A flower and a little field mouse.

 Sometimes you get a very special image on your path....

I walked past this bush....all but one flower was standing out.....

Standing out AND part of the bush.......

The energy we are in now and next year,

is letting go of the old and start something new.....

Like this flower: it needed the soil from the old plant to bloom...

Let's remember that our past can be fertile soil if you let it be,

or.....

you can put to much water on, and stay a victim....

I started this blog last week and....

I saw a same plant with also one purple one sticking out.....

What are the chances....

Everyone of us is a unique part of Cosmic energy.

How good do we know our own part?

I am close to my Solar return

and for me it is the time to look back.

With the second bush with one fresh flower

and finding a little mouse 

in the swimming pool were I was swimming,

it was time to find out what it meant to me....

It was a hectic emotional year for me.

As with the flower, I choose to be me 

AND....also realise that I am part of my past.

In our thinking world, 

emotions are easy to put in our cell memory....

In our youth most of us had to 'behave' meaning:

'don't make waves', 'make your parents proud'.

How is it in our adult life?

Are we still afraid to make waves?

Are we still thinking of making the people/the world 

around us proud and forget 

that we 'only' should make ourselves proud.

We can stop proving......we already ARE....

This last year I got 'help' to let go of the cell memory that was outdated....

Emotions that I 'parked' there to survive when I was younger,

emotions from my 'wounded inner child',

emotions that helped me develop my talents.

Also emotions that blocked who I already am: 

Love......'just Me'.....

I got help in the most beautiful way and also challenging way:

our grandchildren. They are angels on my path.....

It is special to see them at the age, 

that was a challenging age for me as a child.

Old emotions from me were/are mixed with my own....

By mentioning this, 

I also say that I got other angels on my path before:

our children.....

They helped me and are still mirroring me to be ME again.

So does this mean that if you don't have children,

you don't get this opportunity?

No.....my clients, people on my path,

neighbours, situations in the world:

they all are there to help you.

Help you if you choose not only to look,

but also to see....

That little mouse in the swimming pool:

can I let go of fear?

Can I be ME or better:

do I remember that I have the choice

to uses my courage and power 

that is already in me.,,

Jaap got a half new knee,

our bathroom is renovated

and......

because of a routine I developed in the past years,

I could deal with it all and enjoy.

In my work I see many people going trough challenging time,

most of their challenging starting at a very young age.

Insecurity, afraid to be themselves, anger, frustration:

control is not working anymore and......trust is very challenging....

'Accepting'

'Being patient'

'Taking one day at a time'

'The other/the world is your mirror'

All easy to say.....not so easy to do.....

A good thing to remember....

Because of the challenges in my own life,

I developed my 'courage muscle'.

'It will get better,

I don't know how at the moment,

but in the past it became better,

so it will be again.....'just be patient'

In the beginning I had a few doubt,

only it became better.....

not always in the way I imagined,

but always in a way that was good.

Life is meant to be living,

is growing,

is healing,

is going back to who you already are:

Love,

living the life you choose,

remembering that you are born to live in abundance.