Bulbs.....

Last week, I woke up one morning with an 'old' feeling....

A feeling of not being happy,

dark.....

A feeling that you don't want to do anything AND

deep down you Know that doesn't help......

I remembered the flower bulbs that needed to go in the ground

and decided that I could do that.....

146 bulbs......that is a lot...

I got them as a birthday present.

Blue en yellow flowers will be in our garden....

if I choose to plant them.......

When I finished, 

I didn't really feel much better

only.....'a job that needed to be done, was done'

In the afternoon I remembered 

there were some more bulb,

bulbs from last year...

they needed to be planted as well.....

I did those in the afternoon.....

An eclipse is 'helping' us to bring up old patterns,

we have a choice how to deal with it.

Do we accept the feeling AND do something

or do we stay in the feeling and let the emotions overwhelm us...

Or.....do we run away from our feelings.....

This time I could accept.... and do something,

something I couldn't do with the same kind of eclipse in the past.

-I mention the times in the last blog-

I walked in the garden this morning

and realised that the garden looks the same

as last week, only......

there are lot's of bulbs in the ground

that weren't there last week.....

I also realised that I feel happy and grateful.

Realise that sowing seeds, planting new thought,

planting bulbs, walking in the forest,

smiling to someone in a shop,

imagining the life you choose to

will help.......

You change energy and.....

even if you don't see the results yet,

they will come.....

Like the bulbs I put in the ground....

I have to wait till spring before they bloom

and....

most likely it will not be exactly what I thought,

but it could be much more and 

more beautiful then I imagine....

I trust..

I like to be the  cycle breaker.

I realise that if I really choose to be one,

I have to let go of my comfort zone....every time again.

It is easy to believe that you 'are there'

because you left your comfort zone already so many times....

Only.....

life is growing and you only grow 

if you are prepared to let go of your comfort zone.

You don't have to make big steps:

small steps, small changes

are not so scary....... 

and so much easier for you inner child

to deal with.

The north Node is in Taurus: 

big steps will make this energy afraid,

and will hold on to what it already has because 

'I know what I have and perhaps it get's worse if I change'.....

What if it gets better?!?

I planted bulbs,

contacted some people,

was quiet,

went for a walk,

did some 'emotional investigation'

and.......

I woke up better the next day.

The Lunar eclipse 

-Moon/Uranus/ North Node opposite Sun/Mercury/Venus-

makes a square with Saturn:

we have to take our responsibility

AND be unique, ourselves.

The challenge: 

do we set boundaries,

do we investigate or.....

do we believe everything we hear and see....

What will society mirror us?

Will we go from emotion to intuition,

or do we 'lash out'......

There are Mid-term election in the USA......

what are other governments/organisation showing us

and....can we AND be patient AND be responsible....

Most likely we will get mirrors in our family's:

are there still old patterns/structures that are outdated

and preventing people/children to be them selves?

Remember the bulbs if you feel overwhelmed.

You have to take action: plant them....

a small act but very very very important!

And then......

trust, be patient....

Know you don't have to do it all by self,

you are being helped..