Wednesday 26 April 2023

Can you 'Be the change you want to see in this world'?

The last months
 I started reading books about the history of Ireland.

By 'accident' I started with one,
and there was a second one and so on, and so on.
Story's about family's, suppression,
helping each other,
respecting each other,
power struggles,
family karma,
religious karma.

People in history took risks,
they didn't choose to look at there fears,
they choose to look at honesty, at fairness for all.
The choose to 'fight for' instead of 'fighting against'....

I remember the IRA and the bombings
and for me, then, they were the 'bad guys'...
I listened to the media and 'just believed' it....

It feels as the woman I met in the middle east 
who lived in Eastern Germany -behind the wall-
and her son asked her:
'why didn't you protest!'
Her answer: 
'it didn't even come up,
we thought/believed that it was as it was.....'

Pluto in Aquarius,
the last time Pluto was in Aquarius
was at the France Revolution.....
'Power to the people'....
Big changes ....

Inner power
Do we Know and remember
that we all have our own unique power....
Do we realise 
we don't have to compete,
we 'only' have to the Sun
and there is enough for everyone....

No one is better than someone else,
there is only the best YOU can be
and....that is enough.

When I read these books,
I realise that the determination of some people
changed our history...

People who stood up for people 
who were afraid to do it for themselves.
Afraid what 'others' would think of them,
afraid for their lives, family's,
their possessions....

How many of us can 'just' shine in their family's,
can 'just' Be.....
and let others Be as well......
Do we Know that everyone does the best he/she can
even though we would have taken other choices....

Do we have the need to want 'them' to change
or can we accept that they have their own path
and.....there is no wrong path,
only different ones.....
All bringing us 
to were we need to be:
Peace, love, abundance,
remembering we are all One...

As a present I got flower bulbs
and there were tulips as well.
When they came up, 
I saw something special:
One was different......
and by that made it special.

Are we feeling strong enough to take risks?
Do we do it for ourselves 
or do we do it to proof something....
If we do it for ourselves,
we will be happy or wise...

Most likely we won't  to be remembered
as the one who changes history,
like the man who burned himself in Tunisia,
or Nelson Mandela who was in jail for many years.

More likely we help change history
even if no one knows our name....
We change it because we change the percentages
that are needed for society to make the change....
When I looked for the number: 'only' 25 % is needed.....

We can make a change,
if we realise that WE are at the start of the Aquarius Age.
Do we need a revolution first
or can we do it in a peaceful way like Ghandi did...

I am not sure:
People are on strike for better wages
'The managers get more and more and we hardly can pay our grocery's'

There are more and more teenagers/young people
who are depressed and even choose suicide.
Do they feel they can be who they are
or do they feel they should be what others expect from them?

Groups of people against each other: 
anti-vaccination and pro-vaccination.
Talking without respect for each other,
wanting to be 'right'....
as if both of them don't have a good reason for their choice....

Both can be a choice from love and trust,
or fear and control......
If it is because of the last,
then you know there is a wound......
If there is no respect, you know a wound is touched....

LHBTIQ: how come we still need this.....
Shouldn't we respect and love all,
because we all are unique and special.
I expect and hope, 
we will not need this anymore
after Pluto left Aquarius....

Ghandi said:
'BE the change you want to see in this world'
I agree totally.
If you want to be respected, respect the other,
If you want to be loved, love yourself first,
If you believe our birthright is abundance,
give what you can give, your unique quality.

What will we do the coming years?
Can we BE the change we want to see in the world
do we want others to change....

Do we speak up for our ideals 
AND are we open to listen to others with other ideas?
Can we find the middle way and
set boundaries when needed,
or do we react: 
saying nothing/walk away or fight/being angry at...
Can we see an unhealed ego 
and are we open to heal it....

I hope and wish you look at nature,
enjoy the rest and peace you find 
in the forest, at sea or
in the mountains
I hope and wish you enjoy the time with your spouses,
kids, family and friends,
take the time to connect,
see each other face to face.

I hope and wish you all realise
that the most important thing in the world
is connection, is time with the people you love,
time with yourself.....

Mercury in Taurus, retrograde
will give you a much more easier energy 
if you choose to relax, accept and love yourself.
You always did the best you could you know better you can choose to do better.

Pluto will go retrograde the beginning of May,
June 12th it will go back in Capricorn again till the end of Jan. 2024.
So we will get to repeat the energy starting the end of March
till May next Jan/Febr.

The rest of the year we will be in the energy of 
Pluto in Capricorn....the energy we are in since 2008.
Did we transform,
or....did we 'just change'....

How about the banks,
the housing,
government rules,
managers with huge bonuses?
How about people with work
and not enough money to pay grocery's?
Do we still want 'more, more' 
and want others to make sure we get 'more'
or can we 'just Be'
Is part of us still 'stuck' in the past,
using fear as energy instead of trust?

Remember You are that 'unique tulip',
choose to go for YOU:
'Be the change you want to see in this world'.

Thursday 20 April 2023


Freedom for everybody

needs boundaries so everybody

will get a part......

How is it in our lives?

Do we believe we deserve everything we like,

or do we believe it is only for others?

Do we believe we can take what we want

and how we want it

or do we realise we are part of society

and need to be respectful of others as well:

'we are all One'.

There will be a new Moon on the 20th

and Mercury will move retrograde the 21st....

Pluto is connected and also Venus and Saturn:

can we transform or....

do we listen to quilt and shame

and forget to take our own responsibility.

Do we Know what we like or do we follow others,

believing that 'they know what is most important'.....

Do we take the time to go inside to 

re-think, re-invest, re-visit.....

take the time to change, let go

and.....start new....

Remembering that there is enough for everyone,

everyone is unique

and our birthright is 'abundance'.

Let's start 'small':

in our own lives.....

How do you treat yourself?

Do you give yourself what you need 

or are you withholding or being stubborn..

-Mercury in Taurus-

Do you give yourself 'good' food or lot's of food

Rest and relaxation or working hard for 'later'

Do you take quality time with the people you love,

or do you want the whole world involved -social media-

Do you take quality time with the most important person, 

you....or are others more important....

How is it with me?

I know I do a lot of things right


I also know I could do things better:

I don't take so much time for walking....

something I love to do, only.....

'other things are more important'

Is that true?

I am eating healthy most of the time,

but sometimes I don't like to take the effort to do it....

Why? Am I to strict or am I sabotaging?

I like to connect with people


sometimes I forget to connect with myself.....

I also can be very strict and judgemental towards myself:

I started guitar lessons and realise

I don't have a lot of patience with myself....

When I was talking not so nice to myself the other day

Jaap commented.....

I started smiling: 'practice what you preach' ;-)

How is it with you?

We are in the shadow of Mercury now and

between April 21 and May 15 it goes retrograde.

I am sure we will see the shadow of Taurus in this period:

misunderstanding in relationships,

with ourselves,

with money, with feeling safe.

Do we take responsibility 

or do we blame and judge.....

-my guitar teacher send me a message: he is sick,

his voice -Taurus- and.....he is a performance on the 21st.....

Am I still practicing or do I choose to 'take it easy'-

I also was invited for a reunion of one of the classes I taught 

about 40 years ago.....

Most of the time I wasn't in Holland when there was a reunion,

this time I could attend and....old emotions came up....

Most likely because there is/was still 'something'  that needs

dealing with/heal/accept from my past.....

-Pluto in Aquarius-

Could I be me AND part of the group?

I could :-)! 

I could AND I know there is more healing to do

especially with people who had authority then....

Now I realise that insecurity has many faces:

some talk like leaders but don't act like one....

In an old setting like this reunion,

I almost fell for it like old times.....almost ;-)

 How is it in your family,

with your friends,

in your relationship?

Are there mirrors you choose to look into

so YOU can decide to change

and feel peace, calm and safe

or do you still want the mirrors to change....

I saw some old colleagues at an invent 

the day after the reunion and

-while writing this blog-

realise that I moved on and that felt good!

If you feel free and you know how it was to be 'stuck' in the past,

you see and feel it in others who are not free....yet.

You will respect others.

You will make sure to set boundaries, 

not taking 'the odd part of the pie'

but you will take it in such a way 

that there is enough for everyone.

You will be leading by example.....

- one of the children then, went into teaching,

 'I copied what you did then for me and others. 

We all loved it so much and now

 I do the same for my students!'-

I don't like the word 'Fools'.....

it is not accurate......

Realise that not a fool but a wounded part is reacting like this.

If you are wounded you react and instead of being free,

it will imprison you....

Pluto in this eclipse is helping us to heal, to transform,

if we don't do it ourselves we will get help.....

only.....not always in the way we would like....

Always remember: 

you are much more powerful than you realise!

Thursday 13 April 2023


 We, human being,

have a way to stay in our comfort zone.....

to like balance to see as a fixed point....

Balance is like an old fashion scale: 

always moving a bit....

If you are to much on one site it is total out of balance

but most of the time we have no idea we are out of balance...

That is when we don't feel sick  but also not 100% healthy,

that we are not 100% unhappy, but also not 100 % happy.

We realise we are not in balance when something happens

and mirrors us:

we are hurt, get sick and/or react emotional,

instead of responding.

With Easter we had a full house: 

kids, grandkids were visiting

some needed to work, others didn't 

and we enjoyed being together

AND not everything was balanced.....

I know I 'only' have to take care of my own balance,

but....knowing and feeling are two different things ;-)

When they left I started to sneeze and got a cold.....

How did I set my boundaries?

Did old mind sets came up again?

Am I still holding on to old, outdated habits

that are not good for me anymore?

Do I take action I blame......

Do I like to control I trust......

Pluto in Aquarius: 

can we be equal, can we be the leader in our own life,

can we speak up from love instead of our unhealed emotions.

Can we follow our intuition or do we need to do what is expected of us....

Can we respect the other persons view.

Saturn in Pisces: 

can we trust or do we play the victim roll....

do we take loving action or are we playing the roll of  'martyr'.....

Are we already in balance

or do we believe we are 

and is one of the scales 

in a dangerous position:

almost tipping......

Do you want others to change or the situation to change


do you remember there can only be change

if  YOU change....

We are all energy, and everything is connected.

There is no good or bad,

it 'just is'.....

You also will keep attracting the same situations

in different jobs, different country's until you learn the lesson.

We lived in different country's and when we came back to Holland

I was not the same person I was when I left:

could I be myself coming back to 'the same' country/energy?

I didn't like to go was needed for my growth....

Most of the time, when you meet challenges,

it is because it is time to take a next step.

You are in a comfort zone and it feels good don't take action to grow and heal...

In life everything grows or dies....

and I believe we all want -our souls wants-

 to live and grow...

Do we want to deal with our fear,

do we want to deal with our grief,

do we want to deal with pain?

I believe no one wants to......

but we can not avoid these emotions....

Our souls 'want' to help us,

help us to feel unconditionally love,

so we will attract what we need.....

even though we don't always like what we attract....

Can you use the energy of Saturn in Pisces

to accept and trust AND be compassionate?

Can you use the energy of Pluto in Aquarius

to KNOW we are all unique and connected

and we need each other?

I hope you can and.....I hope you choose to....

Lot's of people face challenges at the moment,

it is good to let them know they are not alone.