I was triggered and.....
a deep emotion came up.
My first reaction was:
accepting and supporting others....
'Just go on and find a way
to make the situation harmonious again.'
'This isn't nice for you.....'
A small sentence
someone said, that helped
this deep emotion to come up again......
I recognized a situation from the past,
in the beginning of my relation
where I choose to hide my feeling
as if I was 'not worth it'.....
I didn't know I was choosing,
It was inner conscious,
an old, immature habit.....
When seeing the picture above,
I realised that this
must be something deeper....
I must have wanted harmony
as a child so desperately/so much
that I forgot myself.....
Most likely it worked for me
so it became a habit,
a way to feel I belonged,
I was 'allowed to stay'....
Am I the only one in the family?
I realise I inherited it,
and most likely my parents did it as well.....
If I look at my siblings, my family
I recognize some of these patterns as well.
Some dealt with it,
some choose to project.
All is ok,
the only thing for me is:
what am I doing with it....
Can I choose consciously to change....
They 'ask' you to look, to feel, to
accept AND make a choice....
Do you choose to grow and heal
or stay in your comfort zone.....
You can walk away from people
-and sometimes that is the best thing to do-,
if you don't heal the part inside of you,
you will get new 'mirrors'.
The same kind of people/ the same situations
will come back to you
'just' to help you to let go
and see your worth...
The Cosmos is patient.....
you get as many chances to change as needed.
Be patient with your self,
and enjoy the path you are on.
Look at others
and see them as another you.
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