Wednesday 21 July 2021

'On bended knee it is no way to be free'.......part 4

 


At the moment,

I get triggers, mirrors

about grief.....
old hurt....
I think we all get this
in different ways...

How free are we really?

Are we free to grief,
to deal with hurt,
or do we feel that
the way we do it 
is 'not the right way'....
not the way it is 'supposed to be done'.....


Do we feel free
to set boundaries with our loved ones,
or is there a part of us
that still feels guilty if we decide to do
something else than
they expect from us.....

How is it with the floods,
the forest fires, the inflation in Lebanon,
no electricity, crime...
Do we feel free to react in our way,
or do we react in a way 
we feel people expect of us.....

Could it be
that we are all dealing with grief....
Grief of letting go loved ones.....
Grief of letting go of ourselves,
'not allowed' to be,
just who we are.....

Could it be 
that we are all healing,
accepting the pain
and realising that after mourning,
we can decide to accept,
forgive and heal....



We have a choice to raise our consciousness,
let 'our container' grow,
and live from the 'green zone'
or 
we stay were we are....
go into a freeze, fight or flight reaction..



If you want to be free,
you have to know who you are,
you have to live from love....

It takes time to go back to yourself,
it takes patience....
it takes responsibility....
It takes consciousness,
It takes time to feel and Know that we are all One....
It also takes time to deal with the wounds
of your inner child....
It takes time to trust again....

We need to accept,
that we are all wounded....
We need to accept the unacceptable....
Our parent did the best they could,
the best from their wounded inner child....

We can choose to be and stay a victim,
or start to use our courage
and become a victor....
Set boundaries and be free...

Do we judge ourselves,
or are we patient and compassionate
with this part of us....

As an adult, 
you Know your are mirroring,
and realise that if you hurt someone,
you hurt yourself....
You Know your inner child
needs attention...

Be 'crazy',
if crazy means being yourself,
loving yourself,
being a leader by example...




The journalist, Peter R de Vries
was 'a crazy man'.....
I hope and wish we all will
find our own 'craziness'
and encourage others to be 'crazy' as well....

I realise that I am not always that patient with myself
and still can judge myself...
I also realise it is not fair to my inner child,
it had a tough time 
and 'only' needs love and protection.
Love and protection
and I am the only one 
that can give it.....



And then I see this in our garden.

It looks just as a green bush.
My first reaction: 
'Still no flowers,
will it ever bloom again?!?'

Then  I looked closer
and saw something white:
I moved some leaves
and saw this:

Lot's of flowers 'hiding'......
not ready to come out yet.....

Could it be
that this is a sign
that we all are further than we think?

We are almost there....
signs of 'a new era',
a new society,
were it is ok to shine,
to show who you are....


And while I am waiting for a client,
I get another sign:
Setting boundaries gives me freedom,
and most likely them to...
Let's be 'crazy'
and lead by example :-)



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