Tuesday 31 March 2020

Be the change.......can we accept 'help'.....part 4

When I arrived, the 'door' was open,
I just could walk trough….
When I tried to close the beam,
it was not possible…..
The coronavirus is like this 'door'....
it helps us to get to the other site in an easy way. 
Not our way, 'the control way',
the way that 'seems' to be best for us,
but the way that we don't understand….yet...
The way that is probably best
'in the long run'...

We like to stop this virus, however....
it is not that easy....
WE have to take responsibility.
Not only by washing our hands
and social distancing,
but also
by looking inside.
What 'virus' is still inside of us,
that we can not let go yet.
The 'virus' that let us believe
we have
'to fight'
'to rush'
'to do all'
'to compete'
'to prove ourselves',
not believing and realising
that we are all One.

When Uranus went into Taurus,
we 'Knew' 
nature would be important,
'safety' in our self would be important,
grounding and slowing down would be important.....
Just Be,
Be love,

Now we get 'help'.

Parents get time with there kids
and.....most of the time 
it is more challenging then they thought it would be.

Couples have to work at home,
be together 24/7 and.....
mirror each other:
Will there be a babyboom after 9 months
or a divorce tsunami....;-)

People who hate the job they are in
get all of a sudden
time to think what they really want
realise they are only in it for the money
can make a conscious decision:
stay or chance this.

Teachers, Nurses, doctors,
garbage collectors,
NOW people know how important they are:
will they remember this after the crisis?

We also realise that appearances
are not so important.
To be healthy,
that is the key.
Hairdressers, beauticians, sports clubs….
are all nice and...
not nr. 1.

-I cut my own hair...it looks ok,
till you look closer, so I am glad
when all this is over I can ask my 
hairdresser to make it right again ;-)-

We are all walking 
towards a future
that is unknown.
Walking over 'troubled water',
accepting our emotions and
decide to just walk on....
step by step.

We also know that nature shows us
that there is always a spring again,
a new beginning.
We 'just' have to be patient.

There are big differences
in how people deal with this all.

I see family's being bored and angry,
and family's dancing.

I hear about family's hurting
because a loved one passed away
because someone got an illness
because they couldn't be together.
I also see family's connecting
Knowing that we are all close,
even if we can not touch each other
at the moment.

How is it with you?
Can you see 'the open door'
or do you want to close it.....
Can you accept it the way it is or
do you want to keep control....
even though you see, feel and realise
that it doesn't work...

Can you look back
and be grateful for challenging situations in your life?
I can….and it helps.

When I saw my brother got killed by a car accident,
I couldn't see why….
as a 10 year old, 
I wanted to know why….
I had to wait till I was almost 40 to see
'the silver lining'...

When I got cancer
as a mother of 3 young children,
I couldn't see why...
I decided to go within 
and listen to my inner voice….
and I changed….
Knew that Jaap and I
could deal 
with whatever would come on our path.

When my parents died within 11 weeks,
I didn't know why...
I only Knew 
that that is why I had to be in Holland.

When our house burned down,
I didn't know why,
I knew there was a reason...
After that, I realised
that although we lost material memory's
we still had them in our hearts
and in the pictures that were saved.
Most important: we had each other.

When my sister decided not to live anymore
and family patterns became clear,
I didn't know why...
Now I know, 
it was to help us all
to learn to love our selves
and set boundaries.

When  we had to leave the middle east
earlier then we thought,
and my brother decided not to live anymore as well,
I realised that again.
I was being 'helped'......
I didn't know how and why,
but I learned from past experiences.
I realised 
that letting go of people 
can be a choice 
for living people as well.
Sometimes people don't belong in our lives
even though they are still living.

Now the coronacrisis.
We get time....
Time to go inside,
stay in 'your house'.
being patient.

For me it feels like 
Ramadan in the middle east…..
-I even had the feeling
I couldn't take a mint in the car to eat…..-
Like Lent,
a time to go inside.

Aren't we lucky
to live in a time of social media,
so we can keep in contact with all our loved once
we get a chance to 
to choose 
what to see and read,
check, double check
if there is fake news.

For all the people who are sad and hurt
I send lots of love:
it must be very hard for you all.

I hope you realise soon,
that you are much stronger then you thought 
I hope that the pain makes you stronger,
 and that you will never forget your loved ones.
Those memory's will always stay,
they will be the fuel/roots for the future.

Strong roots.
It will take time.
Be patient,
start being grateful
like after winter,
there will be a spring....
White feathers are everywhere...

Stay well
Stay safe
Be the change you want to see in the world...
blooming takes time,
look for the first positive signs..

Sunday 22 March 2020

Be the change....... letting go of control....part 3

Can you let go of control?
Do you recognize the area's in your life
where you still want to keep control?

Where do you feel fear?
Is it
-your body
-your job
-your relationship
-your finances
-your mental state?
Where you feel fear,
probably there is were your 'control' is,
to much control....
We live now in a time were we can heal this,
take responsibility.

We have a choice,
every day we can start again
and there is always a way!
Our road in life is not always going 
in a way we expect it
or would like it to go.
Sometimes there are obstacles:
do you choose to go through it,
or do you go around it....
do you think the road is closed...

Could it be 
that we are making plans for our life
without a healthy foundation?
that we sometimes need a challenge
to realise this?
We are in a time of challenges
to help us
to deal with these obstacles
and/or going around them.
This, to help us 
so our dreams 
can come true.

Because of less traffic, 
less flying,
the air quality around a lot of big city's 
are much better.

Because of working at home,
family's have more quality time together,
are confronted with insecurity's,
appreciate the job's of health workers 
and teachers much more.

Because of less work,
there is time to deal with insecurity,
time to think about 
what is most important in life.

Because of illness and dead,
people think about health more,
about prevention
about what life is all about.

Restaurants and dining places are closed,
so perhaps it is time 
to change some eating habits,
and start new recipes.
Perhaps using more alkaline food,
to boost our immune system.

Nature takes its time to grow,
takes its time...
WE get time...
time to heal
and time to grow.

most of us realise
that we are impatient.
We want it solved NOW,
be in control....

Look at nature.
Be patient
take your time,
it takes as long as necessary
DO what you can do
to help solve it:
deal with YOUR issues.

I think it is safe to say,
that we all hope for a smooth pad,
without obstacles.
We like the fairy tale,
that stops at the wedding,
with 'living happily ever after'
we wish, hope it will stay this fairy tale….

Deep down we know, 
that life starts AFTER the wedding,
we still want this fairy tale,
even though we know life is different.

We want it for our kids....
so we solve all there 'problems'
and hope they don't have to go through them:
as if we think they can not deal with them themselves..
or is it
because if we do this
we don't have to deal with our own issues...

Life is going on, 
even though it is not smooth,
it is going on,
it is fun and it is tough, 
it is accepting, being grateful
and making plans.
We expect those plans to come through,
if that is best for us,
and if not:
we get something that is 'better'.
Letting go of control 
and trust...
There will be 'cracks' in the road,
sometimes you have to let go...
and have no idea why, 
what is happening to you
is 'the best for you?!?'

Sometimes you think you can not go on,

sometimes that is true
but ….
most of the time it is not...
You go on 
and realise you are stronger 
than you thought you were..

You are hurt, feeling sad
you have to wait and see how it goes....
be patient with yourself
then you see small signs
and KNOW,
perhaps not feel....,
that it will be ok again.
Not the same, but different.

Could it be that it is time to listen to YOUR heart first now?
Listen to yourself?

What do YOU want,
what makes YOU happy.
This will for touch your fears for sure,
all to do with 'old society'...
'You are a dreamer'
'That is not possible'
'How can you ever support your self with this,
let alone a family!'
'You have to choose: regulair of natural healing
or you are not trustworthy'

Can you let go of control
and start listening to your own heart?
Do you allow yourself to listen to YOU? 

I don't know how this coronacrisis will end,
I do Know that people think about priority's now,
that nature gets time to heal,
that WE get time to heal.
I also realise that we have a choice....
listen to fear -'feed the black wolf-
or to trust -feed the white wolf.

Nature around us show that we can trust....
it is spring again,
flowers are blooming,
birds are singing,
people get sick, get better
sometimes die.....

Most of the people who die now 
are people who are older,
Saturn/Pluto in Capricorn....
Of course we want our parents, grandparents
to live forever.....
they do!...
only not in this life...

I still think about my parents
and remember wise lessons,
and situations that challenged me.
I also remember my grandparents:
they were so special and...
they are still close...

Perhaps we can trust more
and look at nature...
There is a time for everything....
a time to live
and a time to die
and a time to remember.

Can we accept this 
and start Living:
having fun,
be grateful,
be compassionate,
realising that we are all ONE,
and also
that we have to let go...
let go of our teenager time,
let go of being a student,
let go of 'playing' a role
let go of a parent and be our own parent..
'just Be'.

This crises helps us to remember,
and also to teach young people
that they have a responsibility too...
They are important!

They will not get sick most likely,
they are part of society 
and responsibility is part of this as well.

Some rules in society
are not that important anymore,
so perhaps we could let them go
-'you should give a hand or kiss your grandparent'-
some are very important,
like stopping at a red light.
At the moment we have a new rule:
don't come close to each other in big groups.

We can get angry at people who don't follow those rules
or we can choose to guide
talk about consequents.

We as adults need to guide them,
like we guide small kids:
telling them to use a coat because it is cold,
not to touch a candle because it is hot....

They will not like it AND...
that is not important...
sometimes 'older people'/ parents know better.

So letting go of control,
means also setting boundaries....
letting go of victim ship,
healing our 'inner child'
and being firm and loving,
being patient and encouraging.

It is the road back to YOU....
a road that is not always smooth
it doesn't have to be...
we are learning.

We have the ability to deal with it,
we are nature as well....
we 'just' need to be patient,


Heal the world...
starting with yourself.

Tuesday 17 March 2020

Be the change you want to see in the world....part 2

Many times,
I wrote about the Saturn/Pluto conjunction.
About the big change, the year 2020 would be.

I couldn't really imagine what it would be:
there are a lot of things in the world that didn't look right....
'how can that be changed in a short time?!?'

Nature is stronger,
I realise that more and more....

In Holland there were lot of storms
and Carnaval parade had to be cancelled...
As if this wasn't enough for us
to get the message,
we got another one…..
the coronavirus...

Yesterday the prime minister of Holland
had a speech for the country....
the last time,
a prime minister did this,
was with the oil crises..

I was impressed!
A government has a choice
most of the time
it looks like
that the economy comes first.
This time it was different:
people first,
business second
'we will make sure it will be ok after this,
also for the businesses'
'look out for each other'
'most likely a lot of us will get it,
and we will have to build immunity
to protect the ones who are vulnerable'

Some people are afraid,
and are hoarding…..
Some are afraid to meet people,
others trust
and take precautions.

Can you still live,
enjoy life,
Know you are important,
This is a Dutch song and I love it...


Remember to live every day
and Know you are part of it.
What can you do:
you can still smile,
send a cart
and help neighbours.

Everything new
needs time...

I saw the first flowers in the back yard :-)

I saw the spring starting in nature

I also saw flowers with there heads to the sun

That what is right will always win....
even though it can take longer then you want it to be...

Nature takes time,
as much as needed.
YOU are nature,
do you take YOUR time?

I also saw flowers with cloudy water beneath it....
water that didn't move....

Cloudy water.....emotions,
how many 'cloudy' emotions are still in us
do we want to make these emotions clear
or do we prefer it to stay like this.….

Did you ever smell water that is not moving,
did you look at water that is not moving….
the same happens with our emotions….
it makes us sick....
it makes society sick...

How afraid are we....
-free translation of Marianne Williamsons poem…-

"My deepest fear is not that I am inadequate.
My deepest fear is that I am powerful beyond measure.
It is my Light, not my Darkness, that most frightens me.
I ask myself, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who am I not to be?

I am a child of God. My playing small does not serve the World.
There is nothing enlightening about shrinking
so that other people won’t feel unsure around me.
I am born to make manifest the glory of God that is within me.
It is not just in me; it is in everyone.
As I let my own Light shine,
I consciously give other people permission to do the same.
As I am liberated from my own fear,
my presence automatically liberates others."

It is time....
and we can do it step by step,
like they do with the Coronavirus.
We need a change and
there is a change: 
it will be ok.

Will it be 
as I expect it to be?
Most likely not,
I trust that I will Know if I need to do things
and also Know when to take distance
and trust...
trust that it wil be as it should be...

I saw already lot's of flowers….

more beautiful then I could imagine….
nature will not stop.

It is as with a baby....
it needs 9 months to grow,
before it shows how great it is:
2020 is a 'pregnant year'.....
Let's expect the best :-

I realise that for new energy
we need space
like in the forest:
old trees had to go because of the storm
and because they died.
Now there is space for new
Do you still need things to go?
I sure do ;-)

And....remember the good things
I will go on,
the same as most of you :-)
Enjoying the sun,
listening to the signs,
and live day by day
imagining a great future.
KNOW we are on this path together
do our own individual 'work'.

-my back is telling me
that there is still fear...
fear to BE.....
give to myself
as much as to the people around me...
To speak up,
not being afraid,
not being punished
because of who I am….
that is an old energy...

A bumble bee came around,
and I checked it's meaning:
'time for change,
recognize your worth,
don't be afraid to be hurt,
let your walls down,
you are more powerful then you realise'

What can you do:
-wash your hands
  -show kids how important it is by using glitter with the soap:
   they will realise you have to wash very careful to get rid of it-
-use teatree oil
-drink lemon/ginger/turmeric tea
-go into nature
-be happy
-tap on your fear point -the point at the collarbone-
-take signs seriously
-deal with old issues inside.

love is strong....

Thursday 12 March 2020

'Be the change you want to see in the world' Ghandi

'The Wall',
a song from Pink Floyd
'came by'
and I listen to it in a different way...


'We don't need thought control....'

A song about teachers, society,
about being yourself, unique.
Also a song 'against' the outside world...
the 'Saturn, capricorn' world.

How is it since then
-the song was released nov. 1979- ?
Did we change,
learn and Know that the only way
to change the world
is changing from the inside,
or is it still to hard
to deal with our own 'demons' inside
is it easier to blame 'others'....

When I listened to it this time,
it was as if it spoke to my inner child….
How do I deal with it?
Am I still punishing it,
do I want to 'safe' it,
as what the teachers* wanted?

Wanted because they thought that this was best.
They thought it was best because someone taught them
that this was the best....
Where they all wrong?
No, there was/is something good in it as well,
as it was in our upbringing.
Can we keep the good and let the not so good go?
What is the good and....what was the bad?
- teachers*: it can be parents, teachers, priests, rules,
                    society etc etc.-

Do you allow your inner child to be it self?
Do you take time to make sure it feels safe?
Can it play, be creative, have fun,
be carefree and trust.....
that he/she is loved unconditionally?

I can feel the energy we are in now,
the Saturn/Pluto in capricorn energy....
I see the change in society:
the coronavirus, country's that want change,
don't trust each other,
I see the the change in people:
old illnesses come up, trusting issues,
people who want to change jobs/profession,
family patterns come up
Are we our own worst 'teacher'
or are we the ones who understand
and respect our inner child,
make sure it feels safe...
Do we have patience
and do we give our self time...
Do we know that we will grow in our own time,
when the time is right....

I know this in my head….
however my emotion and my body show
that I don't believe it 100% yet….
The bulbs outside show it.....
there is more green only…..
no flowers….yet;-)

A part of me is still impatient:
although I seem to be ready to let go
of some more old emotions,
there is also a
part of me that is still afraid….
It is the little me that doesn't trust 
the big me to protect it….

Saturn will move to Aquarius on March 23,
it will go back in Capricorn from July till half of december,
and after that it will stay in Aquarius till 2023.

Can we have a new society with respect for each other
being different and unique
AND part of a group,
do we need to be rebellious,
'break' things and think 'we are the only one who is right'
and by this….
start a world that looks new, but isn't….

Can we use vaccination in a balanced way....
Can we have doctors and homeopaths work together
Can we be different in a family and still be part of it as well.
Can it be and/and instead of or/or..

In 1991 we had the same change in the Saturn energy:
what happened in your life then?

This time there is a big difference with 1991:
now Pluto is involved.….
Pluto wants transformation not 'just change'.

It is the difference between cleaning or spring cleaning,
about changing your hairstyle or total transformation:
hair, body and clothing stile.
If you thought you could get away with something,
because no one made a big deal of it,
then Pluto will be brutal
if you did things that were not right...

It is the change from caterpillar to butterfly.

'We don't need thought control':
a sentence that shows old energy....
let's change it in a new way:

'We allow ourselves to be who we are
and by that we can make a new society
with all our unique talents'


Instead of fear,
use trust....

All the energy's of the planets can be used in a
conscious of subconscious way.
The coronavirus is a Neptune energy
in a subconscious way.
It touches our fear to help us
to let our own fear go.

To be responsible if you have symptoms
is a conscious way of Saturn,
if there are some unsolved issues in you,
it will touch fear and you want
other to solve it....'the government'
so you have something/one to blame..
Neptune and Saturn together,
makes you imagine a great world
a great future
without being unrealistic.
Taking your responsibility
and expecting the best outcome.

Choose to go inside and heal,
so we all can see the world we like to see.