Transformation and renovation part 3

And then, 

the new extension is visible. 

On the outside you can already see how the outcome will be.

It looked even better then we expected!

It still needed a ceiling, but you could already imagine how that would be

If you are in this fase of transformation, 
you can imagine how the end result will be, 
you are determined,'
see some results and can imagine the rest.
It makes you feel happy and you feel you can already celebrate :-)

It is as with these storks: a happy family. 

Three young storks. 

Amazing to see and to hear them.

When we watch, 

we realized that it is not an easy job to be parents of 3 young storks!

They seemed pretty big already, 

however they were not ready to take care of them selves!

The parents flew on and of to feed them 

and had to walk many miles going over fields

to find enough food to fill the empty stomachs of there offspring.

Did they realise how much it would take

to do this?

How often do we start something new

because we think it will be amazing,

but 'forget' that it takes responsibility,

time, patience and determination?

Do parents know what it takes to raise a child

when they decide to have children?

Someone said to me one day:

'If I knew what it takes I would not have done it.'

My reaction: 

'You made that decision and now you can not go back,

you  have to take responsibility for that decision!'

With the renovation it looks like the 'hard part' is over.

When you are in this fase 

you expect some challenges...

and you know you can take them.

However, there will be other obstacles as well.

Some that ask you go take a leap of faith.

Do you want to deal with what is deep inside,

do you have the courage to go 'through the black hole'....

not knowing there will be 'light'....

Are you prepared to take the responsibility,

time, patience that it needs...

We had to break away some old walls in the house,

and to close the ceiling.

On the outside there is not a lot of change anymore,

but inside there is a lot happening.

I was confronted with old patterns, people from the past

and realised that I can't and don't have to safe people:

they can do it themselves AND...

that I realise that I 'use it as an 'excuse' not to deal with myself….

-subconscious- 

I also realised that I am more courageous 

and powerful then I think and...

that  I should read Marianne Williamson's poem  again….

in the 'I' form...

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness
That most frightens us.

We ask ourselves
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small
Does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine,
As children do.
We were/ I born to make manifest
The glory of God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us;
It's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we're liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

Whatever you want to change in your life,

if it is in your relationship, 

if you want to live a different lifestyle,

a different job, or life in a different environment:

realise that you will be confronted with your subconscious

and that this is very powerful.

Old patterns started there,

they started to  protect you, in a time when you needed protection.

Be grateful for that part AND be prepared to deal with its

determination to hold on to it.

Have patience and trust.... 

even if the road looks like it is going

into a dark whole...

trust there is light on the other side....

I am not there yet, 

I trust there is light AND

I am dealing with some parts in me that don't want to let go....yet….

That is ok.....

step by step, day by day.

In between I enjoy the progress 

of the renovation and transformation.

I trust that what ever will cross my path

I have the power to deal with,

and that it helps me 

to let go, so I can live the life

I like to live.

And I change the poem in the 'I' form...

My deepest fear is not that we I am inadequate.
My deepest fear is that we I am powerful beyond measure.
It is my light, not my darkness
That most frightens me.

I ask myself
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who am I not to be?
I am a child of God.

Me playing small
Does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won't feel insecure around me.

We are all meant to shine,
As children do.
I am born to make manifest
The glory of God that is within me.

It's not just in some of us;
It's in everyone.

And as I let my own light shine, 

I subconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As I am liberated from my own fear, 

My presence automatically liberates others.