All the experiences in our life shaped us.
It started with our birth.
We had to go through the birth canal,
show courage to start this new life.
Mars.....the right to exist.
With Mars retrograde we can be confronted
with old pain, resistance, feeling blocked,
rejecting ourselves.
How much do you compensate?
Do you feel you have to prove something?
-How do you celebrate Christmas?-
If you do....most likely
there is an old wound inside of you...
War, infections, anger, tactless, being passive aggressive,
not finishing things and being sexual aggressive
are some signs of an immature Mars.
This week I saw the documentary 'The boy with no yesterday'.
It is a Dutch documentary
De Jongen Zonder Gisteren | NPO Start
about a young adult who got an brain infection when he was 21 years old.
Very bright, did two majors in university: economy and philosophy.
Very good in sports and played many instruments.
He went to Harvard and in his first year there was a trip to Mexico.
He didn't feel that well, but went.
He became very ill all of a sudden
and a friend brought him to the hospital.
In short:
they didn't know what was going on,
they had to transfer him to America.
His parent and an uncle came -a neurologist- came
and....after 5 weeks he could play the piano again,
but was still very week.......
He didn't recognize is mom and dad,
he couldn't remember anything anymore before he was 21......
They went back to Holland and tried to do things to get his memory back,
only......nothing....
He didn't remember his brother and sister, friends
didn't remember what Christmas was,
and had no idea how 'to behave' in a society........
There were 'no programs',
he started with a clean sleeve.....
His drive to learn,
his ability to play the piano,
his humor was still intact....
It is as if there was no 'Saturn' blockage......
When he went back to Harvard to pick up his stuff at the end the year,
he came at the border to show his passport.
He knew that honesty was important so he was honest.
'Did you pack you bags yourself?'
....'no'......
They took him to a little room.
He got a next question:
'Did someone give you a package to take with you?'
......'yes'.....
For him it was strange that you couldn't be honest.....
he is pure, not afraid of anything,
so speaking to a lot of people is great for him.
He likes to share...
Was it always easy?
No.....he had a time when another infection came
and he had to take prednisone.
He gained lot's of weight and got depressed.
'I was standing next to a railway crossing and didn't want to live anymore.
And then I thought:
'I focus on the not so nice things. I can also focus on the happy things.
Can I make more happy situations? Yes I can! '
So I decided to make more happy situations. '
He doesn't go into finance anymore,
he is a teacher now, and the kids he teaches love him.
He still has the same friends as before:
'I make new memory's with them'
He is so grateful for his parents,
that they were there for him the whole time
for 'his new birth'...
Next year we have a Neptune/Saturn conjunction in Pisces:
Can we let go of being a victim, can we be firm And soft,
Can we remember we are all One, or are we afraid and think we need borders......
I heard an astrologer say:
'We are mixed up....Saturn is the illusion and Neptune is real.....'
Thinking about this I agree.......
If you look at the story of this 'boy without yesterday'
then you see that unconditional love of the parents, no expectations,
only love brought him back to himself.
Now he is living the life he chooses to:
'I want to do something good for society'
and
'Perhaps I was programmed to go to university because this is/was my upbringing
and didn't I know what I really wanted.'
How is it in your life?
Do you do what you love
or do you do what is expected of you?
We are all going to 'the birth canal' to set food in 'a new world',
and.....
do you remember and Know that you have it in you to do that?
Do you embrace yourself, take the steps and feel your courage?
I hope and wish you can and do.
For now, it is almost Christmas.
The celebration of light,
the days are getting longer.
I hope you take the time to enjoy,
to BE YOU,
and let go of the thought what others think you need to be...
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