to me....

It was a hectic emotional year for me.
As with the flower, I choose to be me 
AND....also realise that I am part of my past.

In our thinking world, 
emotions are easy to put in our cell memory....
In our youth most of us had to 'behave' meaning:
'don't make waves', 'make your parents proud'.


How is it in our adult life?
Are we still afraid to make waves?
Are we still thinking of making the people/the world 
around us proud and forget 
that we 'only' should make ourselves proud.
We can stop proving......we already ARE....

This last year I got 'help' to let go of the cell memory that was outdated....
Emotions that I 'parked' there to survive when I was younger,
emotions from my 'wounded inner child',
emotions that helped me develop my talents.
Also emotions that blocked who I already am: 
Love......'just Me'.....

I got help in the most beautiful way and also challenging way:
our grandchildren. They are angels on my path.....
It is special to see them at the age, 
that was a challenging age for me as a child.
Old emotions from me were/are mixed with my own....
By mentioning this, 
I also say that I got other angels on my path before:
our children.....
They helped me and are still mirroring me to be ME again.

So does this mean that if you don't have children,
you don't get this opportunity?
No.....my clients, people on my path,
neighbours, situations in the world:
they all are there to help you.
Help you if you choose not only to look,
but also to see....


That little mouse in the swimming pool:
can I let go of fear?
Can I be ME or better:
do I remember that I have the choice
to uses my courage and power 
that is already in me.,,

Jaap got a half new knee,
our bathroom is renovated
and......
because of a routine I developed in the past years,
I could deal with it all and enjoy.

In my work I see many people going trough challenging time,
most of their challenging starting at a very young age.
Insecurity, afraid to be themselves, anger, frustration:
control is not working anymore and......trust is very challenging....

'Accepting'
'Being patient'
'Taking one day at a time'
'The other/the world is your mirror'
All easy to say.....not so easy to do.....

A good thing to remember....

Because of the challenges in my own life,
I developed my 'courage muscle'.
'It will get better,
I don't know how at the moment,
but in the past it became better,
so it will be again.....'just be patient'

In the beginning I had a few doubt,
only it became better.....
not always in the way I imagined,
but always in a way that was good.

Life is meant to be living,
is growing,
is healing,
is going back to who you already are:
Love,
living the life you choose,
remembering that you are born to live in abundance.







Monday 2 September 2024

Can you choose for compassion......first with yourself?


 When a baby is born,

it is welcomed with love, patient and protection.

Parents are happy and will do everything to make sure it is safe and secure.

If it cries they pick it up, give lots of love

and......it 'just can Be'......

It can be unique, incomparable.


How long can a child be in this space.....

There whole childhood, or.....

.a few weeks, months, a year.....

Do we as adults Know we are unique, incomparable

or do we believe 

we have to proof something 

to hide our wounds....


Do we realise our inner child is speaking up

when we 'think' we can not be our unique self....

Do we realise our inner child is speaking up

when we react strongly emotional....

Do we realise our inner child is speaking up

when our body gives us signs........


With all the retrograde planets and Mercury still in it shadow,

there is no easy way out....

I thought I did a lot ......

I spoke up, looked at family patterns and.....felt so much better

and then.....

-most likely because I am ready to go a layer deeper again ;-)-

I am challenged again.


Luckily I was prepared, organised and still......

I am asked to speak up a bit more

and this time my arms got an allergic reaction:

red, itchy, swollen.......

-arms are connected with communication-

Mars is involved  -red, itchy-: 

am I still holding on to old patterns?

Is it still more safe to speak up 'a bit' than to be totally honest?

Am I afraid to hurt the other because I feel the hurt inner child

AND

am I afraid to set boundaries.... am I worth it?!?


'The person you are asking about is trustworthy'......


A daily cart I got many, many times and.....

it took a while to realise that it was not about someone else.....

it was about ME.....

Do you believe you are trustworthy or.....

do you look at other people's reaction

and that is how you feel you are.......


Look at small children....

they 'just Are': 

happy, trusting, exploring...

They 'only' need an adult to make sure he/she is safe....

physically and emotionally.

Were you safe when you were small,

did you feel safe or.......

were you a feeling person in a thinking environment

and didn't know how to deal with it.....

finding ways to 'survive'...


What about parents in Lebanon, Israel, Palestine, Ukraine and Russia....

They were in a war before and have the chance to heal and let the trauma go,

or..... react from their pain.

What about the children who live there: 

will they feel safe and secure or do they have 'to fight' when they are teenagers

because there is still so much anger, so much insecurity inside.


Can we communicate and be open or....not.....


Uranus went retrograde and will stay there till January.

Pluto went back in Capricorn, till mid November.

Where in your life are you not free yet....

Were do you want to keep the old even if it is not good for you anymore.

What is society letting you believe,

What does social media let you believe

AND

What do you choose....

Love or fear,

Abundance or lack,

Being authentic/you and trust that you are part of society,

or do you conform because of lack of self-worth.

Can you accept and go on,

or do you want to control.......


Sometimes my 'heart breaks' and

I Know every one of us has to go through there one issues.

I choose to be compassionate.....

Not only with others,

also with myself.....