Were did your transformation took place?

 Transformation.

Pluto went into Aquarius, leaving Capricorn behind.

If you know a bit about astrology,

it is interesting to see through which house/houses

Pluto traveled the last years.

That part shows were your transformation took place.

For me it was the 4th house.

It started in 1999/2000 and now it just went into the 5th house.

The 4th house is a water house,

your emotional roots, family karma,

talents and challenges.

It has to do with emotional caretakers, 

and emotional intelligence.

It is a cardinal house, 

so it helps you to create 

emotional security for yourself and otherwise.

It helps you to find  emotional security, 

so you can create and explore when Pluto moves into the 5th house.

My parents past away in 1998,

so when Pluto moved into the 4th house

it was a huge transformation.

We just moved back to Holland:

could I be Me in an 'old setting'?

Could I be my own parent and

be emotional available for my own children?

Could I see them as mirrors or did I like to 

trust my wounded inner child?

I learned a lot.

I let go of what I thought people expected from me,

I was hurt, had to let go of people who choose to leave, 

and let go of people 

who were not good for me anymore.

I let go of 'stuff', 

sometimes not by my choosing - a fire- 

and more and more

because I choose to let go.

We moved back to the Middle East and moved back to Holland.

More and more finding an emotional stability.

Also realising -this took time ;-)- that deep down

I believed people only loved me 

if I did something for them.....

'Just' being me 'wasn't enough'.....

I didn't realise I was in 'a cage'......

a cage I didn't know I could fly out.....

It was my choice to be free.....

Knowing that being free 

didn't mean letting go of all of the past....

My grandchildren were a next step,

They are great mirrors,

unconditional love and....fun :-)

I realised that there still was an old pattern,

an old emotion....

And while moving to the Middle East in 1982

helped me to get away and 'finding Me' again,

I realised that going to London to visit my grandkids 

I could even transform a bit more:

I could AND be there for the people I love

AND be there for ME.

The time when Pluto went through my 4th house,

was a challenging time and a transforming time.

When I had diner in London

with our son and daughter I realised it was

a healing time and I am so grateful for this.

We have to realise that by knowing how it spiritual works,

we can also use this as an 'excuse'....

An excuse not to deal with our own pain......

Avoiding emotions 'because it isn't spiritual'

so not to have to look deeper inside of you......

The coming years we will be confronted by this

more and more.

We are living in a thinking world

and to deal with our emotions 

we need sometimes the outside world.....

children.......

We have to realise that there are no short cuts......

If you have children in your life,

Know that they are your mirror

if you still like to avoid your emotions....

Be grateful AND.....

choose to deal with YOUR emotions,

so it will be easier for them.....

I know some people still pay lot's of money 

to 'heal in a weekend'.....

Wouldn't it be great if it would work like this....

only....

it doesn't......

With Pluto in Aquarius,

social media, AI, can be of a great help. 

It also can connect you with groups that forgot each individual talent,

and instead of your own power you are following someone else's,

forgetting you own unique talent.....

We can expect great inventions only:

do we remember that everything can be used for the good,

only also for the bad......

Will leaders use integrity or do they still want power

-unhealed emotion-

How is it with your integrity and do you still want power....

because you believe you are 'not enough'....

Can you speak up from inner power,

so you can help change the world,

not knowing you do.....

The children peace price went this year to

Nila Ibrahimi, 17 years young.

Did we forgot about the woman in Afganistan,

who are not allowed to show themselves,

speak, get an education and sing?

Does this mirror ourselves or part of ourselves?

Let's start with dealing with our own trauma,

have compassion with ourselves,

be open to let new people in

and let people go 

if they don't make you happy

even if you love them......

Let's remember who we are:

Powerful beyond measure,

unconditional love,

All One.....

What do we listen to and.....can we hear ourselves.....?

 In the media lot's is going on.

World wide people 'know' that Amsterdam 

is the centre of antisemitism,

Muslims were attacking Jews.....

Is this true, or is it only part of the truth?!?

After this was in the media,

some people showed video's 

of Israelis supporters.....

it seems they started it,

it appears they are not so 'holy' as it seems.......

Did the media report this?

Yes, they did....a little bit....

only.....

to attack 'Muslims' seems more important.....

If you read the above,

you could believe that I am anti one group

and pro another........

That isn't true.....

I am pro life, pro love.

I believe everyone is love 

and Know we are 'all One'

I also believe we only act like this

because of deep hurt and fear.

We start reacting instead of responding.

We react 

instead of looking inside and start healing.....

Today it is a full Moon.

The Scorpio Sun opposite the Taurus Moon.

Where are we challenged?

Where are we holding on to old believes

because we are afraid?

Afraid to let go and be ourselves again:

authentic, love and unique.

A lot of people feel they are in a storm like now.

It is challenging and tough 

to see it as 'clearing of a path'.

Pluto is almost leaving Capricorn 

and starting Aquarius.

Do we realise that each of us came here

with a unique quality?

Do we forget that we need to have patience,

determination and need to set boundaries as well?

When Pluto went into Capricorn,

it were the banks who didn't set boundaries,

organisations and governments who misused their power.

With Pluto in Aquarius,

we have to look at social media,

groups who believe in something and instead of thinking for themselves,

'just follow' what they hear.....

Are the people we listen to and follow, honest

or....

do they have an other motivation....

Influencers get money to promote.....

Do they want to influence people for the good,

or....

do they see it as an easy way to live the life they choose to

and is it 'just' a way to earn money....

The owners of social media....X......

do they realise their power and....

do we......

Honesty, integrity.. 

Good to remember......

Let's choose to be a positive roll model for the children now.

Let's choose to deal with our own issues so they don't have 

to solve them for us...

Let's imagine a future were we all live together,

Let's start with imagining a future 

with respect and honor 

to the people around us.

Let's remember that we are all mirrors for each other

so BE the change you want to see in this word.

Respect and honor yourself.

Take time for you,

be patient,

love yourself.

Children are our future - YouTube

'A little piece of you' ....part 2

 

This was written on the t shirt

you could buy at the musical.

Music touches emotions.

You remember situations when hearing a song: 

it brings you back in time.

Whenever I hear or see something from the Titanic

it brings me back when my mom was at the hospital.

-the sign of the Titanic was used in the musical as well..-

The first song from this musical was new to me,

and still.....it touched me.......

'Can you be YOU'......

The theme of  the mother and daughter.

Being a female in the 70's,

'mother and wife of' was her job:

who was she?!?

Anger hidden inside,

afraid of not being good enough....

Beauty isn't what you look like or do.....

it's who you are....

That night I became ill, had to throw up.....

I can't remember when this happened the last time.....

Luckily I didn't feel sick,

The next day I just decided to be careful what to eat..

'not letting in to much...'

How often am I still doing what people expect from me,

or better: what I think people expect from me,

instead of doing what I choose to......

Everything went fine and we travelled back to Holland.

Feeling grateful to have special days with Loes

and meet up with Bas: family is special :-)

This all was on the new moon, a new start,

an energy of Scorpio:

passion, deep cleaning,

what is blocking love,

needs to go......

And then, the first night I was home,

 I watched a program in Holland:

'The best singers'.

Popular singers come together for a few weeks

on a special location,

and sing for each other and share their life story.

The last evening is about duets.

Tangarine & Karin Bloemen - Too much heaven | Beste Zangers (youtube.com)

And .....

my emotions were touched straight away.....

like with the musical......

Nobody gets too much Heaven no more

It's much harder to come by

I'm waiting in line

Nobody gets too much love anymore

It's as high as a mountain

And harder to climb

I can see a new tomorrow
Everything we own will never die
Love is such a beautiful thing, oh
When you are to me
The light above
Made for all to see
Our precious love

What is my focus........

Do I realise how beautiful live is or do I focus on what is not good enough.....

Matthijn Buwalda & Claude - Mooi | Beste Zangers 2024 (youtube.com)

A beautiful song in Dutch/French.

A reminder that you create your own luck 

and are just as rich as you feel?

I thought about 'the anger' in the family.....hidden anger

 and...... also not so hidden anger.....

There is cancer in our family,

depression and suicide.

There is also laughter, love, compassion,

sharing and respect in our family.

'How beautiful life can be, it just how you look at it'.....

How much of the not so hidden anger 

were old emotions from within the family......

How come we judge this anger and are still ok with suppressing it.....

Is it because than 'we fit in', 'we don't make waves'?!?

Matthijn Buwalda - In gedachten | Beste Zangers 2024 (youtube.com)

Even if people can't hear how much you love them,

you still can love them in you mind....

They don't have to be in your live to still respect and love them.

It is just in an other way.

I choose to let the anger go,

because it will hurt me and I choose to stop hurting myself.......

That is why you sometimes have to let go of people

to make sure you will stay ok.....

The last song in show was:

'This is me!'

Karin Bloemen & Matthijn Buwalda - This is me | Beste Zangers 2024 (youtube.com)

Make sure you are YOU!

Be proud of it,

proud of all your scars,

of all your challenges,

because they helped you to be courageous.

They helped you to feel how powerful you are.

Let this Scorpio energy help you to let go.

Let go what is old and needs to go,

so you can feel your power more,

more love can come in.

These were some of 'my signs',

what signs did you get?

Whatever it is: 

cleaning, sorting out, repairing,

meaning conversations, walking in the forest,

feeling your emotions and......

listen to music, draw, dance,

do what makes you happy!

'A little piece of you'

 

November started,

the last month Pluto will be in Capricorn.

Pluto,

the planet of transformation,

the planet that 'only' wants love.....

Everything that is blocking this 

has to go away.

Do we see these leaders in the world

or.....

are we still struggling.

Do we believe 'everything has to go away'

or 

do we realise we can also keep the good from the past.

We learned from it

and move on in a better way....

I went to London with Loes, our daughter.

London for me is special. 

The last years I went often

and realised I can AND be helpful

AND take time for me.

This time we visited the Royal Palace.

A beautiful, calm place in the middle of London.

When you hear about all the terrible things 

that happened there you could say:

'we have to tear in down'......

Luckily they didn't.....

It shows us that the past has also beauty

we should keep and learn from 'the ugly parts'

We also saw a musical.

'A little piece of me'

We say the sign 

read that it was about a mother and daughter

and decided to go.

It turned out to be a musical,

written by a 17 year old young woman!

It play started in 2023, went back to 1998

and then to 1973.

Every time about a mother and daughter.

Only in 1998 it was the grandma and mother

and is 1973 the great grandma and grandma.

'Can you be YOU'.......

At the end you find out that the great grandma

committed suicide.......

This 'secret' was passed on to future generation

and stopped when the secret came out and

they could talk about it in the open..

Nice to see that boundaries -Saturn- came up also:

being You doesn't mean you don't have to do

the things you don't like but are necessary ;-)

It is 'easy' to talk about the world:

 'did we learn from the past'.

More challenging is:

did I learn from it?

How can you learn from it,

if you don't know it......

if there are secrets.....

Pluto doesn't like secret....

it likes 'the truth'....

How truthful are you?

How tough are you on yourself?

Let's decide to let go of expectation

that are not really yours,

but what you think others expect from you...

Let's decide to be unique, authentic

realising we all have a unique quality.

I am sure that the coming years

when Pluto moves in Aquarius

we all are building on this world of peace.

If not....

we most likely will need some cyber wars,

identity frauds

and AI challenges...

For sure Pluto will 'help' to make sure

the secrets will come out,

and Love will remain....