Looking back and.....looking forward....

 

This week is my 'old year'.....

time to look back....

look back at a special year

and.....

a reminder that I don't go that way.....

I go forward to the future.

I keep on looking at my own shadows....

I see people reacting instead of responding...

realising I do that still sometimes....

instead of reacting from power and love,

I react for fear...from guild and shame....

Often I 'just' read it in the wrong way.....

Talking about 

'being your self'

'loving your self'

'your worth it!'

is one thing.....

to feel it

and live it,

is another.....

How afraid am I, 

how afraid are we.....

feeling judge and....

instead of looking inside

we go to 'our old' guild and shame place....

My biggest drive it to let go of this,

so the next generation doesn't have to deal with my issues....

I decide to let it stop with me,

so they can thrive, live there own live....

I choose to look in the mirror,

be grateful for the past

and contribute to the future

by trusting, enjoying and be grateful.

I started my birthday life cycle plan 

and this is part of it...

I choose to deal with my challenges,

I choose to accept and be happy....

Knowing that all that happens will help me 

to become more ME....

I Know....

I can always see the same situations in a different way,

and....it can be from guilt and shame,

or from love, acceptance and gratitude...

Last week, 

I saw lots of feathers, and butterfly's

...so I know I am being protected.....

I also realise,

I can see situation in my way:

I can choose to see it 'negative or positive'....

We  were supposed to visit our son and bonus daughter in London

this weekend.....

for the second time it didn't work.....

I am sure there is a good reason,

even though I don't know what is is ;-)

I choose light over dark, 

what do you choose?

I looked back to learn from the past,

so I don't have to go through it again...

As a child I didn't have a choice,

now I have one.....

I choose to let go of old cell memory's,

not only from me,

also from my parents and grandparent....

so there is lot's of  space

for love, light and peace 

for me and....

for future generations...

Can you let go.....

even if it is challenging....?

I hope so:

the energy of 2020 is helping...

Perhaps it is not going as you imagined,

but I am sure,

it is going just as it should be.....

Let's look at the whole picture...