Experience shape you, you decide: fear or love....

 All the experiences in our life shaped us.

It started with our birth.

We had to go through the birth canal,

show courage to start this new life.

Mars.....the right to exist.

With Mars retrograde we can be confronted

with old pain, resistance, feeling blocked,

rejecting ourselves.

How much do you compensate?

Do you feel you have to prove something?

-How do you celebrate Christmas?-

If you do....most likely 

there is an old wound inside of you...

War, infections, anger, tactless, being passive aggressive,

not finishing things and being sexual aggressive 

are some signs of an immature Mars.

This week I saw the documentary 'The boy with no yesterday'.

It is a Dutch documentary

De Jongen Zonder Gisteren | NPO Start

about a young adult who got an brain infection when he was 21 years old.

Very bright, did two majors in university: economy and philosophy.

Very good in sports and played many instruments.

He went to Harvard and in his first year there was a trip to Mexico.

He didn't feel that well, but went.

He became very ill all of a sudden 

and a friend brought him to the hospital.

In short: 

they didn't know what was going on, 

they had to transfer him to America.

His parent and an uncle came -a neurologist- came

and....after 5 weeks he could play the piano again,

but was still very week.......

He didn't recognize is mom and dad,

he couldn't remember anything anymore before he was 21......

They went back to Holland and tried to do things to get his memory back,

only......nothing....

He didn't remember his brother and sister, friends

didn't remember what Christmas was, 

and had no idea how 'to behave' in a society........

There were 'no programs', 

he started with a clean sleeve.....

His drive to learn,

his ability to play the piano,

his humor was still intact....

It is as if there was no 'Saturn' blockage......

When he went back to Harvard to pick up his stuff at the end the year,

he came at the border to show his passport.

He knew that honesty was important so he was honest.

'Did you pack you bags yourself?'

....'no'......

They took him to a little room.

He got a next question:

'Did someone give you a package to take with you?'

......'yes'.....

For him it was strange that you couldn't be honest.....

he is pure, not afraid of anything,

so speaking to a lot of people is great for him.

He likes to share...

Was it always easy?

No.....he had a time when another infection came

and he had to take prednisone. 

He gained lot's of weight and got depressed.

'I was standing next to a railway crossing and didn't want to live anymore.

And then I thought: 

'I focus on the not so nice things. I can also focus on the happy things.

Can I make more happy situations? Yes I can! '

So I decided to make more happy situations. '

He doesn't go into finance anymore,

he is a teacher now, and the kids he teaches love him.

He still has the same friends as before:

'I make new memory's with them'

He is so grateful for his parents,

that they were there for him the whole time

for 'his new birth'...

Next year we have a Neptune/Saturn conjunction in Pisces:

Can we let go of being a victim, can we be firm And soft,

Can we remember we are all One, or are we afraid and think we need borders......

I heard an astrologer say: 

'We are mixed up....Saturn is the illusion and Neptune is real.....'

Thinking about this I agree.......

If you look at the story of this 'boy without yesterday'

then you see that unconditional love of the parents, no expectations,

only love brought him back to himself.

Now he is living the life he chooses to: 

'I want to do something good for society'

and

 'Perhaps I was programmed to go to university because this is/was my upbringing

and didn't I know what I really wanted.'

How is it in your life?

Do you do what you love

or do you do what is expected of you?

We are all going to 'the birth canal' to set food in 'a new world',

and.....

do you remember and Know that you have it in you to do that?

Do you embrace yourself, take the steps and feel your courage?

I hope and wish you can and do.

For now, it is almost Christmas.

The celebration of light,

the days are getting longer.

I hope you take the time to enjoy,

to BE YOU,

and let go of the thought what others think you need to be...

Mars retrograde....which wolf do you feed?

 How does the universe show you, your vibration?

On December 6th, 

Mars went retrograde.

Mars goes retrograde ones in the 2 years.

It is the planet of desire, action, energy, 

drive, courage, determination 

and setting boundaries.

If not in balance you see anger, aggression, 

arrogance, violence and in your body infections.

It is the planet of the warrior, the hero.

Just as it is with Mercury retrograde,

it helps you to look inside,

to re-visit, re-start, 

re-set, re- adjust, re-focus

and to re-connect.

Together with Mercury retrograde

it shows us more of 'hidden emoties'

that like to be healed.....

With Mars in Leo,

it means: 

reconnect with your creativity,

your unique spark 

that makes you shine.

To act with self confident, 

go after what you want

in a direct self-assured way.

How do you use your energy and....

were did you dim your fire......

Where did you put others needs ahead of your own,

Where did you stay quiet to avoid confrontation.

Where did you dim your light to make others more comfortable....

Leo energy is an energy as the Sun:

it IS....it 'Just' shines without having to prove anything....

If parts of you believe they are not good as they are,

Ego comes in......an immature ego:

it can go both ways: being 'a bully', a 'dictator'

or acting as a 'victim', feeling powerless...

So this retrograde Mars period - till Feb. 23 2015-

will help us to

-reclaim our space

-reconnect with your passion

-honour your creative fire

-setting boundaries there were they are needed.

.

Only....

this retrograde period

is not only in the sign of Leo,

it goes back into Cancer as well.

A totally different energy:

Mars in Cancer can avoid a direct approach,

is more emotional, defensive rather

then overly aggressive.....

needs emotional safety, 

can focus on the other, 

the persons we love and want to protect....

Sometimes forget about ourselves....

So we will re-visit,

re-connect, re-adjust 

this energy as well....

The pre-shadow period of Mars in Cancer started Oct. 4th

till Nov. 5th.

On Jan. 7 till Feb. 23 it is retrograde

and the post shadow period is till April 19.

The pre shadow in Leo is from Nov. 5th till December 6th.

Retrograde till Jan. 7th and the post shadow

from April 19 till May 2th.

So....this Christmas time with family

can be a time to be AND there for what your family likes 

and also what YOU like.....

Can you find a middle way.......

My Godchild lives in Lebanon.

She is lucky to have conscious parents,

they choose love over fear AND.....

they also 'have to' deal with old wounds....

they were in the war themselves as a child.....

AND....their parents as well.

Her mother shared a story:

'We are told when we have to leave our homes

 because there will be a bombardment.

We leave and have to hope our houses are still there the next morning.

Ours is still there only one of our friends was not so lucky.

Their son's first reaction: 'What about my lego?!?'

For me, this is how a shock looks like.......

I am sure he has conscious parents as well and....

still...it is heartbreaking.....

And still,  people choose to help each other....

choose love over fear.

What will happen the coming time for them

when they re-visit, re-adjust, re-set,

re-focus and re-connect.......

For me it worked out very personal.

I parked the car in The Haque,

two of our kids live there.

When going from the one to the other,

and wanting to go home,

I saw the damage......

Someone 'touched my car' 

and didn't leave a note.....

The video doorbell from a neighbour 

didn't reach that far....

so...it is 'on me'.....

 Instead of being angry, I was shocked

and surprisingly 'calm'.

Later on when I sat done,

took time to rest ;-)

other emotions came up.

 'did I do something wrong'....

and 'what about all the other area's of my life?!?.....

Guilty feelings come up

and 'the black wolf' was talking.....

Luckily the white wolf is stronger now :-)

THE LEGEND OF THE TWO WOLVES || Native American Legend

I realised that guild and responsibility

are often mixed up......

also in me.....

I also realise that guild is blocking energy

and responsibility is freeing energy......

it makes sure 

you take action and are determined

to live the life you choose to.

Syria, 

it was quiet for a long time.....

or better....in the media it was quiet.

In 2011 the war started

and....an 'old leader' was still in place.

Now Damascus is falling....

'People' claim their power......

 

Is this true? 

I am not sure....

Did these people deal with their anger 

and do they take action to be free

so they can build up a country for all people

or......

is there still a wounded ego

and will there be different people leading

in the same energy as the old ones did:

want power from fear, instead of power of love......

-Mars retrograde in Cancer and Leo-

How is this in your life?

In relationships, divorce/split ups...

Can you choose to forgive and

work together so you children can live in love instead of fear

or it there still lot's of anger, aggression....

Are you angry you didn't stand up for your self then,

and....can you choose to forgive yourself 

forgive yourself for not knowing then

what you know now?

How is it in your body?

What does it show you?

Do you set boundaries or......are you in a burn out......

Do you set boundaries or.....

do you 'feed' yourself with unhealthy food/information.

Perhaps it is time to look were you gave your energy away,

set boundaries and realise it is about YOU.

Who let you believe the other is more important then you?

Which wolf are you feeding?

The gift to heal....

 

You've got one chance, the gift to feel

Love's deepest pain you cannot heal

It shatters every memory that you keep inside

I tell you this because I know

Protect what's dear, don't trade your soul

'Cause there's nothing left around you

There's no place left to go

All you can, all you can

You gotta take this life and live it

All you can, all you can

Never let it go

There's one thing in this life I understand, oh

Più Che Puoi (Eros Ramazzotti & Cher) LYRICS + VOICE

'You've got one chance....the gift to feel......'

Most of us are brought up '

that only some feelings were ok......

Anger, pain, sadness and insecurity

were feelings to hide......

Happiness, and conforming to 'what society thought was right'

gave you the feeling of belonging,

of 'being al right'.

So instead of feeling

a lot of us learned 'doing'.......

Doing what society wanted us to be......

Most of the time an illness

war or other challenging situations

let us realise that this is important.....

'Dance before the music is over'

'Enjoy your life Now!'

How much do you Trust.....

and......

in what area's of you life 

do you still feel 

you need to be in control......

- 5 Pillars-

Even though I look conscious at my life

and deal with emotions,

I also realise that there are parts in me 

that are not totally free....yet.....

Can you respect the parts in you

that are not in peace....yet?

Can you accept your fear,

your pain, your insecurity,

your anger and.....feel them.....?

Can you deal with them 

without hurting others,

because you realise these are YOUR emotions....

Can you protect what is dear to you,

'don't trade your soul'......

Can you choose 

tobe respectful to the disagreement inside yourself.....

I used the last month to do all kind of the things

I felt 'I had to do' - Saturn-

so.....

I have the time to enjoy December

-Jupiter with the New Moon-

AND 

have time for unexpected events.

It gives me peace inside.

I realise that I have to communicate,

talk about my feelings,

trust my intuition

and.....plan....

.

I also feel and realise

that if I feel emotions,

that those are mine......

I am responsible for them.....

I trust that what I need to heal

and learn will come my way.

I trust that it will be ok.

My biggest challenge,

my greatest mirror,

my biggest joy

were my children/grandchildren this year.

They made me look at another great mirror:

my husband.

Can I be Me, being there for myself,

 AND be together,

 being there for each other

Then there are my 'clients':

Everyone of them is special and in there own way

they mirror me as well.....

They challenge my parts that are healed

AND the parts that needs some more healing.....

I realise, 

I only could/can deal with this,

because I let go of some old thinking patterns,

patterns that had to do with my youth.....

So......

how is it with you?

Could you let go of some 'old thinking patterns',

and heal the relationship with yourself

and the people around you?

Choose to be happy today....

Two new Moons.

 The last month of the year.....

A month starting with a new Moon and ending with a new Moon:

new beginnings.

To start something new, you have to let of of the old/the past.

How was this year for you, the people around you?

Mercury is retrograde at the moment and in the sign of Sagittarius

it helps us to find OUR truth.....to think for our selves

and feel......

For me the last month of the year is a month

of taking balance: how it is with the 5 Pillars.

Mind, Body, Relations, Society and Finance.

If you like to check this, you can re-read

my blogs from December 2016 in you like to read it in Dutch,

or from December 2019 when you choose English.

Neptune is going direct, so the 'fog'/illusions

of the last months will become clear

and with Mercury retrograde,

you can expect to get clarity:

what do YOU feel, what is YOUR reality.

Also: 

what are we doing if we/someone

it paying 6,2 million dollar for a banana with tape

while people are in war and in hunger.......

How is it in your life?

How do you spend your money and....

are you happy with it or.....

are you doing things people expect your to do.....

Mars will go retrograde as well:

were do you need to set boundaries,

do you recognize your emotional wounds

and protect them or do you react from them....

Saturn is in the mix of the new Moon,

as it Jupiter: be patient, have discipline

AND....give yourself space.

Space to heal and grow.

We already see signs of Pluto in Aquarius.

In Australia there is a social Media ban for children under 16.

Not to punish, but to protect:

studies show how it affects mental health, 

self worth of young people.

After 'no cell phones' in class, this is the next step.

In Holland some newspapers are not on X anymore:

to much disinformation,

no respect.

Dating apps are changing:

the way it was is not how it works for most of the people

AND....makes people feel unworthy of themselves....

I wish you all a good last month of the year.

A month to look back and reflect.

A month to look back and be grateful.

A month to look back and look at the positive changes you made.

Also a month to have compassion with yourself.

Especially if you 'heard' a voice inside

that 'blamed/criticized' yourself first 

instead of looking at the positive changes you made....

You are Worthy,

you are Love and.....

if you can feel this again,

you also will feel at ease, in Peace.

Sinterklaas, Santa, Christmas

is connected with December:

BE.....

and you will receive what you choose.

Enjoy a great magical month.

Were did your transformation took place?

 Transformation.

Pluto went into Aquarius, leaving Capricorn behind.

If you know a bit about astrology,

it is interesting to see through which house/houses

Pluto traveled the last years.

That part shows were your transformation took place.

For me it was the 4th house.

It started in 1999/2000 and now it just went into the 5th house.

The 4th house is a water house,

your emotional roots, family karma,

talents and challenges.

It has to do with emotional caretakers, 

and emotional intelligence.

It is a cardinal house, 

so it helps you to create 

emotional security for yourself and otherwise.

It helps you to find  emotional security, 

so you can create and explore when Pluto moves into the 5th house.

My parents past away in 1998,

so when Pluto moved into the 4th house

it was a huge transformation.

We just moved back to Holland:

could I be Me in an 'old setting'?

Could I be my own parent and

be emotional available for my own children?

Could I see them as mirrors or did I like to 

trust my wounded inner child?

I learned a lot.

I let go of what I thought people expected from me,

I was hurt, had to let go of people who choose to leave, 

and let go of people 

who were not good for me anymore.

I let go of 'stuff', 

sometimes not by my choosing - a fire- 

and more and more

because I choose to let go.

We moved back to the Middle East and moved back to Holland.

More and more finding an emotional stability.

Also realising -this took time ;-)- that deep down

I believed people only loved me 

if I did something for them.....

'Just' being me 'wasn't enough'.....

I didn't realise I was in 'a cage'......

a cage I didn't know I could fly out.....

It was my choice to be free.....

Knowing that being free 

didn't mean letting go of all of the past....

My grandchildren were a next step,

They are great mirrors,

unconditional love and....fun :-)

I realised that there still was an old pattern,

an old emotion....

And while moving to the Middle East in 1982

helped me to get away and 'finding Me' again,

I realised that going to London to visit my grandkids 

I could even transform a bit more:

I could AND be there for the people I love

AND be there for ME.

The time when Pluto went through my 4th house,

was a challenging time and a transforming time.

When I had diner in London

with our son and daughter I realised it was

a healing time and I am so grateful for this.

We have to realise that by knowing how it spiritual works,

we can also use this as an 'excuse'....

An excuse not to deal with our own pain......

Avoiding emotions 'because it isn't spiritual'

so not to have to look deeper inside of you......

The coming years we will be confronted by this

more and more.

We are living in a thinking world

and to deal with our emotions 

we need sometimes the outside world.....

children.......

We have to realise that there are no short cuts......

If you have children in your life,

Know that they are your mirror

if you still like to avoid your emotions....

Be grateful AND.....

choose to deal with YOUR emotions,

so it will be easier for them.....

I know some people still pay lot's of money 

to 'heal in a weekend'.....

Wouldn't it be great if it would work like this....

only....

it doesn't......

With Pluto in Aquarius,

social media, AI, can be of a great help. 

It also can connect you with groups that forgot each individual talent,

and instead of your own power you are following someone else's,

forgetting you own unique talent.....

We can expect great inventions only:

do we remember that everything can be used for the good,

only also for the bad......

Will leaders use integrity or do they still want power

-unhealed emotion-

How is it with your integrity and do you still want power....

because you believe you are 'not enough'....

Can you speak up from inner power,

so you can help change the world,

not knowing you do.....

The children peace price went this year to

Nila Ibrahimi, 17 years young.

Did we forgot about the woman in Afganistan,

who are not allowed to show themselves,

speak, get an education and sing?

Does this mirror ourselves or part of ourselves?

Let's start with dealing with our own trauma,

have compassion with ourselves,

be open to let new people in

and let people go 

if they don't make you happy

even if you love them......

Let's remember who we are:

Powerful beyond measure,

unconditional love,

All One.....

What do we listen to and.....can we hear ourselves.....?

 In the media lot's is going on.

World wide people 'know' that Amsterdam 

is the centre of antisemitism,

Muslims were attacking Jews.....

Is this true, or is it only part of the truth?!?

After this was in the media,

some people showed video's 

of Israelis supporters.....

it seems they started it,

it appears they are not so 'holy' as it seems.......

Did the media report this?

Yes, they did....a little bit....

only.....

to attack 'Muslims' seems more important.....

If you read the above,

you could believe that I am anti one group

and pro another........

That isn't true.....

I am pro life, pro love.

I believe everyone is love 

and Know we are 'all One'

I also believe we only act like this

because of deep hurt and fear.

We start reacting instead of responding.

We react 

instead of looking inside and start healing.....

Today it is a full Moon.

The Scorpio Sun opposite the Taurus Moon.

Where are we challenged?

Where are we holding on to old believes

because we are afraid?

Afraid to let go and be ourselves again:

authentic, love and unique.

A lot of people feel they are in a storm like now.

It is challenging and tough 

to see it as 'clearing of a path'.

Pluto is almost leaving Capricorn 

and starting Aquarius.

Do we realise that each of us came here

with a unique quality?

Do we forget that we need to have patience,

determination and need to set boundaries as well?

When Pluto went into Capricorn,

it were the banks who didn't set boundaries,

organisations and governments who misused their power.

With Pluto in Aquarius,

we have to look at social media,

groups who believe in something and instead of thinking for themselves,

'just follow' what they hear.....

Are the people we listen to and follow, honest

or....

do they have an other motivation....

Influencers get money to promote.....

Do they want to influence people for the good,

or....

do they see it as an easy way to live the life they choose to

and is it 'just' a way to earn money....

The owners of social media....X......

do they realise their power and....

do we......

Honesty, integrity.. 

Good to remember......

Let's choose to be a positive roll model for the children now.

Let's choose to deal with our own issues so they don't have 

to solve them for us...

Let's imagine a future were we all live together,

Let's start with imagining a future 

with respect and honor 

to the people around us.

Let's remember that we are all mirrors for each other

so BE the change you want to see in this word.

Respect and honor yourself.

Take time for you,

be patient,

love yourself.

Children are our future - YouTube

'A little piece of you' ....part 2

 

This was written on the t shirt

you could buy at the musical.

Music touches emotions.

You remember situations when hearing a song: 

it brings you back in time.

Whenever I hear or see something from the Titanic

it brings me back when my mom was at the hospital.

-the sign of the Titanic was used in the musical as well..-

The first song from this musical was new to me,

and still.....it touched me.......

'Can you be YOU'......

The theme of  the mother and daughter.

Being a female in the 70's,

'mother and wife of' was her job:

who was she?!?

Anger hidden inside,

afraid of not being good enough....

Beauty isn't what you look like or do.....

it's who you are....

That night I became ill, had to throw up.....

I can't remember when this happened the last time.....

Luckily I didn't feel sick,

The next day I just decided to be careful what to eat..

'not letting in to much...'

How often am I still doing what people expect from me,

or better: what I think people expect from me,

instead of doing what I choose to......

Everything went fine and we travelled back to Holland.

Feeling grateful to have special days with Loes

and meet up with Bas: family is special :-)

This all was on the new moon, a new start,

an energy of Scorpio:

passion, deep cleaning,

what is blocking love,

needs to go......

And then, the first night I was home,

 I watched a program in Holland:

'The best singers'.

Popular singers come together for a few weeks

on a special location,

and sing for each other and share their life story.

The last evening is about duets.

Tangarine & Karin Bloemen - Too much heaven | Beste Zangers (youtube.com)

And .....

my emotions were touched straight away.....

like with the musical......

Nobody gets too much Heaven no more

It's much harder to come by

I'm waiting in line

Nobody gets too much love anymore

It's as high as a mountain

And harder to climb

I can see a new tomorrow
Everything we own will never die
Love is such a beautiful thing, oh
When you are to me
The light above
Made for all to see
Our precious love

What is my focus........

Do I realise how beautiful live is or do I focus on what is not good enough.....

Matthijn Buwalda & Claude - Mooi | Beste Zangers 2024 (youtube.com)

A beautiful song in Dutch/French.

A reminder that you create your own luck 

and are just as rich as you feel?

I thought about 'the anger' in the family.....hidden anger

 and...... also not so hidden anger.....

There is cancer in our family,

depression and suicide.

There is also laughter, love, compassion,

sharing and respect in our family.

'How beautiful life can be, it just how you look at it'.....

How much of the not so hidden anger 

were old emotions from within the family......

How come we judge this anger and are still ok with suppressing it.....

Is it because than 'we fit in', 'we don't make waves'?!?

Matthijn Buwalda - In gedachten | Beste Zangers 2024 (youtube.com)

Even if people can't hear how much you love them,

you still can love them in you mind....

They don't have to be in your live to still respect and love them.

It is just in an other way.

I choose to let the anger go,

because it will hurt me and I choose to stop hurting myself.......

That is why you sometimes have to let go of people

to make sure you will stay ok.....

The last song in show was:

'This is me!'

Karin Bloemen & Matthijn Buwalda - This is me | Beste Zangers 2024 (youtube.com)

Make sure you are YOU!

Be proud of it,

proud of all your scars,

of all your challenges,

because they helped you to be courageous.

They helped you to feel how powerful you are.

Let this Scorpio energy help you to let go.

Let go what is old and needs to go,

so you can feel your power more,

more love can come in.

These were some of 'my signs',

what signs did you get?

Whatever it is: 

cleaning, sorting out, repairing,

meaning conversations, walking in the forest,

feeling your emotions and......

listen to music, draw, dance,

do what makes you happy!

'A little piece of you'

 

November started,

the last month Pluto will be in Capricorn.

Pluto,

the planet of transformation,

the planet that 'only' wants love.....

Everything that is blocking this 

has to go away.

Do we see these leaders in the world

or.....

are we still struggling.

Do we believe 'everything has to go away'

or 

do we realise we can also keep the good from the past.

We learned from it

and move on in a better way....

I went to London with Loes, our daughter.

London for me is special. 

The last years I went often

and realised I can AND be helpful

AND take time for me.

This time we visited the Royal Palace.

A beautiful, calm place in the middle of London.

When you hear about all the terrible things 

that happened there you could say:

'we have to tear in down'......

Luckily they didn't.....

It shows us that the past has also beauty

we should keep and learn from 'the ugly parts'

We also saw a musical.

'A little piece of me'

We say the sign 

read that it was about a mother and daughter

and decided to go.

It turned out to be a musical,

written by a 17 year old young woman!

It play started in 2023, went back to 1998

and then to 1973.

Every time about a mother and daughter.

Only in 1998 it was the grandma and mother

and is 1973 the great grandma and grandma.

'Can you be YOU'.......

At the end you find out that the great grandma

committed suicide.......

This 'secret' was passed on to future generation

and stopped when the secret came out and

they could talk about it in the open..

Nice to see that boundaries -Saturn- came up also:

being You doesn't mean you don't have to do

the things you don't like but are necessary ;-)

It is 'easy' to talk about the world:

 'did we learn from the past'.

More challenging is:

did I learn from it?

How can you learn from it,

if you don't know it......

if there are secrets.....

Pluto doesn't like secret....

it likes 'the truth'....

How truthful are you?

How tough are you on yourself?

Let's decide to let go of expectation

that are not really yours,

but what you think others expect from you...

Let's decide to be unique, authentic

realising we all have a unique quality.

I am sure that the coming years

when Pluto moves in Aquarius

we all are building on this world of peace.

If not....

we most likely will need some cyber wars,

identity frauds

and AI challenges...

For sure Pluto will 'help' to make sure

the secrets will come out,

and Love will remain.... 

Your choice.......is it?!?

It is easy to talk about 'your choice'....

Is what you do today all your choice,

or is part of it the results of 'programming' in the past.....

I don't believe that we consciously choose to hurt people,

I believe we all want to live in peace,

we like to connect with others

and be there for others.

Be happy for their achievements,

and happy for your own.

How often do we make a choice because of this....

For me that is the only reason to have 'a war'......

I wrote about the Ho' Oponopono

and when using it,

I realised I wasn't really sorry.....

I said the words

only.....

I felt resentment towards the other person.....

When I realised this,

I also realised 

that I had resentment towards myself.......

Accepting this,

resentment changed into compassion

and......

'all of a sudden' I slept a lot better the nights after.....

Your choice/my choice....

If you don't deal with 'inner situations'

it is not your choice you are following,

you are following choices from the past....

Could it be that this is

 why it looks like we are now 

a 'world at war'?

Could it be that it is in our hand to change this....

one person at a time.......?

I am in a energy of letting go

and by this you find 'old stuff'.

20 years ago I made this

It was my wish and when I look at it now,

I realise it manifested already years ago....

This was on the back: 

'Long live Freedom,

Heaven on earth.'

This didn't manifest ...yet.

I am sure it will manifest as well.....

It takes a little bit more time....

a little bit more looking at 'inner situations'...

'In my dreams there is this image

of a beautiful angel.

She dances.

She comes to me in a loving way

with a outstretched hand.

Making sure,

I get the balance back in my life.

Dancing around me,

dancing towards me,

One for always.'

I hope and wish you choose to imagine your life

in the most beautiful way

and deal with your 'inner situations'

so you can make a conscious choice....

Your choice.