Monday 19 December 2022

Knowledge, is 'just' knowledge......

We live in a world 

were we can find all the information we need.

First there were 'only' books and because of the price,

library's were build....

so everyone could get the information they wanted/needed.

Now we don't have to buy information...

we can get if for free on the internet.....

We also know now, that the 'new' way of getting information,

is not really free ......

and now we know this 

we are more cautious.

Information is a great starting point, is a starting point....

What are we going to do with the information?

Can we use it to help us be 

who we want to be?

Does it bring us more in balance more at peace

or is it something that stays in our head..

 I realise that these blogs 

are also about the mind.....

You get information and sometimes my own experience.....

This information will stay just that ....information

if you can not integrate in your own life...

You NEED to add your emotion, your experience,

your life experience for it to work......

You NEED friends, loved ones 

and/or a therapist,

a coach or a doctor to help you,

if you can not build something useful for YOU

with all the information you have....


perhaps we need nature.....

perhaps we should remember 

we are a 'Human BE ing'

not a 'Human DO ing'..... 

At the moment I am in an energy of 'DO ing'.....

Preparing for Christmas,

so 'everything' is ready,

'everything' is at home,

'everyone' will get what I think he/she likes....

I realise it is an old pattern......

and feel that it is my choice......

Do I choose to BE and enjoy

or do I choose to be in control.......

Do I have to proof I am 'good',

or do I Know that I am good just the way I am......

Do I trust the Cosmos

or do I believe I can do better......

Hope you all will enjoy BE-ing,

this Christmas.

To bring everything in perspective ;-)

Sunday 18 December 2022

Christmas 2022, at peace...

 At peace.....

How is the world within you?

Can you be at peace with whatever is going on?

Did you shine a light on the parts in you 

that are still in the dark

or do you prefer them to stay in the dark......

coming up at the worst moment.......

At peace.....

Do you Know you are unique, authentic, love,

just the way you should be


do you still have people around you

treating you in a way you don't deserve?

At peace.....

Is your body showing energy, flexibility

and is it a vehicle you like,

a vehicle you can use 

if you need to go somewhere 

or want to do something


is it tired.....are you over using it,

not treating it the way it needs to be,

to be of service for you...

At peace.....

Can you enjoy a smile from a child,

seeing a beautiful flower,

watching individual people and community's helping each other


do you see war, people fighting, disagreeing

and being negative....

At peace.....

Are you creative and being patient to find solutions

for 'being cold', 'not being there yet were you choose to be'

for 'how it is now'


do you focus on the lack in your life,

connecting with people/community's 

who also forgot they are powerful and creative....

At peace.....

It is something we wish each other on Christmas:

'Peace on Earth'.....

For this Christmas,

I wish you all:

peace within you.....

At peace....

For 2023 I wish you all the same:

Peace within in you.

I also wish you

lot's of light to shine on the dark parts

that don't want to hide anymore. 

Parts, blocked emotion,

old family/society karma,

that prevents us to be at peace....

Prevents the world to be at peace....

-Something I wrote down a long long time ago....-

Peace and responsibility......

the one can not be without the other...

One day at the time....

at peace......

Accepting what is,

taking responsibility

-sometimes doing less is also taking responsibility.....-

At peace within.....

Feed your soul,

so you can see, feel and experience

 the difference between

emotion and intuition....

Feed your soul and find peace within

so you can see a beautiful world....

Monday 5 December 2022


 I wrote about the book 'Untamed' from Glennon Doyle.

It talks mostly about the 'fear zone'.

The zone we start to live in when we,

as a child become aware of our surroundings.

She talks about parents

and how parenting has changed over the years.

She talks about 'memo's' parents got

when they took their child home from the hospital.

These 'memo's changed in the years.....

'Now it looks like  the goal of parents is

to never allow anything difficult to happen to their child. 

By this we steal from our children the one thing

that will allow them to become strong people:


How come parents believe this?!?

Could it be that in the new energy we live in,

we HAVE TO deal with our old emotions.

In the past we could hide from them,

but not now anymore....

The only way we can help our kids,

is to deal with our OWN demons.

Decide to stop the family/society karma with us....

By not allowing them 'to struggle'

we prevent them to grow....

Can we as an adult move from the learning zone,

to the growing zone AND

accept and realize 

that we move back in the fear zone

once in a while....?

Can we be as compassionate with ourselves

as with our children?

Her new memo for parents:

'Here is your baby.

Love her at home, at the polls, in the streets.

Let everything happen to her.

Be near.'

Be near.......

You  only can be near if you 'near' to yourself.

Do you set boundaries?

How do you deal with social media/mobile phone?

Can you set boundaries with your children?

Not as a punishment, 

but to make sure

they get time to be creative,

to think for themselves,

to develop their talents,

use their imagination.

How come that the same people who developed

social media/internet,

 don't let children use a mobile.....

What do they know what we don't want to see.....

Could it be that 

by staying in the comfort/fear zone,

by not dealing with our emotions

by being addicted to social media/internet ourselves

we show that

-instead of being a parent-

we want to get the love from our children we missed ourselves? 

Could it be that deep inside of us

we still look for someone/something

that will 'save us',

will take care of us,

will make us happy......

Could it be that there is

still a part in us

that doesn't trust,

doesn't believe in the power we all have inside....

Could it be that by denying this part,

we keep in the state of control....?

Could it be that we, as society, 

are in 'a womb'.....

ready to be born,

born into a 'new' society,

and we are feeling the fear,

'inner child wounds'....

Deep down we Know,

that after a pregnancy

there will always be a birth.....

Perhaps we forgot 

we all have the power inside of us 

to deal with our challenges,

and....we don't have to do it alone:

we are doing it together.

Let's remember 

that Love and determination 

is in all of us.....

Let's remember this


take one step at a time.....

December, the end of the year.

A good time to look back

and be grateful how far you came.

Body, Mind, Relationship, Society, Finance:

what was your 'weakest link'?

What is the first step you can do

to move to were you want to go?

Let's remember that we are all Love,

Let's decide to move from fear to Love...

one day at a time.

What are you going to do for yourself today?

Monday 28 November 2022


When I read the book 'Untamed'

I recognized so much.

I saw the similarity with the energy we live in,

and also the blocks we have.....

We talk about girls being powerful,

living their lives, being independent

and.....finding boys/man often less powerful

if they show their emotions....

We see in society strong leaders

and leaders who still believe that you

need to put people down to be a leader.....


only unhealed leaders need this.....

Glennon Doyle, the writer of the book, 

had bulimia and was addicted.

She stopped using drugs and alcohol

when she found out she was pregnant.

When she went through her divorce

she fell in love with a woman: 

a shock for her and.....she followed her hart.

Till then I could understand her path:

taking responsibility, go for unconditional love

and live life.

Then I was challenged: 

she is using medicine

to make sure she lives a happy life.

'I need it to cope with society'.....

and it touched my believe system.....

In 1996 is was teaching at the American school

and was first confronted with children who 'needed Ritalin'.

My reaction:

'For me it is not ok! We should make sure that we teach in a way

that these children can learn and be themselves.

It cannot be that children need medicine because we,

as teachers cannot deal with it!

Now it looks like 'normal' that children 'need medicine'

to cope.......and for me every person should need to feel

safe and secure in society.....

If not.....society should change.....

Like we believe that love is love,

that all people should belong and accepted.

Pluto in Aquarius

Everyone belongs,

respect for everyone.....

What does my reaction/feeling on using medicine

 say about me....

Can I disagree about using certain medicine

and still respect the person who is using it?

Can I feel that addiction to drugs and alcohol

is for me as an addiction to medicine?

For me, 

medicine should be used to help your body stay healthy

if you cannot do it yourself.......yet.....

Do I feel guild or shame or 

do I judge people who need this?!?

How about me?

I wouldn't be alive 

if doctors were not there with the birth of our children.....

I wouldn't be alive

if I didn't had an operation for cancer......

Is that different than using medicine?!?

Perhaps it is that I don't agree 

if you need to use it

to 'survive' in society.

That you are not accepted because you

look different/think different/behave different....

I believe we should be respected as we are.

I believe that everyone deep down want to be respected

and wants to respect and.....

if we don't....

we are wounded.....

If we need help 

to heal this wounded part,

than it is great we can use medicine/doctors etc.

But if the help we get,

keep us addicted than I am not sure 

this wounded part will be healed.....

Let's choose to stay 'untamed'

I see it in the world cup in Doha:

lot of old issues come up and revealed....

I see it in power issues in the media world in Holland:

powerful people are revealed as wounded leaders....

I see it in the protest in China

We already feel the energy of Pluto in Aquarius

Sometimes I choose to sit with me....

so light can shine in me

and light up my shadows.

Is there still a traumatized part inside of me

that wants to be healed.....

Is there a traumatized part in society

that needs to be healed........

Thursday 17 November 2022


 I got a great 'whisper':

A book everyone should read!

Do we listen to who we are deep down,

or we still listen 

to what we think we have to be......

The coming year I expect that we see how far we came

and also what we 'have left to do'....


Know you can ask for help

AND you will be needed by others for help....


 you are not the same person as you were in 2008,

realise you can be the person now, 

that can help someone else.

Be aware of your emotions,

be grateful when you are calm and can use your intuition,

be grateful when you don't feel guilt or shame.

Have compassion for people 

who still have to go trough these emotions.

Be grateful for the mirrors you get

from others and society.

Be grateful even if you are not as calm

as you want to be.

Have compassion with yourself.....

If you feel tired or overwhelmed:

listen to it's whisper....

Know we are 'All One',

no one is better than someone else,

we all have our own unique quality's.

Life is an adventure to find out what they are

and then to share this with the world.


a smile from a stranger,

someone who let you go first in line,

a flower that is still blooming,

a day when you feel less pain/less tired,

saying sorry because you 'forgot' something

and not feeling guilt or shame,


A whisper....and:

I believe the group is bigger.

You can help by making it even bigger:

Choose happiness

Live without limits, imagine the world you desire.

Act in spite of fear

Explore new things

Be exited

Take a step in confidence

KNow we are born to live in abundance.

Could it be that 2 % of society

is so loud to express what all is wrong,

that we, the rest 

sometimes forget that we are closer than we think we are....?

Wednesday 16 November 2022



The Queen of Holland talked about mental health:

 'talk, talk, talk to your parents/friends if you are not happy'

and also

'every day can not be a 10'

Her sister committed suicide a few years ago...

she chooses to heal and help,

not only herself but also 'society',

she also could choose to be quiet....

By this she is showing Pluto in Aquarius:

we are all important in society.....

If you are a 'queen' or 'cleaning a workplace'.


How come that

part of society still let us believe 

that if you go to university you are 'better' than if you go 

to community college......

We see in society

a shortage of skilled people:

teachers, carpenters, builders, waiters etc etc....

We are blaming governments

not seeing were we in our life We are 'to blame'...


change is needed...

Pluto in Aquarius will make sure it will happen....

Just remember 2008 when Pluto went into Capricorn:

big changes in banks, housing, finance......

We are at the end of this energy.

What we didn't do yet, 

and what was needed 

will come up the coming time.

Are the leaders of the world, leaders

or do they want control........

Are we taking responsibility for our selves

or do we hold on to old believes and

do we still need 'a mom and dad'

to take care of us.....

even if we are adults.....

Next year when Pluto moves in Aquarius,

we will see how far we came.

What are we doing as society.....

Are we as society respectful 

or are we forgetting ourselves in a group.

Are we mislead and following 'a group'....

forgetting to think for ourselves....

How do we deal with refugees,

Social Media, conspiracy theory's, 

deep fake movies...

Do we trust science and new technology

or do we hold on to 'what we know'....

even if it is outdated....

I am sure there will  be new inventions/innovations

that will help us all.

In schools there will be changes:

the old system is not working anymore

because society has changed.

A subject like 'how to deal with social media'

would most likely 

be the most important subject the coming years....

Is our mobile 

our connection with the world and relationships,

or do we still connect with people on a personal level.

Do we realise that we miss intonation of words

and the energy from people 

if we only connect by our mobile...?

How much did we heal in ourselves:

are we already being ourselves/authentic

do we see the other as an other part of you,

do we respects others even if they think different


do we judge.

If we do, 

we Know, we are still judging ourselves.....

Sunday 13 November 2022


How do you feel about 'whispers':

Do you feel 'calm' or do you feel 'anxious'? 

If you feel calm, 

you Know intuition is speaking.

If you feel 'anxious', 

most likely there are some old emotions talking.

Perhaps you are a person that focus more on the

'negative' whispers than on the 'positive' ones. 

because that was how you 

'survived' in the past, when you were a child....

A way to avoid certain situations....

It could be 

that you are used to look at what is not so good

and forgot to look at al the positive whispers...


you are an adult now and

can choose different if you want to.....

On one of my walks, I almost was hit by someone on a bike.

He: 'I just thought that normally no one walks here and perhaps

now there will be one!' 

-he sounded as if he blamed himself....-

I: 'Yes is good that you were not a little bit later

and I not a bit earlier!'

He: 'You are right and....perhaps this is good for something....'

-we had a nice chat and he moved on with a smile on his face-

A whisper....

Sometimes you are on the right spot because of a delay,

or avoiding something bad  because of it.....

Sometimes clients all of a sudden come in my mind

and sometimes I hear: 

'all of a sudden you came in my mind

and I like to have a session again'.

Sometimes from people long ago....


Our body, physical energy, 

is the slowest energy.

When it 'whispers',

most of the time there was already a social or mental whisper

we didn't hear.....couldn't/wouldn't listen to it.

If we choose to change

and listen to this social and/or mental whisper

our body doesn't need to whisper anymore

or starting to scream.....

We will start healing....

With the lunar eclipse old emotional issues will come up.

How are we going to deal with it?

Do we feel we have to erase something 

or correct it........

The energy will stay with us the coming months

so we get lot's of chances to change and let go and heal.

There is a tendency in society 

that we have to 'erase' situations from the past:

books about subjects, statues from the past, 

apologising for people long gone..

For me this is not a whisper, it is a scream.....

A scream from people with hurt feelings,

family/society karma......

Instead of erasing, 

I like to correct the thinking/situation.

Accept what happened AND 

showing by my action

that I change, that I know better now....

Forgive and be forgiven.

More and more I realise 

that it is much more challenging

to act on what you believe

 than to talk about it....

I talked to someone in a wheelchair:

'People talk louder to me, as if I can not hear,


most of the time people don't talk to me 

but to my wife!'

How do you act around:

people who smoke/not smoke?

People who drink/not drink?

People who are old/young?

People who work hard/don't do 'anything'?

People who are always positive/negative?

Can you accept them?

Can you accept them AND set boundaries

in a calm way or 

do you still keep walls 

and keep reacting in a judging way?

I know I am not always reacting from intuition...yet....

and....that is ok.....

I am still healing and growing....

Could it be that we need to learn

the difference between walls and boundaries

to hear the whispers...?

Could it be that we needed the walls as a child,

being vulnerable, 

not understanding the world we were born into...

Could it be that the world is whispering

to let the walls go......

that we are all One.....

The Film — Dead Sea Guardians (

A man from Israel, Palestine and Jordan,

doing this together......

A whisper .....

We are all One

and should work together....

A sign of the coming energy next year: 

Pluto in Aquarius...


Tuesday 1 November 2022


 A sad feeling,

a body ache,

challenges with your spouse,

with your children,

in relationships.

Financial challenges,

challenges with your job,

a feeling of 'worthlessness'.......

All whispers.....

Eating to much or not enough,

moving to much or not at all,

wanting to be alone all the time,

or with others all the time....

All whispers.....

A bird that is visiting you,

a white feather on your path,

'two flowers for one',

a waiting list that 'all of a sudden' is gone,

a book/movie/article/documentary 

that gives you in inside you didn't know you needed....

All whispers...

The cosmos whispers to us all the time,

are we open to listen?

Are we open to receive?

Society whispered for a long time:

are we listening?

Nature whispered for a long time:

when are we listening?

It doesn't matter if 'we' start listening.....

'We' is 'easy'.....often used as 'them'....

forgetting that in the we, there is also the I.....

Do I hear the whispers?

Am I listening?

Do I live Knowing that 'we are all one',

or do I 'just' preach it.....

Do I listen to the whispers

or am I waiting for the screams........

Monday 31 October 2022


Last week, I woke up one morning with an 'old' feeling....

A feeling of not being happy,


A feeling that you don't want to do anything AND

deep down you Know that doesn't help......

I remembered the flower bulbs that needed to go in the ground

and decided that I could do that.....

146 bulbs......that is a lot...

I got them as a birthday present.

Blue en yellow flowers will be in our garden....

if I choose to plant them.......

When I finished, 

I didn't really feel much better

only.....'a job that needed to be done, was done'

In the afternoon I remembered 

there were some more bulb,

bulbs from last year...

they needed to be planted as well.....

I did those in the afternoon.....

An eclipse is 'helping' us to bring up old patterns,

we have a choice how to deal with it.

Do we accept the feeling AND do something

or do we stay in the feeling and let the emotions overwhelm us... we run away from our feelings.....

This time I could accept.... and do something,

something I couldn't do with the same kind of eclipse in the past.

-I mention the times in the last blog-

I walked in the garden this morning

and realised that the garden looks the same

as last week, only......

there are lot's of bulbs in the ground

that weren't there last week.....

I also realised that I feel happy and grateful.

Realise that sowing seeds, planting new thought,

planting bulbs, walking in the forest,

smiling to someone in a shop,

imagining the life you choose to

will help.......

You change energy and.....

even if you don't see the results yet,

they will come.....

Like the bulbs I put in the ground....

I have to wait till spring before they bloom


most likely it will not be exactly what I thought,

but it could be much more and 

more beautiful then I imagine....

I trust..

I like to be the  cycle breaker.

I realise that if I really choose to be one,

I have to let go of my comfort zone....every time again.

It is easy to believe that you 'are there'

because you left your comfort zone already so many times....


life is growing and you only grow 

if you are prepared to let go of your comfort zone.

You don't have to make big steps:

small steps, small changes

are not so scary....... 

and so much easier for you inner child

to deal with.

The north Node is in Taurus: 

big steps will make this energy afraid,

and will hold on to what it already has because 

'I know what I have and perhaps it get's worse if I change'.....

What if it gets better?!?

I planted bulbs,

contacted some people,

was quiet,

went for a walk,

did some 'emotional investigation'


I woke up better the next day.

The Lunar eclipse 

-Moon/Uranus/ North Node opposite Sun/Mercury/Venus-

makes a square with Saturn:

we have to take our responsibility

AND be unique, ourselves.

The challenge: 

do we set boundaries,

do we investigate or.....

do we believe everything we hear and see....

What will society mirror us?

Will we go from emotion to intuition,

or do we 'lash out'......

There are Mid-term election in the USA......

what are other governments/organisation showing us

and....can we AND be patient AND be responsible....

Most likely we will get mirrors in our family's:

are there still old patterns/structures that are outdated

and preventing people/children to be them selves?

Remember the bulbs if you feel overwhelmed.

You have to take action: plant them....

a small act but very very very important!

And then......

trust, be patient....

Know you don't have to do it all by self,

you are being helped..

Sunday 30 October 2022

Lunar eclips.

Eclipse are a about Moon nodes 
connecting with the Sun and Moon. 

Moon nodes tell us something \
about 'our path' on this earth, our soul purpose.
It shows our old habits/talents/comfort zones
and what we 'need to ' learn or re-learn:
new paths, courage and finding balance.

Nodes are about your purpose in life
and karma.
So we are supposed to let go of karma,
and 'climb' the mountain towards our purpose.
Being determent, patient and open for new.

Our south node is familiar's talents
can keep us in our comfort zone and 
prevent us from growing....

Eclipses are very powerful: 
they 'help' you to get out of your comfort zone
and to grow....
The Moon nodes are now in Taurus and Scorpio,
starting Jan. 2022 till July 2023.
Scorpio as the South Node: the past
and Taurus as the North Node: what we 'need' to learn....

Scorpio: passion/commitment/transformation and also 
war/wanted to control/cancer/power over....
Taurus: nature/safety/trust/honest/quality and also
stubborn/jealous/ possessive/materialistic.
The nodes changes signs every 18 months.
Every 18 1/2 years 
it will connect with your North Node.
this means that after 9/10 years 
it will connect with your South Node.
Perhaps you remember what happened with you
when you were this age.....

Most likely it was something Karmic.....
did you stay in this energy
or ......could you connect with your North Node.....

The Nodes help us 
to grow in our personal life,
and ....
if you are confronted with Karma 
when you are 9/10 years old,
you need loving and understanding parents.....
because you are touched by Karma.....old energy.....
What happened in your life?

Talented kids can have a tough time 
when the focus is only on there talent.....
Scary kids can have a tough time 
when the focus is only on the hurt......

Do you focus on the tree that fell down,
or do you also see that only part of the tree fell:
an other part is still standing.....

We, as society had the same Moon Nodes
from May 2003 till Nov. 2004
and before that
from Nov. 1984 till April 1986
What happened in your world at that time?
Do you see the spiral path and deeper truths?

Do you see that some trees are on the ground,
fallen down.
Others are supported by trees around it,
while others 'just' stand up straight,
and showing beautiful leaves.
Then you also see small trees...
just starting in life.
The bottom is covered with leaves:
making sure to give back to the new generation of trees.....

For me this is a picture of life:
not all pillar of life
are in the same stage....

While we have to let go in one pillar,
we can support,
start something new, 
and give back for the next generation,
in other pillars.....

Most important:
Can you trust, are you open to let go of control,
Can you accept the spiral as growth,
not as punishment.....
Can you accept that energy 'just is'.....
no judgement.....

 Nov. 8 we have a Lunar eclipse,
feel and accept your emotions,
let go of fear and control 
and......let love in..... 

Tuesday 25 October 2022

Eclipse season

 When you look at this picture:

what do you see?

Is it a dark sky that looks threatening

or a sky that will clear the air.......?

Today there is a solar eclipse 

and the beginning of November

a lunar eclipse.

Eclipse season: 

a time to let go,

a time to look at mirrors,

a time of change.....


Power over/ Inner power



The eclipse is in the signs of Taurus and Scorpio,

Uranus is involved and Venus.

In Holland we had similar situations in the media:

people were missing and were found dead in the water.

A family who came back from a wedding,

and a child and her caretaker.......

it took days before they were found....

no one had a clue where they were....

There was an accident with 2 boats: 2 people died,

2 are missing.

Water, accidents, loved ones

and in these days of social media and camera's everywhere

they couldn't be found....

What do we need before we look inside and...

'find ourselves'?

Can we trust or do we look for conspiracy theory's ......

Do we hold on to the past,

when a lot was going on in governments/organisations 

that was not ok 

and did we decide to never trust again?

Or do we Know that we are grown/healed 

and will hold the persons accountable when needed

and the Cosmos always wants what is best for us......

22 years ago I was afraid of snakes.

When Bas decided to have a snake as a pet,

it was challenging for me.

'Herman' died this summer,

he shed a lot of times and when he died

it was a shock.

For me he was beautiful and showed me that letting go is good,

and needed if we want to grow....

Perhaps his dead is also a reminder

that we don't need him anymore as a mirror.....

A snake is 'Scorpio', a pet 'Taurus......

If I look at the first picture,

I see the tree, the tree that will go very soon,

I see the bushes with fruits, 

the autumn leaves

and fences.

I also see something that will soon be 'the past'

and I wonder how it will be next year.....

I am sure it will be good....

perhaps not as I imagined it,

but...perhaps even better!

Most likely, rain and perhaps storms are needed,

but for sure the sun will come out again

and we will move to the next stage....

I will make a picture from the same spot next year.....