Sedna and the new Moon

 Sedna.

In 2003, Sedna was discovered, a dwarf planet.

Most of the time when a planet is discovered,

it says something about the energy we are in/or will be in 

in the near future.

-Pluto was discovered in 1930. The planet of transformation

and war......-

Sedna stands for sacrifices and hardships.

The believe that you are sinful.

It asks you to look at yourself and live YOUR life.

It asks you to learn from your challenges and gain wisdom.

It asks you to live YOUR life and let go of the thought 

that you have to live the life others think you should live.....

The new Moon on May 27, 

is connected with Sedna, Chiron and Uranus: 

a new start while confronted with your wound.

-mental and physical-

We are in a period of healing,

of communicating in a different way.

First with yourself 

and second with the people around you.

You first need to see and accept your wound

before you can transform. 

How do you think, 

how do you communicate with yourself?

Do you hear 'other peoples words'/ authority figures

when you want to do things for your self?

AND

 -if you do-

do you still follow their words OR

do you choose what YOU want to do......

Are you open/give yourself permission

 to free yourself from

old patterns/ old thoughts and

do you allow your self to live YOUR life?

I saw a great movie:

'the life list'.

While watching this, I realised

that I lived my life with an energy

of 'being sinful'/not being good enough.

Not as much as I had,

but still......there were parts that I couldn't let go.....

'Making things right' for others.....

I realise more and more that the only way to do this,

it to 'make things right for yourself.......

Sedna was in Aries from 1865 till 1966,

in Taurus till 2024 en now it is just in Gemini.

So this planet changed together with Uranus,

Neptune and Pluto.....

It is as if we all -energetically- choose to change,

only......

our consciousness didn't grow as fast

 as needed for this change

so we need 'help'.....

We get this 'help' world wide,

and in our personal lives.

The challenge: 

we don't always like this 'help'.....

we like to control instead of trust,

we believe we know better

-even if our circumstances show something different..-

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An older film, but very good to watch again.....

And as I mentioned more often in my blogs:

you can make a difference in the world

by dealing with your own challenges,

Remember: We are all One!

I had my second operation.

While operating, I had a good talk with the surgeon

and his assistants.

About working together and about people who believe in or/or

instead of and/and.

About science, about social media and the fear of people.

It fits in the energy we are in now......

Do you choose to think for yourself and find information 

to grow and learn

or do you follow social media/tik tok so you don't have

to think for yourself....... 

This time I talked freely

and there was understanding and balance.

I realise that 'the sign I got' helped me to grow and heal.

Now I could say what I felt, 

instead of reacting on what I felt by them.

I could set boundaries

in a natural way.

No emotions, only gratefulness.....

that is how intuitions feels like....

What signs did you needed/did you get?

Did you choose to look at them and deal with them

or.....did you need even more signs........

What ever it is, Know that they are 'only' there

to 'help'......

it doesn't mean that you must like them.....no...

it only means you can take responsibility for them

are heal and grow.....

-In Holland there is a young musical couple,

very successful, 18 years together. 

Yesterday they let the world know that

he -32 years old- has lung cancer and he can not be healed anymore.

They also shared that she is pregnant, their child will be born the end of the year.

They cancelled all there performances.

And then you don't want to talk about 'signs'......

you feel with them and wonder......'why'?

and also Know that accepting is not as easy as it sounds.....- 

Patience....

 Today Saturn moved into Aries......

Saturn asks us to be patient....

to be determined,

it will 'test' us, if we are ready for our next step.

If we are not: we will get another opportunity.

In it's shadow it can overreact.....

wants it 'my way'......

And......you will find out, you can not forget steps,

like you have to study if you want to pass your exam.....

Last year I got seeds for flowers

and after a while

 lot's of green plants showed up in our garden.

No flowers.....

 so I almost wanted to get rid of them:

to much without flowers wasn't what I imagined I would get!

When Kirsten -the person who gave me the seeds-

saw them she said:

'These are 2 years.....they bloom after 2 years.'

We kept them and now: we have lot's of coloured flowers:

beautiful!

If I hadn't asked, 

I would have taken the green leaves out

and I would have missed the beautiful flowers today.....

How determent are you?

Can you wait for something you really want

or do you want it NOW, when YOU planned it.....

instead of waiting till it is the right time....

Most of the time it has to do with control and lack of trust.....

Something that has to do with old patterns.

Now Saturn moved from Pisces to Aries

you can be confronted with 'old victim' energy:

what didn't you do the last 2 years because deep down 

you felt like a victim.......

What are the changes 

you are going to make the coming time?

We all get so many signs from the Cosmos to help us,

only.....do we see them, do we react to them

or......

do we hope we don't have to act on them because:

'it is someone else's fault'

In Holland there was a big demonstration,

peaceful: 'the red line'......

A message to the government:

'We choose you to represent us, 

only you crossed the red line:

do something about the genocide in Gaza!'

If you read my blogs the last year, 

you read that I got a lot of signs and.....

I thought I listened to them and took action,

only.......

I needed a physical sign as well......

It is as if I needed this to help me grow,

help me to really take the necessary steps

that my soul Knows I need to take.

Between the removing of the melanoma

and the next operation, there are 3 weeks.

 I already got lot's of opportunity's 

to heal old patterns......

I realise how often I act on the feeling of someone else,

not realising that it is not MY feeling, 

but the other persons feeling....

I feel the hurt, the anger, the pain from the other

AND.......

don't want to let them feel worse

and instead of responding, I react inwardly........

as if the old pain of the other is 'my fault'......

Looking into it,

I came to the base of this feeling:

I was only 5.......

A picture came in mind and I will share it,

if I can sort out how to do this ;-)

Me, my brothers and sisters.

My sister who didn't want to do what was asked,

and....adults didn't like it.....

and I still hear the reaction

'then you will not be included' while my dad/uncle?!? was laughing...

I also had to hold my baby brother:

you can see, we both didn't like it......

My sister did something great: she wanted it her way,

she was just 2......

I.....I felt that even thought there was laughing,

it was not tolerated and not ok, 

that she didn't do what 'the adults' expected from her/ from us.....

It is still challenging for me to say what I like

with the people I love if......they have a different opinion....

There is/was a part that feels that I have to have a good reason

to do a different thing then what 'they' want me to do......

I don't want to 'hurt' them, 

I want to make sure they are happy,

even though it is not what I want......

I also realise that I am so much better in doing this,

then I did 39 years ago!

It seems that my soul believes I need to do it a bit more

AND....I am doing that.

Lot's of people go through challenging times.

These challenging times are healing times......

'We are all One'.....

The best thing we can do to make a better world,

-a world of respect for each other,

be there for each other

and start a world of peace-

is making sure WE are being the best version of our selves.

A person who Knows that love is always the answer,

that emotions are helping us to heal,

to remember us we are on a path,

a path of love and light.

So: 

-speak up with respect and love

-forgive yourself for not knowing then, what you know now.

-have compassion and respect.

-be patient with yourself AND.....you are not alone...

 

An 'ugly Duck'

 May started with a quick energy forward and also

-starting may 4th when Pluto went retrograde, till Oct. 13-

a time for inner transformation.

Where do you have old energy's that you need to let go.

You get time to re-check, re-visit till October 13th.

It is the first time Pluto in Aquarius went retrograde,

so the theme is: 

belonging to a group/society AND being your own unique self.

Can you give unconditionally or.....do you give because you feel

if you don't they 'don't love you' anymore....

I knew, Astrology wise, that I would be 'tested'.

Not to punish me or to judge me,

'only' to make sure I am on the right path,

the path my soul choose.

So, I looked at the signs

and.....thought I 'listened' to them....

Only people around me believed differently.....

Did I do to much?!? I like what I do!!

And then....even an 'old book' got my attention

Take time for yourself and enjoy life.

So I went at Easter to the sauna with our daughter Loes. 

There she saw a mole: 'Mom, you didn't have this one the last time when we went'

I was not that worried but.....I let her take a picture,

that I send to the doctor.

As most of you know,

I had a Melanoma in 1986, the year Loes was born.

It was a challenging time.

When I spoke to the dermatologist later on he said:

'I was not sure if you would make it'....

Now Astrology wise, I have the same transit:

did I learn what I needed to learn or.....

did I need another wake up call and......

how 'loud' needed this to be......

The evening of the day I send the picture to the doctor,

I got already an answer back and.....

2 days later they took the mole out.

I got the same reaction as 39 years ago.....

they were very worried.

It was an 'ugly Duck'....a melanoma....

All old patterns came up and also:

'Then I had a very powerful will  to live: my kids,

do I also have a powerful will to live ....for myself?!?

The same day they took the melanoma out,

the kids and grandkids came to visit.....

It was already planned

and....it was great!

We did all kind of fun things and had a great time.

They left after 10 days and then.....I started work again.

I realised I love life,

I have so many things I can give

AND 

I also have so many things I enjoy.

I realised that I lived 39 years after the last Melanoma

and.......

I am not the person anymore who I was then.

I realised I was healing a part that was not healed from the past

and......

I trust that what ever would happen, I could deal with it.

Wasn't the 'ugly Duck' not a beautiful Swan inside;-)?

I made changes straight away,

after I came home from the removing of the melanoma.

I realist  that sometimes I didn't take my life serious enough

and let people go over my boundaries.

I am grateful for those people: they helped me to show were I needed to make changes.

Some didn't like it and.....that was/is ok.......

I realise that that is not on me, they don't have to like me:

I have to make sure that I like myself!

And then.....I got the results:

It is a Melanoma only in a very early stage....

I need another operation to take some more skin,

only.....that is it.......

something to celebrate :-)

This full Moon of May 12 is about letting go or holding on to......

Can you let go of control and trust?

Can you choose to stay calm in the storm

and Know.......

that the Cosmos 'only' wants to help you......

I most likely needed this sign,

it gave me motivation to change a bit more.

I still like to be there for others

AND....

I make sure I am there for myself first.....