A hiding inner child.......

 How are you?

Are you moving through life,

touched by social media,

feeling overwhelmed, emotional,

or are you in balanced and at peace......

There were so many Solar flames

that most likely 'old parts' inside of you were touched.

'Time for healing'......sounds good...

and mentally 

I believe we all 'want' to do this...

Only.....

our inner child can be so scared for this healing

and chooses to act out to protect itself.....

emotions.....

My inner child was hiding.....

and when I look at the picture above,

I could relate to it.....

For me the tapping worked 

together with looking in the past.

Literally when I was a child.....

Just image to be a girl of 3years old,

with a brother of 2 and 1 and.....a baby sister......

And then....a girl of 5, with a brother of 4 and 3 years old,

a sister of almost 2 and a baby brother....

Living in a small house.....

I talked about it with my sister and she said:

'Imagine how it was for mom....'

First I thought, 'yes, but...how must it be for a little girl?!?'

This sentence stayed with me 

and a few days later, 

I realised that a lot of the things I do,

I do for my mom........

To make 'her life easier....'

It was a shocking realisation AND.....it made sense.....

Now many things made sense:

how I am as a 'grandmother'.......

Why I do what I do.......

Then this arrived in the mail,

from a very special person.

Someone who doesn't always realise 

that she has a 'heart of gold'......

After this, I was ready for the next step:

'I am not my mom, and it is not my duty to help her.'

What does my inner child need,

the girl of 3 and the 5 year old girl......

I will investigate ;-) and give it what they deserve

and makes them happy!

For all of you a tip:

start using tapping again,

use Reiki,

do the H'oponopono........

Look at pictures from the past,

see your environment as a mirror.....

We put a net around our cherry tree:

setting boundaries.....

we like the birds only the cherry's are for us this year :-)

I love birds AND still I have to set boundaries.....

A snail in the house: 

be patient and determent, protection and safety in yourself

even if others don't see your worth. 

Find rest in yourself and the road to your goal.

And.... 

if you did this all and still are not feeling happy:

ask for help!

You don't have to do it all by yourself.

You are born to be happy, healthy

and to enjoy life.

To accept life as it is,

is the start to get the life you choose to.

This is why tapping works amazing:

'I accept and love myself......'

Can you see this words without stuttering and conviction?

I wish and hope you can....

You only can, if you are grateful....

grateful for the mirrors,

seeing them as a way to heal 

and help you on your journey.

Seeing them as a wrapped present....

You don't know yet what is in it....

You don't even like the wrapping paper....

but still you trust....

trust that it will be good for you.....

you 'only' have to be patient.....