Let's turn wounds into wisdom part 2

 Often I hear 'fear' when people talk about retrograde planets,

especially when Mercury is going retrograde.

Energy is 'just' energy....

Mercury retrograde helps us to communicate

clearer with ourselves.

If we are not clear in ourselves we get mirrors  

to 'help' us to get it clear,

it helps us to heal.....

Often we assume we are 'ready' and are shocked 

when something happens

that brings us of balance.

If this happens you KNOW an old wound is touched

and.....

you can choose to accept and heal on a deeper level

or let your 'wound talk'.....

It brings you back to the NOW.

It helps you to realise we go on healing and enjoying life

till the day we die,

It helps you to be humble, to have compassion for others

and ....to trust.....

These are ready and....

I didn't have to rush.....

there was enough time.

And when I thought he would be born,

we had to wait another day

and when we thought he would be here soon......

we had to wait a bit longer.

How calm and peaceful am I inside,

how much do I trust,

am I really patient or...is it a 'mask'...

Tim is born and I know I can trust my intuition

and I also realise 

that knowing something can be challenging too.....

I realise there are some old family patterns touching:

patterns that I see in the people around me/ in society.

Can we AND be ourselves AND be part of a group.

Can we set boundaries AND respect boundaries from others.

Can we BE instead of needing to proof ourselves.....

Uranus went retrograde so we will be challenged

about our authenticity.....

We can expect unexpectedly changes,

breakthroughs or breakdowns, 

restlessness and letting old patterns go.

Tim is born.

A new life, a new energy,

a name with a lot of meaning:

'honor to God/higher energy'

I Know he choose the best parents for him.

Parents who will love him unconditionally.

Parents who will stimulate him,

make sure he has fun, enjoy life, 

and take responsibility when needed.

By this he can BE.....

BE who he already is:

an unique, authentic, loving person.

It wasn't a very easy start.....

I can imagine, the energy in the world now,

is challenging for a new soul.

I also Know he has chosen the best parents

he can wish for.

He also has the best support system

from family and friends:

no one can be loved more than him :-)

More and more people are looking at their wounds

and turning them into wisdom.

By this, 

more and more new souls who arrive in this world

will have an easier time and.....

can BE the change we all like to see in this world.

I like to change 'woman' into 'person'......

Let's turn wounds into wisdom.

Sometimes you realise hidden wounds when you are relaxed

and you do something else than you daily practice.

Perhaps that is what holidays are for:

to relax so you can let go of what is not needed

and start fresh....

For me it was embroidery.....

It showed me lot's of old wounds

and it showed that I am on my way and....

not 100% healed yet....

It showed how a path looks like....

I'll explain.

Grandchild nr 3 will arrive soon

and I realised I didn't ask my daughter if she would like me 

to make something for him.

I didn't ask my son and bonus daughter 

when the first two grandchildren were born,

because 'most likely they will not like that'

I assumed.......

So this time I asked and....

'I would love that'!

How often did of do I still assume things

instead of ask...

.-now Mercury is retrograde 

it is a very important question to ask for all of us...-

I started and.....because of the due date

I was working at it every free minute

because 'it needed be finished in time!

Not only did I do that,

I also asked the other parents 

if they would have liked it as well...

They would......

So...I decided to start with those straight after I finished the first one.

Grandchild nr 3 decided he didn't like the due date ;-)

so he gave me time....

While embroidering, 

I had to recount, 

I had to pull out parts,

I had to be creative and 

had enough time to re-visit the past.

How patient am I?

Do I believe I have enough time or is there still a part that

is afraid of 'not finishing in time'...as if there is a competition....

I realised I am not so tough on myself anymore:

a mistake is a stepping stone and.....I 'just' start again.

I also realised that a part of me felt guilty:

why didn't I ask my son and bonus daughter 

when she was pregnant....

Could it be that a part of me was 'afraid'

it was rejected or.....that they felt the 'had to say yes'.....

So: 

can I forgive myself for not knowing then what I know now....

Accept, forgive and move on....

Sometimes you don't see....

 It is like walking in nature and you don't see what it can give you...

I enjoyed blackberries many, many days when walking.

They were next to a path....

lot's of people biked and walked past it

and.....

they all left them there for me.....

Could it be that there is enough for everyone in this world,

only....

you have to see it and 

not every one will want the same...

so there is more than enough for you....

Do we take time to look....

do we trust,

are we patient,

can we 'just' Be.....

This new grandchild takes his time....

It shows us all to be patient.

We are all ready.....we think....

but he shows us to trust, to be calm..

New souls are entering this world

and also lot's of souls are leaving at the moment.

Not only 'old' people...

Can we deal with the energy we are in now?

Are we open to be ourselves, unique

or are we holding on to the past to much....

It is sad to have to let people go....

to not hold them physically anymore....

It is good to feel the pain and let the tears flow....

Most of the time it is touching other old wounds in us as well:
be open to heal those as well....

Be patient with yourself and the people around you.

I saw these trees in the forest,

they both fell

and.....will be fertiliser for the soil in the future....

Those people who are not in this world anymore,

brought love, wisdom and happiness to our world:

let it be the 'fertiliser' for our lives.

Perhaps the tears need to flow first,

and that is good and.......

lets take the next step when we are ready...  

This new grandchild

shows us to take the time,

to be patient

everyone has it's own time....

My embroidery is almost finished,

only the name and date has to be on his.

I first finished Zoe's, then Niek's,

so....

'what I forgot to do because I didn't ask'

 is resolved.

And....by this I realise how strict I still am,

as if I did something wrong....

On the other hand: 

this is also a strength.

I have determination, and will do what is needed.

It brought me were I am know,

It helped me to transform wounds into wisdom.

Now it is time to enjoy more and more

to take it easy

and realise that there is always enough time 

to solve something 

if that is needed.

Relax....and take one step at a time...

Does it sound harsh to you?

Probably you are still to tough with yourself.....

We all go through it,

one a little more than the other....

-at least it can look like this-

How we deal with it has to do with a mindset,

and also the mindset of a community/ country.

I still remember visiting people in Oman in the wadi's:

they were happy, open, sharing and....

didn't have 'stuff'......

They had to make sure 

there was enough food for the family that day....

There I realised that money is not the key to happiness.

I also realised that 'more stuff' is not the key.....

and a certain degree or job either.

I realised that we are all the same:

people who are curious 

and happy to meet each other.

How come young people are depressed,

people are 'burned out'

in country's that have enough money,

more then enough to eat

and enough 'stuff'.

In Holland they want to stop with 'cum laude' in University's:

'it is to much pressure for the student'..

How come we, as society, let young people believe

they have to be more than who they are,

that they are not good, just the way they are.

Why can people who can and want to study 'cum laude'

not do that in the future anymore?!?

How come we still believe 'cum laude' is better 

than 'just' university....

How come we believe a manager is better than a cleaner...

How come we believe we have to stand up for our right

to be who we are....

-men/woman/ gay/ straight/ transgender/ non binear/ black/white etc etc-

On the other hand there is a group 

that feel they are entitled to get what they want

without doing anything for it......

Both are images of an immature Saturn..... 

I believe it will change, energy never lies.....

Only....

do we need 'war' for this?

War between country's,

'war' between people,

'war' in our body's,

'war' in family's/community's or

do we choose to be patient with ourselves

and each other....

do we have compassion for ourselves and others?

Do we choose to listen to our emotions,

deal with them and heal them...

Can we enjoy life in between,

have fun and be grateful.....

Can we accept that

'Rome wasn't build in one day'....

Can we be happy for people

whatever they do, or do we still judge....

Can we be happy with our self,

without judging....

Can we use our mature Saturn:

patience, determination, responsibility

and realise we need boundaries.

-like the traffic signs on the road....

they help us all to stay safe and

 be free to travel were we like to go....-

Can we embrace our talents and accept our unique qualities

and also accept that others have different talents and qualities:

not better or less, just different....

Can we be happy that we are all unique

and do we 

-like the people I met in Oman in the wadi-

have an open mind when we meet 

new people....

Can we be curious, happy, sharing

and see them as 'another you'.....

Let's remember we are on the bridge to Uranus.

On our way to freedom, being authentic, honest

and respectful, a 'new society'......

starting with ourselves.

So....

sometimes it is a bit tough,

but...

we are on our way :-)

Let's choose to have fun on our path.

What did you do today that made you laugh,

grateful and happy?