Let's turn wounds into wisdom.

Sometimes you realise hidden wounds when you are relaxed

and you do something else than you daily practice.

Perhaps that is what holidays are for:

to relax so you can let go of what is not needed

and start fresh....

For me it was embroidery.....

It showed me lot's of old wounds

and it showed that I am on my way and....

not 100% healed yet....

It showed how a path looks like....

I'll explain.

Grandchild nr 3 will arrive soon

and I realised I didn't ask my daughter if she would like me 

to make something for him.

I didn't ask my son and bonus daughter 

when the first two grandchildren were born,

because 'most likely they will not like that'

I assumed.......

So this time I asked and....

'I would love that'!

How often did of do I still assume things

instead of ask...

.-now Mercury is retrograde 

it is a very important question to ask for all of us...-

I started and.....because of the due date

I was working at it every free minute

because 'it needed be finished in time!

Not only did I do that,

I also asked the other parents 

if they would have liked it as well...

They would......

So...I decided to start with those straight after I finished the first one.

Grandchild nr 3 decided he didn't like the due date ;-)

so he gave me time....

While embroidering, 

I had to recount, 

I had to pull out parts,

I had to be creative and 

had enough time to re-visit the past.

How patient am I?

Do I believe I have enough time or is there still a part that

is afraid of 'not finishing in time'...as if there is a competition....

I realised I am not so tough on myself anymore:

a mistake is a stepping stone and.....I 'just' start again.

I also realised that a part of me felt guilty:

why didn't I ask my son and bonus daughter 

when she was pregnant....

Could it be that a part of me was 'afraid'

it was rejected or.....that they felt the 'had to say yes'.....

So: 

can I forgive myself for not knowing then what I know now....

Accept, forgive and move on....

Sometimes you don't see....

 It is like walking in nature and you don't see what it can give you...

I enjoyed blackberries many, many days when walking.

They were next to a path....

lot's of people biked and walked past it

and.....

they all left them there for me.....

Could it be that there is enough for everyone in this world,

only....

you have to see it and 

not every one will want the same...

so there is more than enough for you....

Do we take time to look....

do we trust,

are we patient,

can we 'just' Be.....

This new grandchild takes his time....

It shows us all to be patient.

We are all ready.....we think....

but he shows us to trust, to be calm..

New souls are entering this world

and also lot's of souls are leaving at the moment.

Not only 'old' people...

Can we deal with the energy we are in now?

Are we open to be ourselves, unique

or are we holding on to the past to much....

It is sad to have to let people go....

to not hold them physically anymore....

It is good to feel the pain and let the tears flow....

Most of the time it is touching other old wounds in us as well:
be open to heal those as well....

Be patient with yourself and the people around you.

I saw these trees in the forest,

they both fell

and.....will be fertiliser for the soil in the future....

Those people who are not in this world anymore,

brought love, wisdom and happiness to our world:

let it be the 'fertiliser' for our lives.

Perhaps the tears need to flow first,

and that is good and.......

lets take the next step when we are ready...  

This new grandchild

shows us to take the time,

to be patient

everyone has it's own time....

My embroidery is almost finished,

only the name and date has to be on his.

I first finished Zoe's, then Niek's,

so....

'what I forgot to do because I didn't ask'

 is resolved.

And....by this I realise how strict I still am,

as if I did something wrong....

On the other hand: 

this is also a strength.

I have determination, and will do what is needed.

It brought me were I am know,

It helped me to transform wounds into wisdom.

Now it is time to enjoy more and more

to take it easy

and realise that there is always enough time 

to solve something 

if that is needed.