June.....power or control....

 In the month of June the Sun is shining 

in two Astrological signs:

Gemini, the planet of communication,

Cancer, the planet of family, emotions.

My dad and my grandma choose to be born in June

and my sister and brother decided to leave this world in June.

So June is an important month for me.

The sun is shining all the time,

even if we don't see it. 

Clouds can block it, 

only.....they will move on:

the sun will always be there....

Everyone of us 

has a Gemini and Cancer part in his Astrological chart.

In the month of June the Sun will shine on that part....

every year again.

If you choose to be born in these months,

you are someone who likes to communicate with lot's of people,

you could be very good with the internet

or in business.

-Gemini-

If there are 'clouds' in front of it, 

it could be that you love to gossip......

talk to get something from someone else 

instead to talking to communicate...

Perhaps people in your youth thought you talked to much

and didn't like that,

perhaps you experienced business people without integrity,

and did you forget your talent of networking.

How do you communicate with yourself?

Are you open or are you judgemental?

If you were born when the Sun was shining in Cancer,

you are someone 

who wants to take care of people who are vulnerable,

you feel lot's of emotions, 

your family is very important for you.

Perhaps people in your youth didn't see how vulnerable you were

and hurt you unintentionally.....'clouds' appaired.....

To protect yourself you put walls around your emotions

and started to help others,

sometimes even when others didn't  want to be helped.

You 'think' you know better than they do....

you 'need' to protect them....because 'they can not do it for themselves'.

How do you deal with your emotions?

Who was there to protect YOU.....?

Are you judgemental towards your family or 

'the big family'.....society?

With the eclipse 

these parts are highlighted in all of us....

Are there old patterns that we need to address?

Can we deal with the Sun shining on these parts,

or do we focus on the clouds.......

The Sun is shining effortless, 

without force....it just is....

Can you 'just Be'......

Look around you: 

do you see power, or do you see control......

Can you see the difference?

Most likely you see parts in your life 

were you use your power

and other parts 

were you are still believe you have to be in control.....

I do.....

When I look at my grandma, I see a powerful woman.

A woman who lived through the war, was a business woman

and mother of 14 children.

She lived in a time that 'surviving' was a powerful energy....

When I look at my dad, I see a powerful man,

who went to fight in Indonesia,

and saw things who were not right.....

He came back as another man......

how did his 13 siblings deal with this, and how did he?

My sister was with me when we saw our little brother, Huub,

being killed by a car accident.

My mom send her to go with my aunt, 

so she would not experience all the turmoil.....

My brother was born a year 

after my brother was killed by that car accident.

We talked about Huub in our family,

he was there in pictures only......

emotion we put behind a wall....

We were a powerful family,

who needed to be in control.....

There is no good or bad,

there are 'only' mirrors.....

and we can decide to look in them....or not....

And if we look in them,

we see OUR version......

When we look at our life,

we see if we are happy with this version...

If not.....we can look again in the mirror,

and make another change.

We live in a different world now,

and we have other ways to protect ourselves

and be 

who we want to be.....

How is the month of June for you?

Did you make change?

Could you bring some walls down,

let old emotions go and realise

that by bringing these walls down,

positive emotions could come in as well?

Could you talk with compassion with your self?

Do you have more compassion with others?

This is changing DNA.......

YOU can make the change....

YOU are 'powerful beyond measure'

Is there something in your bag that is not yours?

 We all come to this earth with a bag....

a backpack probably.....

Lot's of talents and challenges are in it,

items we choose to deal with in this live,

because deep down we Knew,

we came also with the power to do this.

And then:

Life happens.....

We are helpless and vulnerable

and can not use our inner power ....yet

Our way of communication

is not always understood by our parents,

our siblings, our family and society....

and.....

we 'forgot'......

forgot our talents and our power,

forgot we 'only' have to deal with our own 'stuff'.....

We start filling our bags with 'stuff' from people around us.

People we need and love 

to survive in this world.

'Stuff' we 'think' will help the other 

to have an easier life,

and

'if we take it from them.....

they will accept us and love us more......'

Are we ready to give Ourselves what we need?

Are we prepared to let go of the old behavior?

Are we prepared to give 'the stuff' back to 

the people we took it from

because now we realise we 'stole' it from them.....

By taking it from them, 

we are blocking their path of healing and happiness

and making our own 

too heavy and slow....

blocking our own path of healing and happiness as well..

Emotions, body pains, 

mirrors from loved ones,

mirrors from society are all 'helping us'.....

We still have our free will,

we still have a choice....

we don't have to deal with it......yet....

Our soul will give us as much changes

as we need to......

The Europe soccer tournament and the new law in Hungary....

'They don't belong in the European Union like this' - prime minister in Holland-

The UEFA didn't want to make a statement -Saturn-,

only.....'the people' did! - Uranus-

We are all equal, 

we all should have the opportunity

to be ourselves AND be respected.

Be unique AND part of society.....

it is our birthright.....

The law in Hungary is one from the old world

one that shouldn't be here anymore.....

probably it is a mirror that there are still some people

who are ready to step in this 'new world'....

Some country's are opening up, 

others, 

with the same numbers of Covid patients, 

not.....

Is it because the government -Saturn- wants to protect

or is it because they don't trust 'the people' - Uranus-

to be ready to take their responsibility.........

Still, lot's of time,

 no electricity in Lebanon.....

What is going on?!?

.....we shouldn't tolerate what is not right......

We also should check if it is our intuitions talking,

or our old emotions......

Do we need to set boundaries...

do we need to forgive.....

Make sure you deal with your own emotions first,

give back 'stuff' you picked up from others/society and

be responsible for your own life.

Realise everyone came with 'a bag/backpack'....

be patient and compassionate.....

Sometimes you have to be patient

and wait till the storm will pass..

Sometimes you need to look inside

instead of looking outside:

The covid restrictions 'helped':

we got the time to look inside and 

find out what makes us happy....

It made us realise how powerful nature is,

and that we are not always be respectful towards it....

Do we still remember this and 

will we make long lasting changes?

No electricity a lot of the time:

you have to make choices how to use it,

only use it for what is most important.....

Uranus is electricity and also social media:

do we get the right information by social media,

or are we, by using it,

 programmed by AI....

do we forget to think for ourselves....

Is it a mirror for some of the 'stuff' we have in our bag

and is it blocking our own power to think

and be unique...

I am thankful for all the 'stuff' I had in my bag...

By dealing with it, 

I am the person who I am now.

I am more compassionate and more patient.

I am thankful for my heritage...

my ancestors, past lives.

When dealing with the challenges 

I felt more and more my inner power.

I felt the different between love 

and unconditional love.

Sometimes I had to sit out the storm,

sometimes my body 'helped' me to set a next step

and let go of emotions.

My parents, my siblings, my husband, our children

were and are great mirrors

as are all the different society's I lived in.

My bag is lighter, 

life is easier and more happy

and....

there are still challenges ;-)

Isn't that great!

It means there is still growing going on.

Isn't that what we all wish:

Becoming the person we are meant to be,

between the people around us.

Doing what makes us happy 

and by this 

helping others to make their life

a bit happier and more meaningful as well.

If we keep 'stuff' from others in our pack pack,

if we don't deal with ours,

we will give it as 'a present' to our kids,

and our society.......

They have to deal with it ....

one way or the other....

It is as with 'our stuff' in nature....

Wouldn't it be great

that we choose to deal with our own emotions in this life time,

so we can stop this cycle for the future generations.

Nature can not deal with our 'stuff'....

we have to do it ourselves,

like we can not deal and solve emotions for others:

they have to deal with it themselves....

We can choose to be patient, compassionate,

being a mirror,

'being the change you want to see in this world'.

Enjoying walking our path,

with a backpack that is lighter and lighter!

Looking good or being real.....

 With the Uranus/Saturn square,

there is a new leader in Iran.......

a 'Saturn in the box' one.....

If you loop deeper, 

you realise that less than 50 % voted......

Most people don't believe a change is possible.....

Jupiter the planet of growth and personal healing is going retrograde,

as is Neptune, the planet of Cosmic healing and Knowing we are all one....

Time to go inside......

Time to let go of immature believes,

Time to let go of old hurt, illusions...

Time to look for real.....and not only good....

Where are you on this scale?

Even if you go up one step, 

you will change the energy...

In Lebanon there are challenges with electricity......Uranus....

What is going on?

Could it be that a part of the country wants to be free,

only.....is acting because of old emotions, old hurt,

of blaming instead of taking responsibility.....

There is no good or bad.......there only IS.....

so let go of the blame and shame

and realise YOU are important....

I went to the funeral of my uncle.

It brought back memory's to hear the Latin singing.

It felt good and 'familiar'.

In church someone came sitting next to me,

someone who once was an important person in my life

and......my mind went in overtime......

Later on,

when talking about it with someone dear, from my 'inner circle',

 I realised that a part of me went back into an energy of the past.

About 'how beautiful it still could be.....

beautiful as I imagined it in a ideal world,

a world of the past. A world in my imagination.....'

I realised I fell in the 'trap' of Saturn.....

I could go back in that energy only....

the consequence would be,

that I couldn't be my unique self anymore:

Saturn......a strong energy......

Realise that if you are depressed, not happy,

Saturn is talking from it's prison....

the prison with a open door.....

you can go out and be free.....

only......

it could be that you have to let go of some people from the past....

At the end of the year 

we have the last Uranus/Saturn square.

What will happen in Iran,

in Lebanon,

in Europe?

Will Covid still be needed or can we handle it....

did we learn what we needed to learn

and live our own life again,

together will all the other people in our lives...

Do we choose to work for our passion,

and by that helping not only ourselves but also the world?

Are we prepared to let go of old believes

and make changes?

It looks so easy.....it is not always the case....

We went on a bike ride and past these beautiful flowers

It looks beautiful....

however you will not be happy if you touch it.....

The hogweed is very poisonous...

A good reminder:

sometimes we have to let go of what looks good,

but is not good for us.....

Are you prepared to let go what looks good

but isn't for you,

and choose for what is good for you?

My consults are different now, 

than when I started

and different than 10 years ago......

I changed, 

so my work changed as well.....

12 year is the cycle of Jupiter,

12 years ago Pluto was only a short time in Capricorn,

now it's at it's end.

What did you back then and how is it now?

Did you start something new and.....

is it time to do that again?

Did you let go of old believes, 

set boundaries and raised your consciousness?

Do you realise there is some more to let go,

and raise your consciousness again?

I realise and feel I need to make some changes again,

Changes that are touching my insecurity 

and my comfort zone....

so I know..... it is good ;-)

What is your focus?

Are you ready for change?

We had the second Uranus/Saturn square.

Are you focussing on the new?

Can you move on from the process of Awakening,

to the process of a higher level of your self: Ascension?

Someone posted this and I realised this is exactly

what is going on:

Can we/I be the change and lead by example....

More and more I see the last parts of an old society.

I also see how many people are the pathfinders in our society:

people who started the change....

A couple celebrated their 50th anniversary

and when talking about it, 

said that it went easy,

they felt accepted and respected.......

a gay couple...

They 'just' lived their live,

did what they loved to do,

and by that made a change in society.

Being gay.....was 'just' a part of them.

They lead by example,

I am not sure if they even realise it....

A special men left the earth last week.

A very religious men, 'old school'.....

loves Latin, loves 'how it was' and......

also proud of his son,

who is living his life in another way 

AND still asked his advise.

There will be a Latin mass for him....

to honor him.

It will be one of the last masses this way....I think..

More and more we Know, 

WE make the chance,

not a Christian, Muslim, Jewish or protestant faith.

All religion have one thing in common:

LOVE.....unconditional love....

Young parents with children 

find ways 

to be a parent AND be themselves,

do something for society...work.

More and more  they decide 

to have a -as good as- balanced live.

They realise that money is nothing 

if there is no love, no happiness.

They make choices, 

so they can be part of their children's life

and develop themselves as well.

Grandparents who are involved 

are setting boundaries too:

they want to be part of their grandchildren's life

and help their children,

but....they also want to have the freedom to live their life.

New energy.....

The crown princess of Holland

rejected her allowance -she will be 18 soon-

'I don't do much yet and it is not fair

for other students that I get it'.

New energy....

It also gives her the freedom 

to live her life as she wishes....a bit longer.

Israel want to change his leader,

people don't accept it anymore......

We still have one more Saturn/Uranus square in December.... 

People in political parties are standing up

for themselves and leave party's because they don't feel

respected....heard.....

Old politics are not working anymore.

We are not victims.....

we, as those politicians,

can use our courage to step out.

More and more you hear people say:

'I am not sure who is right......I don't know all...

We are 'awake'....more open....

New energy....

Next week Mercury will go direct again:

we will get opportunity's to choose differently,

or take actions on what we chanced inside of us

the last weeks....

Do we need to speak up?

Should we let go of  'the truth' because we realised

it was 'just' a truth?

 More and more country's are opening up.

More and more we have the freedom to go were we choose to go.

More and more we realise we have a choice.......

Can we make a new choice?

Are we ready yet or.....

do we 'go on' in the old energy again.....

I think most of us are ready for the next step,

there will be some old energy,

but that will be the last......

Perhaps persistent, but....

I believe it will go the coming years.

Will we be tested?

For sure.....I am already;-)

and I am sure you will to....

Just remember: 

we have a choice to use our courage

or stay a victim.......

Energy is fair,

energy will sort it out ;-)

energy is not good or bad,

it 'just is'.....

 

Mirrors and choices....part 3

Yes it is up to us,

only.....

we don't have to do it all by ourselves....

Others can  lead by example

and give us idea's 

so we can change our lives as well...

In my mind I see lot's of islands like this

and I imagine

that after this person left his island,

people on other islands got inspired....

I am sure the islands are not all the same,

and different people come with different solutions.

Perhaps one is climbing the tree 

and wants to change fruit for a ride on someone's raft...

It could be that on an other island the person

found a way to make music with the sticks

and made people happy with this....

All of these people do what they do,

and the focus is on being happy

They find solutions for the challenges

and....

by that they are -unconsciously-

helping others.

Helping others to be free....

to think different,

to be creative 

to be themselves and to go for the life they wish..

What happened after that?

Did they forget to 'just be'.....

How come they started to disrespect,

started to see differences and started to judge......

Started to see colour, gender, religion,

started to see 'money' as a tool and forgot that it is 

'just' energy.....like love.....

Started to see 'power' as a tool and forgot that it is

'just' energy, the same as  money and love...

Where 'they' not ready to come of their island?

Not ready to respect and live with others?

To work together?

Love is nothing if it is not being used.....

Money is nothing if not being used.....

'you can not even eat it if you are hungry'

was a saying of my dad....

Power is nothing if not being used.....

If that person on the island didn't Know

and didn't use his power, his creativity,

he would have stayed on that island....

probably miserable.....

He most likely didn't want to feel like this,

and used the love for himself 

to change....

This activated his power:

deep down he must have known he had it,

and he used this, to change his situation..

Most of us Know how important self love is

and I am sure you all dealt with unsolved issues.

Did you also go to the next step?

Can you also look at the mirrors 

about power and money?

I still have 'issues' with the money part

-....so also with selflove.....;-)-

How do I know? 

Sometimes I buy something

because it is cheap....not because I really love it.....

So....

part of me still 'thinks' there is not enough....

To give to others, is easy for me....

to receive and accept much more challenging....

Discounts.....

'because' you are part of a 'group':

a profession, vaccinated, retired, students....

How do you react?

How is it with my power?

Sometimes I still feel insecure.....

it appears to be 'fear'......

How do I know?

I realise that sometimes it feels 

that people want be to be in 'their camp'....

and......it feels uncomfortable,

as if I don't have a choice to be me

as if I 'only' am accepted 

if I choose what 'they' want me to choose....

Even though deep down I know it is my choice, 

there is still an old unhealed part....

afraid of 'prosecution'....

I choose not to be in 'a camp'...

I choose to be a member of this world,

a world with lot's of groups,

lot's of opinions,

some I like, some I don't.

It doesn't mean they are bad or good,

it 'only' means they are good or not good for me....

It's like the time when Aquarius is in the sky,

the time of carnival, 

just after the beginning of each year:

everyone is different and included....

it makes people happy 

and is a great party...

Can we go back to the start of it all?

Can we go back and remember....

on that 'island'.....

that everything is already inside of us

We are not victims,

we are 'powerful beyond measure'.....

Mirrors and choices ....part 2

When our son was a teenager,

there was a program on television about teenage pregnancy.

We started to talk about it and he said:

'I could be a dad now, why not?'

I was a bit shocked and asked how he thought to do that.

He had a great explanation:

all about love, caring, being there for a child etc  

I asked him:

'Do you think you can afford it?'

He thought he could. 

Then we talked about 

all the things a child needs 

and how much money each of these things costs.

After this he started thinking and realised 

it was probably not such a good idea...

'better to wait'......

He always was great with kids,

let them be themselves and 'attracted' them.

He loved to play and have fun with them,

a great quality for a dad,

however.....

that is not enough to raise a child.....

There is more to it and it has to do with Saturn:

responsibility, patience, stability.....

something that needs to grow.....

Now he is a father....

20 years later....

I see that he is responsible AND.....

still has his own way of doing thing:

using his/their rules and listen to their child.

Not always following all the rules.....

only those that are good for them,

and are not harming the community....

I am sure you have examples like this as well,

most likely from people you love.

Even though you were shocked and perhaps scared,

of what they said,

you wanted to know WHY they thought like that,

so you could understand their way of thinking.....

While writing I realise 

I had these more often with our children

but not always......

Sometimes I was frustrated that we couldn't communicate to understand,

but communicated to have our own way.....to be 'right'.....

because I 'thought' and they thought  we Knew 'the truth'....

If I look at the family I was born to,

I remember discussions at the table about all kind of subjects

and there were discussions 

were we listen to each other without hearing each other,

we were listening to respond......

to make sure the other would know that they were wrong.....;-)

I left the family dynamics when I was 23, by going abroad,

I left and...only came back once a year.

So many things happened in the family that I didn't know,

and they didn't know my life....

When my parents visited us after 10 years,

they saw a world they didn't imagine....

They loved it and we had a great time together

and it changed us all.

I realised that our story's about our daily life,

were 'just' story's.....

when they came and visit...they felt it.....

Then we came back to Holland 

and even though we visited every year,

it was different......

We were 'different' and for us, Holland was different.....

I realise that it was 'a big thing' energetically,

when we came back, 

the family dynamics changed again:

was there balance and respect

or was it time for us all 

to restore it.....

The Cosmos Knows......

it will make sure that 

what you need/ your soul needs,

will come to you,

to help you go back to yourself, 

to love and peace...

A lot happened and it appeared

there wasn't always respect....

there was still an energy of 'the truth' instead of 'a truth'...

When we left again to go abroad,

there were still 'discussions'.....

discussions with inner childs.......

There was also raising consciousness and healing,

and there was fear of healing......

Hurt inner child discussions with 'healed' inner child discussions...

Setting boundaries and....letting go....

Then my sister and husband and my brother and his family

 visited us abroad and for them

it was as when my parents came visiting:

totally different then what they expected....

Being there was different than hearing about it....

This 'story' is a Saturn/Uranus story....

a part of My story of my family.

Everyone of us has a different 'story'....

it is 'a truth'.....not 'the' truth.....

We as the world/country/community have a story as well.

With Saturn/Uranus squaring,

we want/choose to change what needs to be changed

and take responsibility and be unique.

We set boundaries if needed AND keep on respecting each other,

each of us has a path to go.

If I look back at our family 

I see hurt, frustration, pain, insecurity in the past

and also love, respect, and happiness.

I see healing and I see fear of healing,

of letting go.

I also saw hate....rejection...jealousy.....blaming...

This....

I choose to let go and so I had to let go of people.

This took time, was painful

and helped me to be more grounded,

and more loving toward my self.

I also see this in society......

and I realise how challenging it is for society to let go,

it took us as a family/ a small society, years.......

Can we do it in 'years' as well?

We started in 2008 and we 'should' be finished in 2024.....

we still have time....

Religious groups, LHBTI, foodbanks, nature, Corona,

Climate change  are some of the dynamics that where changed

and helped us to find a new balance....

one that is good for us all...

and we are not there...yet....

I am sure we all raised our consciousness,

and are open to heal more 

if needed....

Can we choose to start with our children,

with all the young people in our society?

Are we open to listen to them,

to let them dream and take them seriously

and also use our knowledge of the world,

to help them to choose which rules are important 

and which are outdated....

They are not here to make us proud,

they are here to make themselves proud

by doing what they are meant to be...

Being happy, healthy and enjoying life.

How is it in your family?

Is there respect or do you need to set boundaries.....

Realise that if YOU heal your inner child and set boundaries when needed,

you help changing the energy and it will change for others as well....

Trust.....

Society will give us and them other mirrors to heal

......as often and as many as needed.

If we all do this, then we can look at society

and most likely we will be amazed.....

And if you still feel challenged by what you see

and realise you can not change it,

remember that you have a choice....

Respect yourself and Know you are Free....

June, a month of mirrors and choices.

 And it is already June......

The second time we will get the energy

of the Saturn/Uranus square.

More secrets are coming up, shocking secrets.

In Canada they found a burial site with 215 children:

Indian children below three years old......

Shocking, 

just like it was shocking in world war 2

when Jews were prosecuted.

In Bosnia it were the Muslims.

The last years it was the LHBTI community

and recently the Palestinians...

Can we use Saturn to be responsible

or do we still sit in our own 'jail'.....

Do we still not see that we are all the same,

all Love......

do we still believe it is them against us...

Uranus is the planet of like minded groups,

respect for all.

Sometime you see groups/community's with a 

common believe and......

it looks like a doctrine: 

some believe that their group knows all,

that they have 'the truth'...

and there is no room for respect for other groups....

I don't believe there is 'the truth'....

I believe there is 'a truth....

I see it now in this corona time

with antivaccination and pro vaccination,

pro rules and against rules.....

For me it is just a repeating of an old issue....

It is not about pro or anti,

it is about raising consciousness, respect

and the choice to change,

if you know betters

and stay with your choice,

it that is better for you.

It is about love and respect,

remembering that we are all one...

For us it is unbelievable that people

could think less about Indian,

 Black people, Muslims, Jews,

Homo's, Lesbians, transgender, 

men or woman.....

However......

it was another time.....

I am sure 

most of them really thought it was right what they did

and felt awful 

when they realised there thought were wrong...

They are mirrors to us:

we all did things in the past 

we are not proud of now....

We did the best we could at that time,

but....

we would never do it again....

Can we forgive ourselves and move on,

or do we keep this old energy.....

With so many planets retrograde 

and with the Saturn/Uranus square,

the question is:

what is your choice?

Do you choose love and respect, forgiveness 

and remember 'they' are 'just' like you:

on a path towards love and happiness,

letting go of fear and trust....

or do we stay with the blame and shame.....