and all of a sudden I 'had to look up'...
I made a picture, because I didn't know why….
When I looked at the picture I saw it….
June is the middle of the year,
Summer, Sun, 'Fun'...
June is also the month my mom died,
my sister decided she didn't want to live
and also my brother 2 years ago...
The Sun is at it highest point,
it shines...
whatever happens, it doesn't stop,
it goes on....
it doesn't have to proof itself,
it just is...
We all have a Sun sign,
we are ment to shine,
we have nothing to proof...
we only have to Be....
June has two Astrology signs:
Gemini and Cancer.
Gemini is like a butterfly,
it likes to meet people,
talk about all kind of things,
its the media, communication
in an easy way.
That is the fun of the summer
and
it can be a mask...
You show people that you are ok,
even if you are sad outside,.
You show what 'people' want to see from you,
or what you think they want to see from you:
a fun and happy person,
so you don't have to
talk about your deepest emotion,
and....they don't have to do it aswell...
People 'like' these people,
they are easy going,
don't worry, be happy.....
have lots of 'friends'....
Cancer is the sign of a new born baby,
of taking care of the vulnerable.
Like the crab it is soft inside
protected by a hard surface.
It walks backwards.
That is why, most of the time,
you don't see,
how sensitive these people are:
you see the hard surface...
to make sure they
don't get hurt again….protection...
They forget that with this protection
love can't go in as well....
they needed it as a child,
not as an adult anymore...
We as adults Know
that we have to think for ourselves.
Media is ok, but doesn't have to be true….
We study, read books, see good movies
to raise our consciousness.
We know we have to do this to grow.
We also Know that we are not children anymore,
we can protect ourselves,
we can let people know if they hurt us,
so we don't need that 'shell' all the time,
and love can come in as well....
I hope and wish
that the homes who were closed for visitors
because of the Corona,
will be open again.
Those people are hurt,
vulnerable, feel abandoned
and like to communicate again,
see loved ones again,
hold them,
so life can be fun and joy again.
Let's hope this will happen soon.
Are you dealing with your vulnerability?
Can you be sad and feeling loved,
Can you communicate and set boundaries?
I realised an old pattern.
When I read, talk to people
or walk outside,
I say: 'I didn't do anything'.....
-my Sun sign is Virgo and a part of me still 'thinks'
that I should be there for others and.….not for me...-
Although I talk about
-love yourself first,
-take time for your self,
-enjoy life
a part of me didn't believe it myself..
deep down I 'have to do....'
and.....
this time it clicked….
I am doing something all the time
or better:
Being all the time...
Letting go needs time,
and goes in parts.
You let go as much as you can,
till the next time....
For me it was time :-)
I believe we live in a positive universum:
every thing that happens, happens for a reason
and -even if you don't like it -
it is the best at that moment....
What do YOU believe?
Do you trust that everything that happens to you
should happen the way it is or
are you still angry…..
If you are,
I hope you raise your consciousness,
deal with your anger,
so we can make a new world.
https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/22323749-the-fear-cure
A good book to read….
Perhaps you can look at the past:
how did people treat you?
Did you have a safe childhood?
Was there fun?
AND
….this has nothing to do with having good or bad parents...
They didn't get you with a manual....
even though they did the best they could,
it could have been not good enough for you….
Accept it, deal with it, forgive,
let your wall down,
communicate with people
and start one step at a time
with a life You choose.
I choose to cut the stampers of the lilies…..
I loved the lilies
and realised that the stampers would make stains...
I could choose to let them go,
however…..
I love them...
Now, without the stampers,
I can still enjoy them…..
You don't have to let go of all...
only what you don't want anymore..
I keep the fond memories of my mom,
my sister and my brother.
June is a great month :-)
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