The Amaryllis 2021
started to bloom very quick
The flowers were to heavy for the bulb....
Luckily the stem didn't break,
so I put it up and
'helped' it to stand straight.....
Could this be a sign
that we/I have to look at our/my grounding?
Are there still some issues
that needs to be looked at
and dealt with?
I got this moon lamp as a present,
if you look close it is not nice and smooth.
If you see it in the dark,
it shines very bright and.....
still feels peaceful.
Do we deal with our emotions?
Do we allow the light to shine on them,
so they can be part of us,
or do we think we have
'to fight the dark'.......
As I mentioned a few blogs ago:
the planet Mars is active now:
do we take action, or do we fight.....
I choose to take action,
to take a walk in the forest,
to help me grounded.
I took a different 'loop'
just to realise that in 2021
I will do something new,
so I will be open to surprises.
I got a great surprise:
I saw a woodpecker!
I heard them many times,
but never saw one....
It was a great and easy walk.
And then I came at the spot were I had to make a choice:
I could go two different ways.......
My mind went back to a few days before:
I wanted to take one road
when two ladies came from that way
and asked me:
'Are you sure you want to go this way?!?
There is so much mud.......'
I looked at them and thought
'I don't feel like going through mud.....
and I don't want to go the long way.....
But.....I have to choose.....'
I choose the long way
and that was good.
I realised how quickly I trusted
two people I didn't know,
and how many people have trust issues.
'I don't trust vaccines, I don't trust government'
and come together and say
'We don't trust etc etc' and most of the time
you get the feeling:
' if 'you' trust them then you are on the wrong team'
How come we forgot we are all the same...
we are all One......
This time I took 'the mud way'.....
The beginning was good and I was waiting for
'the mud part'.
And there is was.....
I looked and choose to go past it,
that was possible :-)
I didn't have to go through
the watery mud part.
It felt good and I realised,
that we don't have to go through
all the old emotions that come up again,
we can go past them if we choose to....
I past it and when I looked back,
two men walked toward them.
One was talking about 'terrorists'
and I had to laugh.....
When he saw me he asked:
'Are you sure you want to go on?
It is terrible muddy further on,
much worse than this!'
I told them I would go on
and if it was to bad,
I always could go back.
'No, you should not go back if you are there,
but perhaps you shouldn't go on'
I told them I would take the chance
-and I remembered that on our lifecycle plan
I put 'adventure';-)-
This next part was muddy,
but I could walk on the side
and sometimes in the middle:
it looked worse than it was.
Isn't that also sometimes with situations in our life?
We think it will be tough,
but it is easier than it looks....
Then I saw this.....
One side with barbed wire,
so that was not an option....
I found my way.
It took time, and I went from one site to the other
to find spots that were not to slippery.
When I made it I was proud
'I was not to bad.'
It felt good that I made it
without being all muddy :-)
and I realised I liked it!
Isn't that how you feel
if you have to deal with something that is not easy
and you feel proud that you made it?
It is as when you could ride a bike for the first time,
when you got your certificate,
when you dealt with an illness,
when you had that tough talk,
and that worked out well.
So I walked on and thought:
if this was the worst or if there
still was something to come.....
there was an even worse part....
it was one with a fence in front of it....
a fence without a lock......
I had to go through
or I had to choose to go back.....
Isn't that where we are as society,
at the moment?
Do we want to deal with all the issues,
do we really want this new society....
Do we want to do what's needed to be done
and....do we know what we need to do.....
Do we 'think' we have to do it alone,
or can we trust that we are being helped....
Do we start with ourselves first.....
I went through it and....it was not easy.
Two woman came from the other side
'is it worth it' and
'why are we doing it'
'let's go to the other side'....looking at me....
I went very close to the barbed wire and....
that wasn't nice and easy...
and then I saw
that the ground
on the other side of the barbed wire was stable!
I went under it,
I had to stoop and bow......
And when I looked back,
I saw a little white feather on the barbed wire......
Sometimes you have to bow,
step out of a situation,
realise your 'job' is to be as strong as you can be,
to realise you are on a path towards yourself,
the best version of yourself....
Know sometimes it is different than you
thought it was....
And then there was another fence,
also without a lock
and something to celebrate.........
I could have something to drink here,
to celebrate that I finished my 'muddy path'
I didn't bring money.....
and the farmer who put's it here,
I love this and realise that I have to wait for the 'reward'
Like in our live,
sometimes we have to wait for the reward
we think we deserve it Now,
We have to trust that energy is always right,
the 'reward' will come
at exactly the right time.....
I walked on and it went quickly,
and I thought about the 'apple flaps'
that were still left from the night before.....
They tasted great :-)!
A great reward!!
For me this walk in the forest is a metaphor for 2021.
I didn't write this blog yesterday,
and after what happens in America
I understand why.
Donald Trump is showing us all,
what happens if you don't deal with your issues,
it you don't trust.
He shows he can attract people who are the same,
and that people can follow
and not think for them selves.
Let's choose to be grounded,
deal with our issues,
bow if needed and
use action to help,
not to destroy.
Uranus and Saturn will connect in Febr., June and Dec.
Mars will help at the moment.....help us to take action.
I believe the energy will help us to realise
we should do it together....
Healthy, mature ego's can lead,
they can say 'sorry, I was wrong'.....
If leaders can not say this,
than, I think, you should worry.....
Everyone of us makes 'mistakes'.....
'We do better if we know better'
Can you see your 'mistakes'
as stepping stones?
Can you see them
and let go of guild and shame?
For me that is a sign
that you are whole.
I am not there yet.....
I still feel guild and shame sometimes......
and I Know that this is ok......
I am on a path
and enjoying it,
mud and all :-)