Emotion and freedom...

 

While in the sauna, 

looking at a chunk of ice on a hot furnace, 

I realised that melting a chunk of ice

takes time....

I left the sauna

before it was all melted....

....it was to hot...

Is this what we often do

when dealing with emotions?

We let go and....

then it get's 'to hot'....

and we walk away....

We are free to walk away,

and we are free to go back to them,

to deal with our emotions 

on a deeper level.

If we keep walking away,

instead of feeling free,

those emotion will put us in prison....

A prison.....

Is my mind open by wonder

or are there still parts 

that are closed by believe....

'When I see you, 

you are always enjoying what you do,

even drinking water.....'

'You are not realistic,

people don't take there own responsibility,

they don't!'

'We all will be chipped,

vaccination will be mandatory,

what will you do?!?'

'People think about themselves first,

they don't care about the community'

Do we really pay attention?

And then I mean:

attention to our own emotions

and let that be our teacher.....

or do we prefer to live in our own 'prison'

instead of freedom.

We only can go out of our own prison

if we see we are in.....

I woke up from a dream:

There was a test going on 

and everyone had to work for them selves.

I was so busy to do it right,

AND 

looking around at others.

I saw they got forms/papers,

that I didn't have and.....

I got anxious...

When the time was almost up,

I saw the same forms/papers 

were just next to me....

I didn't see them because I was to busy with others....

At the next step, 

we had to do exercises and puzzles

all around 'a place'.

I worked hard and....

again looked around at other people..

The time was almost up 

and I had not finished them all. 

I saw other people doing nothing

and I was frustrated: 

'why didn't they do what they had to do

or at least help others?!?

'Someone' asked them to do there thing

or help someone else finish.

One of them

-who did 'nothing'- 

came to me and....

was just sitting there....again....doing 'nothing' ?!?

When I woke up, 

I felt frustrated.....

Thinking about it, I realised

that I was judging.....

I wanted them to do more,

why?!?

How hard am I on my self?!?

Do I believe 

they do the best they can 

or 

do I think they consciously

are sabotaging....

AND

what does this mirror me...

Do I REALLY forgive myself for the past,

do I REALLY believe I did the best I could,

or is there still a part that is judging myself....

Quilt and Shame....our prison....Saturn...

Forgiving and taking responsibility.....

the key out of prison.....also Saturn...

The key to freedom:

the bridge of Cheiron...

 

Most of us are standing 

on the bridge from Saturn to Uranus,

Chiron.

The bridge that takes us

from responsibility to Freedom.

We HAVE to go over

if we want freedom.

We have the choice

to 'deal with the chunk of ice'

in our selves.....

take our time to melt it,

or walk away....

Going over the bridge to freedom

can mean we get our feed wet.....

...it is worth it! 

How do you see YOUR future?

I hope it is one of love peace and happiness :-)