Can you relate?
I had a day when I had this feeling....
My energy was low
and I had to make a conscious decision
to step out of this.....
I went out for a walk...
It was raining,
there was mud
and there were a lot of people contacting me
who felt the same: 'in the mud'....
I walked and realised that
I wished for the Sun to come out,
the temperature to be higher,
the sauna's, restaurants and the terraces
to be open......
instead of accepting....
I stayed with the feeling
and realised a control issue was coming up.
I was not in 'the now'....
A control issue:
not accepting the way it is,
not dealing with old issues,
pain and hurt...
Not because you don't want it
but because the defence mechanism
you developed in the past,
was more profitable for you as protection....
More profitable for a younger version of you,
a version you aren't anymore,
only are not ready to let go.....yet....
even though you are older and wiser now....
This part made sure you felt you could survive,
that people loved you:
why should you let it go?
Do you recognise this 'control issue'?
Where is it in your life?
Do you realise it is something old,
something you don't need anymore?
Something that is blocking you
to live the life you want to live?
It is something that comes up,
so you can deal with the Saturn/Uranus
in your own life and bring it in balance again?
Was it really about the sun, the sauna and the restaurants
or was this just my projection.....
It turned out it was my projection.....
My control issue has to do with people:
clients, friends, family...
I like all of them to be
'happy, healthy and in peace'.
I don't think that is such a bad thing
if it wasn't for feeling responsible
for those who are not feeling like this....
.....as if it is my duty and responsibility
to make them feel good again.....
forgetting that 'the only thing'
I have to do,
is helping others
to feel and recover their own strength,
while developing my own strength and power.....
So what is my poison?
My poison is a poison that lot's of woman
and health professionals have:
putting yourself second......
In the last part of New Amsterdam
we see a new doctor who's theme
is 'self love'.......
Self love, so you have enough energy
to be the best you can be
so you can give the most you can give.....
What do you do for self-love?
Do you think you're worth it?
Do you set boundaries, fences
and build bridges.
Do you know why you can not accept
the world as it is now,
why you want to be in control?
-....and then I didn't have electricity and no internet.....
We choose for Solar panels,
and not everything was ready electricity wise:
'old stuff' had to go out, 'new stuff' had to go in
and....that takes time....
To use the free energy of the Sun
you 'only' need an converter.
I realised that it is as our life:
our Star sign, our Sun sign
shows our inner power,
the way we are supposed to shine.
we develop 'clouds' before the sun
and we temporarily forget to shine
till we become conscious again
and remember that we are love,
that we are powerful....)
In Holland there were two kinds of demonstrations last weekend:
one against the corona rules and one for climate control.
One was peaceful and loud, the other one violent and loud....
Do you feel
you have to defend yourself?
Are you explaining your actions
as if you have to proof yourself,
or can you
that you are just like the Sun,
powerful and love,
born to shine,
each in it's own way.
Could it be that we forgot,
forgot because society/people let us believe
early on in our life,
that we were not good just the way we are.....-Saturn-
Let's choose to shine,
let's choose for others to shine,
let's look and deal with our projections, our clouds,
so we all can feel our power again,
our strength, our love.
Perhaps we need to find 'our own converter' first
before we can transfer, make the change,
It took our Solar panels a day,
with some help of professional,
and as from tomorrow they can give back..
Did your find yours yet
and/or do you need help?
Ask and look around,
accept the signs
and choose happiness.