The time after the eclipse......

 

We start this month with an energy

that 'helps' us to ground....

To ground, 

so we feel safe and secure....

more then we did before...

Safe and secure on a deep level.

This is a process,

we need patience and determination.

Remember my last blog:

Life is like riding a bicycle,

you have to move on or you fall....

 

Are you ready for to the next level of grounding?

How do you take care of your body?

 -what do you feed it? What do you read, watch and 

   which people do you let in?-

Are you relaxing and enjoying?

Do you have enough money?

Do you live your life or do you live a life

what people expect from you?

How are you roots? Deep and secure or are some only superficial?

 -are you responding or reacting when emotions are involved-

If you react:

 Know that a wound is touched, 

 Remember it is to help you grow, 

 and you have the courage inside to go through it.

In my last blogs I wrote about the retrograde planets till the end of the year:

we will get chances to re-write our story.

Saturn/ Neptune and Pluto are retrograde

and this month Uranus will also go retrograde.

-for me with a lot of Uranus mirrors the last months,

it will be interesting to see were in my life I 'forgot'

to be authentic/myself-

Let's choose to go deep inside AND.....choose to enjoy....

Let go of judging and negative self talk, 

let's choose to forgive and follow our vision.

From Sept. 19 Chiron, the wounded healer,

will move back into Aries.

Aries 

the sign of adventure, new beginnings,

of action.

The sign of independent, also impatient.....

of courage, determination and pioneering.

It moved in Aries in 2018.

Can you see and feel how much you learned, 

how much your courage grew?

Do you also feel that old wounds are less painful,

fears are not so big and you are more courageous 

and more determined?

What happened with you since 2018...

Did you start new things, take new steps

even when you were scared?

Have you been hurt by actions of others?

Was there 'war' in your life?

Where in you life were you afraid to take action

and.....do you still need to do it....for YOU?

Chiron will go back in Aries till next year April.

Choose to take the opportunity to deal with this wound....

What are you not doing now,

what you really want to do....

In your career?

In your relationships? 

In your environment?

Are you open to change your mind

for something new?

Most of the time,

we see what we don't want,

mirrored in the world.

If you are upset by what is going on,

most likely it is touching YOUR wound.....

A wound you don't realise you have,

a wound you are not ready to deal with....yet.

You/I project.......

so we don't have to go through the pain again...

Chiron in Aries 'asks' you

to 'just' take the first step,

to be open just like a little child.

Start new even if you are scared.....

Let September be a peaceful month for you,

take the risk to trust,

take the risk to be uncertain.

Choose to be calm in the middle of the storm.

Whatever is happening:

KNOW you have all what you need 

inside of you to deal with it.

Be YOU and shine in your own unique way. Part 3

 

'Just' a reminder.....

I choose to 'Face everything and rise!'

I got a lot of 'signs'......

all 'Uranus' signs:

 'where in my life

am I not doing what I need to do.

where in my life am I not authentic enough?!?

I got even an old 'nerve pain' again,

only.....it was gone after an evening and night.

Wauw, working with energy works quickly!

-I did some exercises and tapping-

And then......I fell......real hard...

My left knee was not ok......

I felt stupid how it happened.....

Angry and blamed myself.....

Was it broken of badly bruised?!?

I still could bike, I couldn't really walk....

It was late,

so in the hospital there was no x ray possible

but 'most likely badly bruised'......

When laying down, I was still going on with

negative self talk and....

all of a sudden I 'heard' my self talking.....

That was the moment I started tapping,

I started looking back...

I started to forgive and......

that was not easy, it was tough.....

-I don't know how many of you are tapping,

but if you do, 

you most likely experienced the feeling

of not remembering the sentences or 

feeling you have a 'speech problem'

What happened:

 I fell from a bike that was standing still....

I felt so stupid: 'how could I do this?!?

I know how to bike!'

It was not my own bike,

it was a bike with coaster brakes

instead of a handbrake.

But still.......

I also realised that, 

while I got the bike,

my mind was busy with 'doing things for others'....

'Life is like riding a bike:

you have to move if you want to go forward'

Could it be that it is time for me to realise

that if I choose to move forward,

I have to remember that if I have to 'pedal'.

Standing still is the same as falling down.....

AND....

Could it be that there is still a wounded child

inside that believes it is 'her fault'?

'You shouldn't make mistakes'?

Could it be that now it is the time to forgive 

at a deeper level and remember that everyone

did as good as they knew best?

That there are no mistakes,

only learning moments?

That learning is a life time goal,

and as adults you also have 'learning moments'?

Could it be that now I know better,

I do better.....first for myself?

Could it be that I forgive my parents,

forgive all kind of people in my life,

only......that I 'forgot' to forgive myself?

After the Sun eclipse, we are having the Lunar eclipse,

de Sun in front of the Moon.....

Shine.......

Choose to deal with your emotions,

be patient,

be kind,

be determent.....

I feel I am making progress,

my knee is slowly getting less sore.

I also feel I have to take it easy.

Uranus:

being authentic, being unique,

being YOU.

My knee is not broken....

so I didn't need a very tough mirror ;-)

Dolly Parton passed away.

'My outside is fake, but my inner isn't and that is most important'

She showed all of us how integrity looks like.

She showed what the meaning of:

'Be the change you like to see in this world' is.

'Everyone loved Dolly'......

She spoke her mind through her songs and interviews,

without judging......

She was grateful.......looked for the positive,

worked hard and was determined.....

How determined are you....am I....

Do I choose to 'move the pedalers and go on,

or do I 'brake'....

Do I choose for the comfort zone

and forget that the only way

to live your life is to move on......

Do I realise that if I do,

I will 'fall'.......

Luckily we have a choice

to stay down after a fall

or stand up again.....

Now is the time to shine!

Live YOUR life,

Be 'a Dolly Parton': 

make sure you inside is real.

Be YOU and shine in your own unique way! Part 2

 

Playing hide and seek....

His red pepper hiding on his back.....

When I walked around and asked

'please make a little sound',

he didn't answer.

In his own time he came out,

happy that I couldn't find him.

When I asked: 'Why didn't you make a sound

when I asked?'

He said: 'Then you would have known 

were I was!'

I had a day with my grandson Tim.

He and our other grandchildren Zoe and Niek

were around the last month.

Zoe started her school with the Moon eclipse:

can she still be herself and part of the group 

or does she think she has to adjust.

A new start for her......just like for us all:

a new start.

Niek has to adjust, going to 'the gitta'

by himself. 

Is he allowed to miss her

or are people around him trying to avoid this feeling?

Can he adjust at waking up earlier

because it is needed for his sister?

What is it for their parents, how is it for the rest of the family.

All mirrors.

For me, these mirrors help me to let go and trust.

It also touched a 'wound' in myself:

as a teacher and as a therapist 

who is looking at family karma,

I look at it in 'not a mainstream way.....

Is their still an insecurity about this?

I realised I didn't always take myself serious enough

and instead of responding, I reacted....

Looking inside helped AND......

a wound is less deep :-)

-I can not say it is gone.....time will tell ;-)-

The day with Tim mirrored me the energy we are in now.

We wanted to go on the bike,

only....the 'good' bike wasn't there.

The only bike we could use was the one with a

'wobbly' wheel.

'We can go by the bike or with the tram.'

He choose the tram and.....I am not familiar with trams....

He had exactly the place in mind were he wanted to go,

so we went.

-Isn't that exactly what we need to do: know were

we want to go and trust that we will come there

and have the 'tools' inside that we need....-

He had to put his shoes on,

not slippers anymore but boots.

When he had them on he said:

'I have banana feet!'

He was sure....so I said:

'ok, then we chance the shoes'.

When he put the one on,

he felt and.....'o, no, it is ok'.

-Could it be that if we start something new

we feel uncomfortable.....

we believe it is 'not good'

only.....it is good....

we only have to get used to the new phase..-

We had a great day,

went to the children books museum.

It was fully booked only.....we could get in......

'we showed up'.

We went looking for 'poffertjes'

and that was a challenge,

we went into a lot of restaurants 

and finally we found one.

We didn't give up.

We talked and he explained:

'When dad is as big as mom, then he goes to school as well'

Looking as an emoji figurine: 'Why is he crying?' and 

'perhaps the cat hurt him' -there was also a figurine of a cat...-

'That is silly a cat with sunglasses and a hat!'

When he saw some puddles he looked at me.....

'Yes you can walk trough, only not very fast,

because you don't have boots'

And....once was not enough....

'Oma, you have to go to!'

And I followed him.

He talked about his birthday,

his school 'villa Bloom' and Dorian, his friend.

In the tram he talked with people,

wondered why they went out

and told them what he did.

Talked about that you go to work to earn money:

'So you can buy an ice cream when you are on the beach'

We asked people for the right tram,

had to take extra escalators and enjoyed the time together.

Go with the flow,

seeing challenges and trust.

When we finally had our last tram

and had to go out,

he wanted to push the button.

Only.....an adult did this before he could do it and

'I don't want to go out!'

I talked about it and said: 

'we have to, because the tram will go again.

It was not nice of that man to do this,

but he didn't know.'

He went out and looked at the people in the tram.

They smiled to this little boy

who had all kind of story's about his day

and......was shocked he couldn't push 'the button'..

- This is also life. Sometimes it is not going as you want it to go,

not because it is your fault, 

it is just that you are not alone in this world.

The man who pushed the button most likely didn't realise

his action was not nice for someone else.-

On the way back, he found flowers, 

a feather, walked in 'a tunnel',

asked why the coffee cup was not there anymore

-it was on a chair in the morning-

and we found a ribbon in a store for his dragon.

We had to take a toilet brake and played with

toys, went home, made a dragon,

cut and pasted a bedroom and......

were reading books and singing songs.

Could I be me?

Yes, I had a great day.

My mirror: I didn't had a plan,

and I didn't need one: 

I could deal with whatever challenge came on our path.

The dragon we made? 

It was not the dragon he wanted to have:

it didn't have wings.....something for next time.

Make sure you heal yourself,

forgive yourself for not knowing then what you know now,

so you can 'Shine, in your own unique way'.

You are worthy

you are unique,

you are just the way you should be

You are loved.

Whatever happens to you the coming time,

trust and enjoy,

be patient and be open to attract what you wish for.

'Please make a little sound'

Is that not what we like to ask?

Ask, so we get an extra clue to find what is important for us.

AND....

is it not as how Tim answered:

'Then you would have known were I was!'

We have to look inside for ourselves,

we get the clues in the outside world.

Clues from our loved ones, our environment 

and the media.

The 'only' thing we have to do,

is feel........our emotions show us

were we need to look.

Can we deal with emotions.....

Do we recognise our emotions......

Do we choose to feel them....again...

Do we Know, 

that we now are mature enough to deal with them.....

Letting go or changing them.

Do we Know we can choose to find

mature ways to protect ourselves....

Do we allow ourselves to be patient.....

are we determined enough to go for what we want....

Tim is......

Most children are.

Can we guide and protect them 

like we guide and protect our inner child?

Be YOU and choose to shine in your own unique way.

 

How does this work in daily life?

How relaxed and 'at peace' are you

when you are busy, when you are late or

when something unexpected is happening....

Especially parents with young children,

or parents with children in their teenage year

will experience this.

These are the times that 'the cosmos' is testing you:

are there some unhealed emotions in you yet

or......are the -partly- healed....

Also adults without children who travel in a plane

with hungry/hangry children and their parents

with unhealed parts in them ;-)

People who watch the news, and discussion programs.......

without realising how energy works

can project their fears/their wound to the outside world.

Instead of healing and choosing what they want,

the choose to 'stay down'.....

A lot of people were focussing on the eclipse.

On the outside appearances,

lines for shops to get the last glasses to watch it life.

How many looked and the meaning of the eclipse?

Do you?

Donald Trump moved planes because of a threat

and......

he didn't let reporters know 

who stayed in the plane were he was suppose to be....

Infantino wanted to change the World cup of soccer,

without communicating with the board....

It is revealed now....

Can you be YOU and be part of the community.

Were in your live did you sell yourself short,

or.....did you 'outshout' yourself to hide your insecurity?

Were in your life are you reacting from an old pattern,

a pattern that has to do with 'proving'

that you are ok, that you are worthy....

It is time to focus on what YOU choose

and......if you choose from love,

it is always good for the people around you.

Sometimes the challenge is that you don't know/don't realise,

that there are still part in you that choose from deep fear.

Most likely you dealt with it before and 

will recognize an old pattern so you can choose different.

The most important sentence:

'read that right to left'

CONFICENCE kills doubt

PEACE kills jealousy

GROWTH kills ego

DREAMS kills fear

WISDOM kills anger

AMBITION/DREAMS kills laziness

Let this be our mantra the coming year

and be grateful for the mirrors we get.

These are 'just reminder' to help us go on

on the path to live the life we choose to.

Are we ready to 'just Shine'?

 

Pluto and Neptune went already retrograde

and now Saturn is retrograde as well.

We can be confronted with unhealthy habits.

Not to be punished, 

'just' so you can change them.

This energy will stay there

 till the end of this year,

so we get lot's of time

to create healthier habits.

Saturn, the energy of taking responsibility.

KNOWING that 'mistakes' are 'only' stepping stones

so we come were we like to be.

It is our upbringing, rules in society,

being patient, being determined.

It also means that you realise 

that life sometimes feels like 'struggle',

not because you are being punished,

no.....just to help you grow,

to build your 'courage and determined' muscle.

Then there is the change of the Moon Nodes.

They go from Pisces to Aquarius.

The Moon Nodes change every 2 years

and it is a cycle of 18 years.

They are always together: South and North Node.

The South Node is showing us what is easy for us.

We are familiar with this energy.

The North Node shows us what we are suppose to learn.

The last two years we were challenged to trust,

to let go of control.

We were confronted with situations

we couldn't control only.......

did we realise that we have the 'tools'

inside of us to deal with it?

  

I am sure you were dealt with situations/mirrors

were you 'only' could accept and trust....

You had to go on and do what was needed....

I hope that now, when you look back,

you see that you did the best you could

and it worked out ok or perhaps 

it worked out better then you realised.

It is not always easy

and you could also feel

that you were a 'victim' of the situation.

-war, illness, not finding a house a job you wanted-

I hope you took the time to go inside

and could accept, forgive and move on.....

The coming two years the South Node is in Leo.

Can we 'just BE' or.....

do we have to prove we are worthy

because deep down we are still not sure.....

Can we show our own leadership,

or do we have to 'proof' we are right.....

The North Node is in Aquarius:

Do we realise we are all One......that we are all connected.

Do we realise that a peaceful world only

can be peaceful if we respect each other

and see each others gifts?

Yesterday there was a 'hit' on a pride parade in Germany.

It shows that one person with an immature ego -Leo-

can hurt a lot of people.

It also shows that a group of people -Aquarius- 

is so much stronger.

Instead of focusing on fear,

they choose to focus on love and power.

I am sure there is some feeling of fear as well,

only......

they use 'Saturn' to deal with it....

They do what is needed to protect

AND go on showing and celebrating

that we are all unique and all part of society.

How is the relationship with yourself?

I hope you will focus and heal.

I hope you choose love and respect.

I hope you Know you were always worthy

and.....

I hope you heal and forgive yourself and others

for not knowing then what you know now.

The last time the Moon Nodes were in Aquarius:

2007-2009: Banking crises  -Pluto went into Capricorn as well-

1989- 1991: Berlin Wall fell, peaceful revolution.....

What do you remember what happened in your life?

How did you deal with it?

Are you ready to 'just Shine' or

are you afraid....

Do you still compare yourself with others?

Is there a part of you that believe you are not 'worthy' yet?

It is ok......

Remember: 

you ARE love,

you ARE worthy

Just take one step at a time,

build your 'courage and determined' muscle

and SHINE.....

everyday a little bit more.....

Healing.....the only way is to go in and plant a new seed.

 

We still have a frog in our garden,

we don't have a pond anymore.

More than 30 years ago we filled it up with sand.

Years ago I read about it:

'Frogs go back to their birthplace'

Every year, at the same spot

we see the frog.

I can hardly believe it is still the same frog,

perhaps offspring....?!?

How is it with us?

Isn't it the same?

Can we live our own life

or are we a prisoner of our past....

Do we go back to a place

that isn't the best for us,

only we keep holding on to it.....

Do we go back to what we know/knew,

do we pass it on to our children/grandchildren.

Do our children still live a life that is not all their own,

but karma from us and from our past......?

Are we living our own life

or.......only partly......

Partly because we can not let go.....

not always consciously, but subconsciously....

What is the energy you are in?

Do you feel energized or drained.....

What would happen if you could let go of control

and 'just' feel.......

'Just' be open to the idea that you are blocking your energy

by holding on to old energy....not even all from you......

most likely from your family as well.....

What if you could give this energy back to were it belongs

and fill the space were this old energy once was,

with love and peace........

What if we would stop to compare,

be grateful for all the little steps we take every day.

What if we choose to respect other peoples opinions,

AND speak up in a firm respectful way if these opinions

are spoken without respect.

Could it be that we start living from our power,

that we can touch other peoples power

and start a new 'movement'.....

With a lot of retrograde planets and Chiron moving into Taurus

it is a time to go inside,

Know that you ARE love,

born to live in abundance......

YOUR abundance...

Can you relax, take a deep breath or......

are you still to much in the 'doing energy'

What signs do you get from the outside world?

What kind of mirrors?

And: 

do you look in these mirrors and are you choosing 

to change something yourself or....

do you want the outside world to change.......

-The last time I looked in the mirror and I saw

my hair was a mess, it didn't change 

when I told the mirror to show me something else.

No....I had to get a comb myself and after combing my hair

the mirror showed me an image that made me happy....

I.....had to change.-

The spiritual meaning of a frog is: transformation,

cleaning, rebirth.

We are all in a time of transformation.

We all are getting mirrors

and.....

sometimes we go inside and change.

And....

 sometimes our inner child is still so hurt and wounded

that it 'protect' itself to feel safe 

and acting out in an emotional way seems the best way.

If you realise you do this:

be nice towards yourself,

be kind to your inner child.

Do something nice for yourself,

take the time, be patient

and be grateful for every little step forward.

Realise that this wounded inner child

is doing this 'just' to protect you,

to keep you safe.....

it still doesn't know you,

the adult you,

is there to help you...

to keep you safe in a healthier way.

How is it for me?

I get mirrors and I realise that when I do what I love,

I get a lot of energy.

I also realise that I feel my shoulders,

that my energy goes away if I 'don't do anything'....

Those are the times when I am with 'me'.....

So......what do I need......

Can I 'just Be'?

What part in me still believes that

'Just Be me' is not enough.......

What seed do you plant?

Choose to slow down and remember what YOU desire...

The end of the month starts with Mercury retrograde

-June 29 till July 27-

Mercury in Cancer: expressing yourself in an emotional

and empathic way, intuitive and sensitive or

-if not balanced yet-

in a emotional and critical way...

Cancer is the sign of family:

how do you talk to each other,

are you 'afraid' to address topics?

Are you judging and critical and......

how do you talk and communicate towards yourself?

Jupiter, the planet of healing goes into Leo:

it is about YOU.....

If you feel you have to proof something

and be fierce, you most likely are looking at an old wound...

Leo is like the Sun: it 'just' shines......

Most likely you will see energy of 'unhealed' leaders,

perhaps you recognize something in yourself....

I hope they/we/I .....will use the mercury retrograde period

to look inside and heal.

So, instead of reacting in a bossy, unhealed use of power.....

we respond in a calm, honest and determent way.

And then.....July 3th,

Uranus and Mars are connecting......

We already saw this energy in nature:

 a huge earthquake......

Can we use Uranus in a mature way in our own live?

Start new, communicate in a respectful way,

and stand up for what we believe in?

Or do we need something disruptive

to change?

Where in your life do you need to make changes?

Where in your life do you feel you are not doing

what is best for you?

Where in your live are you doing what you believe

'they' expect you to do and did you forget about you?

Did you look at your life cycle plan lately?

How do you feel when you close your eyes

and you are already there?