I started this blog the end of April,
just before our holiday......
With the last full moon,
it could be that you were challenged....
Did you had a discussion or an argument?
For me an argument shows insecurity
unhealed trauma, control.
Control to hide fear and lack of respect.
A discussion shows connection,
curiosity and trust....
Trust that there is respect and love.
How do you protect your peace?
My way -for a long time- was
'doing'......to make the other feel 'good'.
While doing this I was also running away of a 'argument'....
Afraid of people being angry or upset,
afraid of starting a discussion....
angry voices/loud voices touched something inside
I didn't want to deal with......
Israel and Palestine.....Jews in world war 2
Iran..... the 'people' and religion
America.....
And.....now after our holiday....
Pluto went retrograde and will stay there till October.
We will re-visit the period from Jan. till now.
What will happen with 'the wars' in the world,
this energy can help to transform......
if we can let go of control.....
to let Uranus in Gemini help: communication at a new level
and Neptune and Saturn in Aries to have a grounded vision.
Pluto wants you to dig deep:
Where in your life did you avoid confrontations,
Where in your life did you settle
instead of go for what you want.
Where in your life you believe
you have still to control instead of trust.
Where in your life did you believe
you have to do it all by yourself and can not ask for help.
Our first day of the holiday I got a 'new mirror',
one I never had before: I got pickpocketed.......
I 'lost' a lot AND....gained even more......
Of course I had to go to the police,
got the time to look inside and realised:
'my love/power/money' is not in balance ....yet...
We traveled around, saw a nice waterfall,
went into a cave,
meet up with family/friend,
went together in another cave.
Travelled in the mountains
-scary roads......same as you go for what you want:
it is scary AND.....you go on....you want to see the view-
We stayed in an old 'finca' and in modern hotels,
in old parts of the city and at new parts.
There was a lot of rain expected,
only....we went 'around' it, it seems.
Only the last day we had some rain and....
because of that a beautiful rainbow
So, what will you choose to have the coming time:
arguments of discussions?
Can you have a discussion with your self?
A respectful one.....
knowing that most likely a wounded child is involved?
I hear people blaming them self if they need medicine,
as if they failed....
I hear people blaming them self for being to tired,
as if only working hard is ok....
I hear people blaming energy because they don't get what they want,
as if energy is about good/not good......it 'just is'.....
Let's choose to be honest, 'brutal honest' with ourselves,
what is our passion.....
Do we live it and if not: why not?
Pluto is not only 'brutal honest' it is
also brave, has all the courage you need,
KNOWS that YOU are powerful beyond measure....
Go for it!
No, I do not.
Do I believe that I could use it to help me?
I do.
-My dad said ones when money lose was involved: 'See it as an expensive lesson'-
Trusting is ok AND....needs boundaries.....
Loving is ok AND......needs boundaries....
Giving is ok AND......needs boundaries.....
It also showed me that I am much more at peace inside of me,
It also made me more determined to enjoy more
to have more fun.
To live even more in the Now.
At the end of our holiday,
I got a free meal......
it came at a moment when I didn't want to eat anymore.....
I was grateful and....felt I had to eat it because it was 'a present'....
Even if it is a great gift do I have to take it ?!?
Something to invest;-)
Abundance.....
I stopped to make a picture of abundance.
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